Ingo89 In reply to demacrado-ensueno [2011-04-04 12:16:51 +0000 UTC]

Howdyhow Ilse! I'm good. But I haven't done any art in a long time it feels like, and now I must focus on writing assignments for school.

How are YOU?

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demacrado-ensueno In reply to Ingo89 [2011-04-05 17:16:38 +0000 UTC]

Well thesame, really busy with uni and stuff so I haven't drawn SQUAT to be exactly But I want to... and I have a lot of ideas, but it just... won't come out, you know? I'm so bad with perspective and backgrounds U___U

Regardless! I'm doing well. Really looking forward to summer How's the weather been treating ya in umea?

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Ingo89 In reply to demacrado-ensueno [2011-04-23 18:39:39 +0000 UTC]

The weather has been great lately! There is still snow, but only where there's been like, big piles of it. So summer is close

I know what you're talking about, getting it out is really hard :S I guess it will take alot of careful, thoughtful and patient training to one day get it right...

Playing any cool online games nowadays? Would be nice to fight alongside sometime, somehow

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demacrado-ensueno In reply to Ingo89 [2011-05-12 09:10:56 +0000 UTC]

Hey ingo, sorry for the very late reply! Been really busy with uni and everything, it's terrible. And also, I won't be going to karolinska this summer Because of my messed up application form at the beginning of the year I missed a couple of subjects and those were mandatory for karolinska. So I have to redo them in next year's course, but that'll be in holland and not in sweden waaaaaa

But I think I'll go over stockholm in christmas holidays, cus a lot of my uni friends ARE going to karolinska, haha.

It's been really warm here and everything, amazing weather, but really dry. Weather's gonna be much more shitty the next couple of days, but really, everything could use the rain haha.

I'm gaming a lot. As in, A LOT. As far as uni and my social life allow me But it's hardly online games nowadays (portal/portal 2, f*ck yeah!). Although, if you have league of legends, you should add me on steam! Or xfire. Because I haven't played that in ages but I keep telling myself I should find a suitable partner so we can team up in arranged team

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Ingo89 In reply to demacrado-ensueno [2011-05-15 12:28:58 +0000 UTC]

I DO play League of Legends! But I don't have Steam or xfire..but, maybe if we're both online on Facebook we can stir something up

Too bad about not studying in Sweden! But oh well! We've had great weather too, occationally..not today though, but hey, that means it's a better time to game

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Ingo89 In reply to demacrado-ensueno [2010-10-31 15:06:48 +0000 UTC]

300 messages?! How popular are you? Don't worry about it, it was an old topic anyways.
I'm good thanks Having a lazy sunday, which is really nice.
How'r u?

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demacrado-ensueno In reply to Ingo89 [2010-11-01 19:43:04 +0000 UTC]

Nono I meant messages as in, deviations including messages xD Nono! I have never had more than 25 messages at once, and that's because I let them stack

I'm fine, still busy with uni, still not liking my fellow uni students. Most of them are just snobbish and annoying. Maybe it will get better... and I keep saying this for over 2 months now, but who knows As for the course/study itself, it's all very interesting!

How are you then, apart from good? Come onnnn, I bet your life is more interesting than that ^^

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Ingo89 In reply to demacrado-ensueno [2010-11-01 20:49:19 +0000 UTC]

Hehe, I duno if there's so much to say, honestly. I'm learning to paint better at Uni, so that's nice, otherways, I guess life's not intresting enough to kill the travel lust I'm feeling! Can't go anywhere though, cus studies are taking both time and money so..

They're snobbish? well perhaps it's time you get snobbish aswell so you can fit in better!

