IgnitionInStars In reply to ??? [2011-10-13 15:26:22 +0000 UTC]

if you want, you can. but i think looking will be more fun.

ooh, you sound interesting, especially in trying to understand yourself. we should collab. (if you're down with that.)

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sammyfraz In reply to IgnitionInStars [2011-10-13 16:22:57 +0000 UTC]

if you want, but I have a much simpler style than most poetical types

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IgnitionInStars In reply to sammyfraz [2011-10-13 18:19:53 +0000 UTC]

i'm up for simple

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sammyfraz In reply to IgnitionInStars [2011-10-13 22:09:45 +0000 UTC]

so what is the simplest thought that you would like to express?

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IgnitionInStars In reply to sammyfraz [2011-10-14 16:17:36 +0000 UTC]

being dumped after you're told you'll never be let go is deceiving.

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sammyfraz In reply to IgnitionInStars [2011-10-14 22:24:46 +0000 UTC]

I like that, I can relate.


now how do we make this idea poetic?
I only have one rule, we can't say the words stardust or ribcage.

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IgnitionInStars In reply to sammyfraz [2011-10-15 15:03:31 +0000 UTC]

I was thinking you'd say it was typical, so i like you already.

hmmm, take both our experiences and somehow make it flow?
dually noted.

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sammyfraz In reply to IgnitionInStars [2011-10-15 20:17:46 +0000 UTC]

no feeling is typical, but at a simple enough level all things become universal...

that totally sounds like I'm one smart shit, yes?

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IgnitionInStars In reply to sammyfraz [2011-10-15 20:26:10 +0000 UTC]

no i'd rather say, 'one smart fella' or 'dude'. whichever you prefer.

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sammyfraz In reply to IgnitionInStars [2011-10-15 20:38:28 +0000 UTC]

I prefer Sam or Sammy

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IgnitionInStars In reply to sammyfraz [2011-10-15 20:55:34 +0000 UTC]

Sam, it is. I really wouldn't call you dude, just found it interesting you call yourself fella on your profile

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sammyfraz In reply to IgnitionInStars [2011-10-15 21:01:23 +0000 UTC]

It's a music thing.


Hey sorry, I'll get that note back to you as soon as I can, I'm sorry you've caught me feeling very flat and uninspired

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IgnitionInStars In reply to sammyfraz [2011-10-15 21:05:29 +0000 UTC]

Reminded me of Michael Buble, or Frank Sinatra.

A;right. I think what I wrote was a lot more rough than yours. What kind of music do you like?

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sammyfraz In reply to IgnitionInStars [2011-10-15 21:11:50 +0000 UTC]

That's one of those things that's hard to define. Mostly stupid music, the kind that is sure to cause mental instability and rotting of the mind.

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IgnitionInStars In reply to sammyfraz [2011-10-15 21:38:17 +0000 UTC]

I like this [link] and i have no idea why. the lyrics i think.

do you mind if i ask random questions? after reading your latest journal, i feel the same way.

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sammyfraz In reply to IgnitionInStars [2011-10-15 21:53:52 +0000 UTC]

no i don't mind random questions at all.

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IgnitionInStars In reply to sammyfraz [2011-10-15 22:04:02 +0000 UTC]

How do you judge a person?

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sammyfraz In reply to IgnitionInStars [2011-10-15 23:09:31 +0000 UTC]

gut reaction

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IgnitionInStars In reply to sammyfraz [2011-10-16 15:52:17 +0000 UTC]

gut reaction of me would be?

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sammyfraz In reply to IgnitionInStars [2011-10-17 02:21:26 +0000 UTC]

you are an all too human mix of forced fearlessness, and yet you still have something you are afraid of.

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IgnitionInStars In reply to sammyfraz [2011-10-17 13:48:34 +0000 UTC]

that sounded like something out of a fortune cookie, but i won't deny i'm afraid of something.

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sammyfraz In reply to IgnitionInStars [2011-10-17 14:05:48 +0000 UTC]

your lucky numbers are 23 54 3 6 26

gut reactions are hard to put into words. I suppose I could ask the same question of you?

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IgnitionInStars In reply to sammyfraz [2011-10-17 15:01:36 +0000 UTC]

speak chinese: egg.

you seem to be in search of happiness, afraid to get too comfortable for fear it will leave.

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sammyfraz In reply to IgnitionInStars [2011-10-17 15:07:43 +0000 UTC]

I guess that's fair if not equally vague and easily applied to anyone.... I'm working on the thing.. I promise...


It seems ready to end. but I am uncertain of how it should, art imitates life

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IgnitionInStars In reply to sammyfraz [2011-10-17 15:15:44 +0000 UTC]

eggs apply to anyone or happiness?

i'd like a guy to love me without rapid change and forcing me to see he never really cared. this boggles my mind, but showed me self-happiness by letting me go.

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sammyfraz In reply to IgnitionInStars [2011-10-17 15:25:00 +0000 UTC]

guys don't really have rapid change, it's just that one day you seem them for what they've really been all along. I find it interesting though, that you would still like to be loved...

I'm kind of disillusioned with that word, I think the best thing I can hope for is someone who wants to be on my team, and that I would want to be on theirs.