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demacrado-ensueno In reply to Ingo89 [2010-11-02 10:29:09 +0000 UTC]

No mister, I refuse to become snobbish xD I'd rather stay 100% me than be snobbish. Besides, I can entertain myself just fine. More priority for uni to focus on my studies I guess. Don't have the money to indulge myself in the distractions that student life offers

Hehe, travel lust indeed! You know, our uni has this exchangement course for the 10 best students or so, with stockholm! I'm trying to get in that course because going to uni in Stockholm for 6 months is just too awesome for words!!! I don't think I'm good enough but I'll try my best

Hearhear, learning things at uni is always good no? ^^ Tips on blending paint to a complete noob, btw? I can't blend with real paint. Use a lighter or a darker color and don't attach too thick a layer of paint on your brush and go over the area you want to blend doesn't work! Cus you'll just see that color you applied instead of the two colors mixed together!

yes, my frustration. Anyways, have about 1,5 hour time before I have to put on my lab coat for some experimenting, so I'll guess I'll make myself useful and study a bit. Have a nice day ingemar! ^^

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Ingo89 In reply to demacrado-ensueno [2010-11-06 10:42:17 +0000 UTC]

Do your best woman! And get your ass to Stockholm!

About blending paint..that's something I'm starting to like! All I do though, is look at the color I want, and blend until I have it! Your problems seem to be founded in your material..or I duno, maybe you should get a better brush? There should be a pretty reasonable solution to such problems! Especially for a scientist as yourself So you should know how colors are built up and you should know how to master them!

Have a nice day you too Ilse! Here there's a thin layer of snow on the fields and trees, glittering like gold and silver in the morning sun. Just felt I had to share that!

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demacrado-ensueno In reply to Ingo89 [2010-11-14 20:34:20 +0000 UTC]

Oh wow! You guys have snow

Right now, parts of Holland are flooded, houses have 50 cm of water in them... fortunately we're still dry, but it's wet here darn!

I'd rather be in sweden so yeah, I'll try and get my cute ickle (ok not so tiny but meh ) arse to sweden

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Ingo89 In reply to demacrado-ensueno [2010-11-14 21:32:23 +0000 UTC]

Well I guess it was only a matter of time before Holland took its rightful place below sealevel No jk, hope it'll get cold enough for it to turn into snow and ice!

Do it! And if you can't get to Stockholm, you're welcome to study in Umeå instead!

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demacrado-ensueno In reply to Ingo89 [2010-11-15 09:43:40 +0000 UTC]

Oiiii that's below the belt mister! Or should I say, below the sealevel

Hehe studying in Umea, would love to, but you don't have right courses I think. Well I'll try saving up my money and then! I'll come and visit umea ^___^

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Ingo89 In reply to demacrado-ensueno [2010-11-15 18:39:28 +0000 UTC]

Hehe, precisely

Great! Cu then!

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Ingo89 In reply to demacrado-ensueno [2010-05-03 17:10:42 +0000 UTC]

Ahh it is good to hear from you Ilse!

Are you using any kind of mail nowadays? It would be nice catching up with you I'm looking forward more activity and more uploaded work here on dA too! But yeah, if you have, send me some adress we can talk more through!

Talk to you later old jedi!

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demacrado-ensueno In reply to Ingo89 [2010-05-11 15:13:09 +0000 UTC]

Hmm, hmm, mail, well not msn, that's for sure. I just really dislike msn. When I'm behind the comp and available, I'm probably gaming, so xfire should suffice xD I'm sporadically on steam, too That's for the real message programs (my xfire ID is Dicia, and steam Midori7).

As for my e-mail, I'll note that to you

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Ingo89 In reply to demacrado-ensueno [2010-05-11 20:49:39 +0000 UTC]

Thanks for the contactinfo As far as chatting programs go, I only use msn and sometimes skype, but your mail I'll keep Gaming eh? What games?

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demacrado-ensueno In reply to Ingo89 [2010-05-12 11:10:51 +0000 UTC]

Aion, mostly

It's my secret addiction Nah, not really, I keep my priorities in check, but it's a very great pastime, apart from spending time with friends and playing the piano :3 So what do you do nowadays?

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Ingo89 In reply to demacrado-ensueno [2010-05-12 17:10:19 +0000 UTC]

Aion, sounds like an mmorpg?

Oh playing piano, I hardly knew you did that! Are you any good? Are you like, taking lessons to learn or are you playing for the fun of it? I've been trying to learn guitar lately and it's alot of fun! Otherways I play some League of Legends nowadays, it's also good pastime (and free you should look it up!

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demacrado-ensueno In reply to Ingo89 [2010-05-12 18:42:50 +0000 UTC]

Yeah, aion is an mmorpg ^_^ A couple of my real life friends started playing it, and I wanted to find a game I could play with friends as I hadn't gamed for a very long time, so I started playing aion as well It's cliche and very korean, but enjoyable none the less ^^

Hehe yeah, I started when I was 10, I think, so have been playing for 9 years now. But I was only enthusiastic about it for the first three years, then neglected it (st00pid me!!) so I'm still stuck at 4/5-year level, I guess. But am getting really enthusiastic again about it now ^^ Playing stuff from Yann Tiersen, I'll link you a few I can already play. Currently working on 'S. Davis - Swiftwater'. The first two lines remind me of Zelda a little bit, but it's really beautiful. I don't understand I have neglected it for so long, stupid, stupid me!

Guitar Guitar is so much fun! I tried that, too, but my fingers really hurt. In the end I just didn't have the time and discipline to learn it through with those shitty tabs to be honest; I do want to pick it up again later though, if I'm ever going to ^^


[link] - I hope this works for you, cus it doesn't atm. This one is very easy to play, but it's beautiful still If it doesn't work, search for 'Yann Tiersen - comptine d'un autre ete'

[link] - l'absente. I love this one to bits, but the end, omg... the end. That's a suckerpiece to nail, but amazing to play :3


[link] - Swiftwater. The one I'm currently working on. It sounds simple, but it isn't! Got 6... well, how to call that. When you lower the tones, like an F becomes 'Fes', you know, that sorta stuff. Tricky. But soooooo beautiful ^_^


Meh, talking about the piano makes me want to play. So. I'm off ^___^

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Ingo89 In reply to demacrado-ensueno [2010-05-15 19:25:39 +0000 UTC]

Those pieces are all real storytellers, stimulating fantasies and are full of turns and changes and ups and downs and played sensitivly, they are nothing short of great music. I can imagine myself being able to play like that, more or less improvising, and it's an imagination that's taking me to another world! A very pretty and peaceful one, where I'm..uhh, out of words So I must very much encourage you to keep playing!!

I never really got those very korean mmorpgs But I do miss mmorpgs like Age of Conan sometimes, games with good rpg. (which could probablay be any game, but AoC is where I got my best rpg times) But I'm too busy with..stuff that comes up, to feel like I wanna spend time on that.

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demacrado-ensueno In reply to Ingo89 [2010-06-01 20:57:02 +0000 UTC]

Hehe yes, that's what I like most in a piano piece. Most often I catch myself feeling like that towards pieces who have a melancholic/sad general feel to it, but meh. For a happy piece to be good, it has to be.... well. Really good.

Ah and ughhh, swiftwater is so difficult. I mean the first three pages, Ok, but then! That'd probably not tell you much but it's hard!

Hehe, AOC was a good one I think. Korean mmorpgs... well, some people type it as a grindfest, but I don't really know, as this is the first monthly fee MMORPG I've ever played. Couldn't really keep up with warcraft, cus the slow lvling really got on my nerves Then again, aion probably ain't better. But they have the graphics to make up for that xDD

But, was it with you with whom I talked about the upcoming rpg, knights of the old republic? ^_- Cus a star wars rpg... that sounds pretty awesome!

And how are you apart from that? Stuff that comes up sounds very deliberately vague I'm recently done with my exams, so I'll get the results on the 17th of june, hopefully I will have graduated. After that you get ONE chance to retake ONE exam, so up until then, it's holidays for meh \(^_^)/

Goodnight Ingemar

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Ingo89 In reply to demacrado-ensueno [2010-06-11 17:19:53 +0000 UTC]

Starwars rpg! Let's play it when it's released allright?! I really feel like an mmorpg..