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IgnitionInStars In reply to sammyfraz [2011-10-17 15:39:05 +0000 UTC]

i liked the way you put that. it wasn't really rapid change, it was in the ways he just stopped being who i thought. the silent days. why's that interesting?

I'd like that too. even if at times, it gets hard.

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sammyfraz In reply to IgnitionInStars [2011-10-17 15:45:48 +0000 UTC]

it's just interesting to me, it goes in the face of one of my first impressions of you, but being proved wrong about what you thought is one of that things that keeps life worth living.

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IgnitionInStars In reply to sammyfraz [2011-10-17 15:57:25 +0000 UTC]

it does. i can say right now you're someone i'd like to know. what do you think of people with a walking disability?

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sammyfraz In reply to IgnitionInStars [2011-10-17 16:08:59 +0000 UTC]

i have no thoughts on the subject. Do you?

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IgnitionInStars In reply to sammyfraz [2011-10-17 16:12:43 +0000 UTC]

well, i'd be pretty biased if i was talking about myself. apparently, to others i'm wise.

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sammyfraz In reply to IgnitionInStars [2011-10-17 16:15:35 +0000 UTC]

Why do you bring up walking disabilities?

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IgnitionInStars In reply to sammyfraz [2011-10-17 16:18:14 +0000 UTC]

wanted to get to know you, and i have one.
pkus, a little drowsy from allergy medicine

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sammyfraz In reply to IgnitionInStars [2011-10-17 16:21:59 +0000 UTC]

oh. I don't really know anyone with a walking disability, would it be rude to ask more questions about it?

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IgnitionInStars In reply to sammyfraz [2011-10-17 16:24:13 +0000 UTC]

not in the least.

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sammyfraz In reply to IgnitionInStars [2011-10-17 16:34:24 +0000 UTC]

it might be more comfortable for you to give me a medical term and I can google it if you want.

Is this something you have always lived with? Do you feel bitter? you don't strike me as someone who would but it would be an understandable emotion.

do you feel uncertain about facing the world by yourself?

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IgnitionInStars In reply to sammyfraz [2011-10-17 16:44:23 +0000 UTC]

Cerebral Palsy. I've never been asked if I feel bitter, but I'd say more frustrated because it takes me so much longer to do everything. It gives me drive to show myself I'm capable though.

I was born with it.

At times because I'm shy, and opening up to people has been hard for me. Especially when people assume I'm mentally challenged and I'm not.

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sammyfraz In reply to IgnitionInStars [2011-10-17 16:58:03 +0000 UTC]

okay, I have a girl I go to church with who has cerebral palsy, but she is a much more severe case. Do you have difficulty with speech?

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IgnitionInStars In reply to sammyfraz [2011-10-17 17:02:37 +0000 UTC]

No. Walk with a reverse walker and a quad cane

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sammyfraz In reply to IgnitionInStars [2011-10-17 17:09:40 +0000 UTC]

I guess as a person who has really always had his health, I can't possibly understand what that is like. but a person is not made by what you see on the outside. sadly all too often we are judged by that. I think that you know that you are a person of value, uniqueness, and beauty.

You make me wonder about these boys who say promises to you and leave. Love is hard enough to find. do you think that boys try to take advantage of you?

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IgnitionInStars In reply to sammyfraz [2011-10-17 17:20:17 +0000 UTC]

It was a boy I had spent four years with. He had promised he'd never fight with me, and never force me to do things I wasn't ready for. The last time I saw him, he tried to have sex with me, but I told him 'no'. he just kept trying, but he knew I wasn't ready. Was something he promised.

So, I guess he dod. I just wish he would've waited.

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sammyfraz In reply to IgnitionInStars [2011-10-17 17:27:03 +0000 UTC]

sex is a powerful thing on a man's mind. Sometimes it cause a good person to make a stupid mistake. Sometimes it shows people for what they really are. I don't know which is true in your case.


Do you live with your parents?

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IgnitionInStars In reply to sammyfraz [2011-10-17 17:35:12 +0000 UTC]

I think the second one.

And going to college to college soon, (though i waited longer than most because of fear.)

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sammyfraz In reply to IgnitionInStars [2011-10-17 18:51:36 +0000 UTC]

hm. So, I'll ask a slightly personal question and if you don't want to answer just tell me to mind my own business. Why aren't you ready for sex? Is it a moral issue?

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IgnitionInStars In reply to sammyfraz [2011-10-17 19:01:19 +0000 UTC]

Can we talk in a note?

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sammyfraz In reply to IgnitionInStars [2011-10-17 19:06:13 +0000 UTC]

yes.

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IgnitionInStars In reply to sammyfraz [2011-10-17 19:23:41 +0000 UTC]

ok sent it

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sammyfraz In reply to IgnitionInStars [2011-10-17 19:30:59 +0000 UTC]

i read it. I think that's an admirable thing. It's a special thing, It was meant to be shared between people who are unquestionably committed to one another.

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IgnitionInStars In reply to sammyfraz [2011-10-17 19:37:22 +0000 UTC]

exactly. I never understood how someone could play me like a drum, and leave me silent.

what would be the chances we could become friends? and if you could give me a prompt what would it be?

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sammyfraz In reply to IgnitionInStars [2011-10-17 19:48:33 +0000 UTC]

the chances of us becoming friends are 100%

a prompt... hmmm...

You find yourself in a room...

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