Hehe, stuff that comes up...that'd be...trying to work out, doing schoolstuff, I'm also in the board for Credo(IFES) a christian student organisation, which involves some work, aaaand there's a confirmation camp I'm gonna be a leader at this summer, which I'm quite excited and kinda nervous about, it's a big thing! Well there's always something that can keep you busy, but deep inside..I know I wanna play an mmorpg

What are your plans for the holidays then? And after? Are you still in secondary high?

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demacrado-ensueno In reply to Ingo89 [2010-06-11 20:49:16 +0000 UTC]

Hehe, I'm sure to try out the demo though ^___^

Try aion, try aion Although it might not be your kind of thing. It's not as epic as AOC, more.. well. Anime ish My kind of thing. But I'm always in for star wars!

Oh, busybusy! Sounds like your'e doing good stuff, christian students organisations are always nice ^_^ A confirmation camp... what's that like? What sort of camp is it? :3 Not a boot camp I hope, haha. Just kidding, I know it's not (I hope).

Oh working out! Muscular Ingemar ^_- I'm running myself, makes me feel great, gives you more stamina/endurance and it's just awesoooome. But. Lately I've been super lazy, quit smoking and stuff, but my endurance is sooooo spooked that last time I went running, it went terrible. But motivation's the charm, so I will probably go running again this sunday :3 The only way to get my stamina back, no?

Hmm secondary high, I think I forgot what it meant. I don't speak english online with boards and forums as much as I used to. And no matter how you put it, your english improves much better when you use proper grammar on boards, than the shortcuts and abbreviations you use when ingame ^_- But basically, for us, it's elementary school (toddlers, age 4 to 12) and after that it's high school. Perhaps the first few years, till the age of 14 or so, are comparable to 'junior high' and the rest to 'secondary high'. If that's the case then yes, I'm in secondary high I'm still a high schooler, and yes, I know, I'm done with it. I'm through and through with high school. Can't wait to go to university! Really excited about that ^_^

Anyways, I had to chuckle a little about your mmorpg confession....

G'night ingemar ^_^

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Ingo89 In reply to demacrado-ensueno [2010-06-20 10:18:35 +0000 UTC]

It would be pretty awesome to see Blackwolf reappear in a starwars game!

The confirmation camp...I'm not sure you have the same kinda thing in Holland? It's about confirming your faith, basically. It's for "kids"..(I suppose they're still kids, 15 years old?) Some of them hardly call themselfs christians, but the camp is for them to find a personal belief, a faith of their own, an own, personal relationship with God, and not their parents. And to learn about christianity. It's a big deal to be a leader at such an important thing in their lives!

Haha, noo...I should've said I try to excersise instead of working out..I do some Taekwondo, which is kinda a mix of the two I guess, plus fighting! Which is really nice, to let loose on someone holding pillows But now that I'm at my familys house over the summer I try to run some times a week! Yes! Running and doing fysical exercises is ONLY good! and very good too! So you've started smoking? Sounds like a good idea, I think I'm gonna do that as well But not until I'm, like, 50-60 years old, so I won't suffer from the consequences. See I'm smart like that Are you having a stressful life since you're smoking? If so, what's that stress about?

And what are you gonna study at the university?!

Hope you're having a good weekend

//Ingemar

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demacrado-ensueno In reply to Ingo89 [2010-08-01 18:44:35 +0000 UTC]

Woo, late reply, this one, but deviantart has the funky habit of removing a comment the moment I replied to it, so to be quite frank, there's no way to look up what I had previously written so I sorta forgot about it *shame*

I think I know what you mean. With confirmation you mean like, the very dedicated choice, switch in your life for God, no? We call it 'a turning', at least, literally translated. Although recently my faith ain't what it used to be, I think it's a noble goal It can be really hard to lead such a thing, with pubescent kids being like they are! I couldn't do it, haha

Aaaah, taekwondo, so I never should argue with you, no? I remember doing this self defense course where I could bash on people with pillows, too, haha. My leg and arm strength were nothing to write home about, but there was this one thing I was really good at! Using your elbow to slam in something! You know, raising your arm in front of your face, keeping your arm/elbow in a 90 degree angle, and BAM. It was the only thing where our 'sensei' that to step in and hold the pillows because my partner couldn't hold it For the rest.... I sucked, haha! Apart from being black and blue, I really did like that course.... I've been thinking about following tang-so-doo afterwards, but I dunno how busy I'll be with studying and all D:

Running is awesome! I run in my sparetime, although every time I had built up a little bit of stamina, the weather gives me the finger and I stop running for a while D: Stupid, stupid! I think I'm going to run tomorrow, I feel like moving! Because I also 'squash' at times with my bro, really awesome sport, that is! Have you done that? If not, do so! It's awesome, haha.

Well, I started smoking when I was 17, so that's two years ago I guess. And yes, it was because of stress, lots of it. I was terribly depressed a couple of years ago, so there Everyone in my class smoked (I went to a new school for a year, I was able to get help there and combine school and bladibla, long story, haha) and someone offered me a cig, and I remember it being the most horrid thing ever, but it made me calm down so enormously! Before you know it, you smoke 1, 2, 3, 10, 20, and you're completely hooked and a blow from a cig feels like heaven. I quit for about two months now (it's a stamina killer!) and it's sooooo difficult! So even when you're 60, don't start smoking! Cus it's a tough time to get rid of it, if you ever want to at that age, haha But no, they're vile, vile little things! Even though I could really use one right now u_u but no! I will stay strong.


Wow, that's a long....babble O_o Forgive me ^_-


Uni.. hmm, well, I wanted to go to med school for all of my life (since I was 4 or so), become a doctor and work for 'artsen zonder grenzen', an organization in Holland that offers both humanitarian and medical expertise in poor countries that lack a stable social system which would normally provide them with such. It's a dangerous task, lots of doctors being kidnapped for ransom and such, but it would be so fucking worth it, you know? Being in africa, making the difference between life and death for kids.. young people, or parents! I'd die for that, you know... but yeah, in Holland, we have this CURSED 'numerus fixus'-system. I don't know if you've ever heard of it, but because way too many people apply to a certain study/university, they have to make this selection. This numerus fixus is a selection based on grades, but it's still a matter of pure chance. There are about four categories based on grades. If you have straight A's, you're in category 'A' and you're entering regardless. A-/B is about 60% chance of entering, C/B is 50/40% or so, D about 30%. I got into category 'B', so I had a 60% chance of getting into med school. But I should've known with my luck.... I got rejected. So bye bye dreams about becoming a doctor :/

I probably will try again next year, but won't be too happy about it. Most people are 18/19 when they go to uni after high school, if I get in next year I'll be 21 :/ Well, can't help it I suppose. I want to do it!

So right now, I have to alternative universities. Biomedical sciences, a study that is comparable to med school, but they have a numerus fixus as well, so I hope I'll have better luck there. And if I get rejected there AS WELL, it'll be biopharmaceutical sciences, which is basically researching new medicines Making aspirines better, or making a totally new, better aspirine, for instance Haha it's with a lot more important matters than aspirine of course, but you get my drift. Anyways, I'm hoping it'll be biomedical sciences. Root for me!



W00t, this has been one heck of a response ^_- I hope I haven't bored you to tears, haha.

And how's you with your art teacher studies?

/ Ilse

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Ingo89 In reply to demacrado-ensueno [2010-08-10 15:50:00 +0000 UTC]

I just came back from this confirmation camp.
I've had a taste of heaven Ilse. 19 kids, 6 "sub-leaders" and another 6 leaders, and some kitchen staff. In the mountains isolated from the outer world, no cellphones, no TV, not using the internet. Just hanging out with each other, daily prayers at least 3 times aday, intresting classes every day, awesome activeties, grrreat food! and just nice and fun people! It was..better than I thought it COULD become, but we prayed for Gods love for one another every morning, and we got some of it, for sure! I duno if I ever felt like I have done anything more meaningful.

Ilse! If you don't have your faith in God anymore, what DO you have faith in? Who/what could possibly be better to have faith in?

My teacher studies are going fine I still believe in myself being a teacher. I just hope the artstudies will give more the following semester, last one I could pretty much sleep my way through..and not cuse I'm an art genious, but they were just really easy.

Hehe no you didn't bore me to tears It's nice to get an update from you old Blackwolf

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demacrado-ensueno In reply to Ingo89 [2010-08-10 16:50:57 +0000 UTC]

It's not that I DON'T believe in God, although I guess at times I do. I'm just a science-person. I'm too rational, too scientific for faith at times. Science gives closure, you know? If you drop a book, it'll fall because of gravitational forces caused by our planet's core mass. It produces a force known as 'lorentzic forces'.

As for god.... why does one person get rid of his/her cancer when he/she gets prayed for, and why doesn't the other? Why is faith erratic, inconsistent? Why does faith continuously test you?

I'm not going to bother you with all of my questions. I'm not a faith/god-basher, I'm not. I'm just a troubled person who found a lack of support in god and turned to science instead Do I believe? I guess I do. And no, I don't think there's a better thing to have faith in! But it's just... more than that, you know? Faith is more than just the belief that God's there and that his son died for you.

But I'm searching, always searching. But I find christians hopelessly....narrowminded at times, rejectant of people with other beliefs. That makes things hard for me at times. But I'm glad that the camp was such an awesome time. I've been a visitor at such a camp once, it looked amazing. If the people are amazing, then everything is amazing, that's for sure ^_^


Haha, how many years are your art teaching studies? Maybe they'll get more interesting next year?

Haha, glad I didn't bore you ^_^ I'm off to play some oblivion! Have you ever done that? It's such an amazing game! I love it to bits, haha. See you, Scaw

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Ingo89 In reply to demacrado-ensueno [2010-08-11 10:38:01 +0000 UTC]

Well first of all, I duno if we can call "Faith" inconsistent, it's God we're talking about. Having problems with God cus you don't understand him, sounds like a concequence of thinking too highly of yourself. Who knows every concequence of someone dying in cancer even though people prayed for the person? No human can consider everything that happens in every persons mind that could lead to that persons salvation. Who knows, maybe because God takes away everything for someone, only so that that person can find that what's left, is God. Only a allknowing God can know, or else no1 knows.
Additionally...if God does not excist, and the world as we know it, is a result of RANDOM movements somewhere somehow, how can we actually trust them to provide us with something called "truth"? And if there's no truth, then science is abit of a scam no? If God made things on the other hand, we can trust/have faith, in everything he made, because of the supreme being he is. So it ends up in having faith in something anyways! God feels like a much stronger foundation than anything else to found science upon.

Ahum, by reflex I cough up apologetics when I get the chance And if you have problems with something of such caliber, which you can't run away from, then get closer to it instead, can't beat Him, join Him amd it's not about other narrowminded christians, it's about you and God.

Oblivion!! Best game ever! Possibly except for jk2. The music, detailed world, great quests and everything makes that game kick enormous ass!!

I'll be stuck here in Umeå for another 4 years ...-.- So I'll have to to learn stuff for sure, hehe.

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demacrado-ensueno In reply to Ingo89 [2010-08-17 10:55:18 +0000 UTC]

Is it thinking too highly of ourselves? God put a limited knowledge in us for a reason and he WANTS to be known. With inconsistency I merely meant to imply that one day He allegedly does something and the next he doesn't, whilst the need is thesame. I do not believe in a thing called fate that when a person dies, it is because God willed it to happen. God doesn't want people to be sick, He doesn't want people to suffer. His counterpart is the one who makes people suffer, not God. So then I don't really understand why God does so little to help us.

In a way, the world as we know it right now is everything but random. God gave us free will to do as we please and everything results from that. If a girl dies because a drunk driver hit her with his car, it's not a tragedy caused by random movement, but a mere consequence of our free will.

As for the creation of the world... no, I do not believe in the big bang or whatnot. Creation theory from God sounds more plausible than that
I'm not sure if God is a stronger foundation. I dont like following someone or something blindly, merely because I hold the belief that he is superior. If our president, who basically rules our country, does something horrendously stupid, I question him, try to resist him. With God, it is no other. Now I don't believe that he would do things that would hurt us so badly, but still, I dont follow someone just because they're superior.


Can't beat him... join him... I wish it were that simple xD Joining him brings frustration in itself. When you pray and pray, read the bible, beg for answers, and you have the feeling it'd be just as efficient if you had directed all of your pleas to a brick wall instead, because the response is thesame. I dunno, I find it difficult communicating with this deity, and God wants us to get to know him, right? Then communication is fundamental.
I know it's not about narrowminded christians, but when I see christians a in position of leadership, directly influencing me and the people around me and they do things I strongly dissaprove of, I start to wonder. I'm not judging them wether or not they are a good or a bad christian because I'm in no such place to say that, but thing is... if a lot of christians around me are like that.... then if that attitude is what it takes to be a christian... I'd rather not be a christian. See what I mean? It is about me and God, but if a lot of christians do things I condemn and strongly dissaprove of.... if that's the way it has to go, then never. That's what I mean

Anyways, I appreciate you replying to this, like I said before, I'm not a basher, I don't mean to bash or kick or punch, but I have genuine questions about it. Followed by years and years of depression and unhappiness, I guess. I'm a happy person now, don't worry, but those years inflicted a super sucker punch in my faith.


Haha, jk2 is awesome because of the melancholic feeling I have with it. Aaaah, such wonderful times! ^_- And I agree, bethesda is awesome. I'm playing fallout 3 now, sort of like oblivion only then post-apocalyptic. It's more linear than oblivion, less free, but still amazing. Bethesda and bioware, most awesome gamemakers of alltime ^___^


Hmmm, well, I'm stuck in my birth town for 19 years as well ;D And you've been tho... lots of places! So hey, you've got an infinite amount more experience than I do But why don't you move out? Start taking college or classes in another town? That's what I'm going to do when uni starts ^_^ True, true, I'll be coming home to this town every night, but still

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Ingo89 In reply to demacrado-ensueno [2010-08-17 19:09:38 +0000 UTC]

Let me just reply on a few points "He acts differently when the need is the same" That's what I ment with thinking too highly of oneself. No situation is like the other, there may be big similiareties, important ones, that we see, but then again, what we may consider a small, insignificant detail, may result in the greatest concequence! And since we can't be fair judges of the concequences of everything, due to our lack of knowledge, we can't really say God is unfair or anything, since we basically cannot know. I imagine God replying on this accusation:
- God! Damnit! You're not healing my twinbrothers cancer, but you DID heal MY cancer! You're being inconcistent!
- Kiddo, you don't know half of what I've considered! Besides, what really matters, is what brings you closer to me, not what brings you closer to your earthly life or smth. And if you would really live for me, which is what would be the best for you, and take me for who I am, you would realize this.

"no, I do not believe in the big bang or whatnot." I'm not sure if they rule out each other..? Gods creation and big bang?

"I dont like following someone or something blindly, merely because I hold the belief that he is superior." Of course, not because he is superior, but if you believe that he is all good, allknowing, allpowerful, I think it would be wise to follow him, even when you don't know why, the same way it is good for a sheep to follow the shepherd.

"then if that attitude is what it takes to be a christian... I'd rather not be a christian." Sounds like a sound conclusion! It really saddens me to hear it's like that around you Cus the thing is that it DOESN'T take such an attitude (I don't really know what attitude you're talking about, but I trust you're smart and good enough to know what a good attitude is!) Humans and their attitudes doesn't create christianity, it's GODS invention! Look after Jesus attitude, and if you disaprove of that, we've got a problem But damnit, there's gotta be some good christians in Holland as well.. Sounds like He ain't giving you the easiest time Ilse! But if I'm to believe in both you and God, which I do, I think it sounds like He's got a great woman to make of you, since he seems to be training you so hard!

Did you mean for ME to move out of town? Or yourself? Myself I've moved INTO town, not to another But I got a place of my own, just a room, but still, in a corridor, and it's really nice! Are you planning on moving out? Or have you already done so? What do you WANT to do??

Haha, puh, massive message! I really don't want you to reply on this, unless you really feel urged to do so Or, I want you to reply! But rather a very short and "true" reply than a long and "forced" out of nice manners

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demacrado-ensueno In reply to Ingo89 [2010-08-21 20:38:02 +0000 UTC]

Haha, I would reply only because I genuinely want to, but I get the feeling you don't really want me to reply, so I'll just make it short ^_-


Thanks Though I disagree with you on a lot of things, I do like talking about religion when it's done in a non-condescending and genuinely openminded way.

Just want to let you know that there are, without a doubt, good christians here, although I find it difficult to use the term 'good' as it is not up to me to label them as either good or bad. I wouldn't possibly know. It's just that I have difficulty with the way most of the people (especially the youngsters, the ones my age) deal with things. But that's either my or their problem, or maybe both our problems xD


Oh and I meant that I didn't move out, just you, but you are already out so nvm xD No, I would like to move out, but I don't have the money for it We'll see when I can get out, if I have the money and other means etc for it ^^


Thanks ingemar, I hope you are well tonight ^^

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Ingo89 In reply to demacrado-ensueno [2010-08-22 11:51:23 +0000 UTC]

No I WANT you to reply! I really do! All I'm saying is that I want you to reply because you feel like you want to, not because of good manners or anything. Believe me, I want to talk about this with you

I duno of I'm the most openminded person anymore, cus in alot of what I'm thinking, it makes sense, therefore I don't care alot about what others say, unless it actually challanges my belief, and has reason and stuff with it. Around me, it feels like being "openminded" is to accept every opinion as right. And to believe that nothing when it comes to faith and religion is right or wrong. Now how you can say that everything is right, when there IS no right and wrong, remains a stupid mystery to me.

I hate to see this talk getting wrapped up Ilse, but of course, if you don't want to, there's no point in continuing, and so I don't want to talk anymore either But rest asured, if you wanna talk with me, I'm up for it!

Have a good day you too my old friend!

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Ingo89 In reply to Simolius [2010-04-01 20:44:01 +0000 UTC]

Uhh, vad äre för nått? deleatade medelandet om det innan jag hann läsa det. O whats up med de konstiga iconerna?!?

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Simolius In reply to Ingo89 [2010-04-01 21:37:34 +0000 UTC]

Jag har faktiskt ingen aning, tyckte det var skoj bara

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Ingo89 In reply to Simolius [2010-04-02 09:40:38 +0000 UTC]

ok hehe

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Ingo89 In reply to sonofamortician [2009-12-14 16:35:23 +0000 UTC]

Oh, you're very welcome! You got some great artistic powers!

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Ingo89 In reply to Sasuko555 [2009-10-18 20:01:33 +0000 UTC]

You're welcome!
Ingemar Andersson, nick: Ingo

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Sasuko555 In reply to Ingo89 [2009-10-18 20:17:40 +0000 UTC]

How are you?

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Ingo89 In reply to Sasuko555 [2009-10-18 20:21:50 +0000 UTC]

I'm great thx and you? How did you get across dA?

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Sasuko555 In reply to Ingo89 [2009-10-18 20:30:29 +0000 UTC]

I'm great too
What that mean:dA ??

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Ingo89 In reply to Sasuko555 [2009-10-18 20:46:49 +0000 UTC]

That's good!
dA is short for "Deviant Art"

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Sasuko555 In reply to Ingo89 [2009-10-18 20:51:16 +0000 UTC]

I understood thank you) did a friend rotin work of Anauchihad me and very pleased me it manga draws "Forbidden love" in Russia there are similar sites for example Vkontakte heard some time of such? (excuse for my terrible English)

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Ingo89 In reply to Sasuko555 [2009-10-18 20:54:40 +0000 UTC]

No I haven't seen any other bigger art sites...Vkontakte? I might take a look at that!

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