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Faith Was...

Faith was a child growing up in the country
It was safe to play outside after dark,
just as long as you don't go too deep in the woods.
Batman was a valid hero then, vanquishing the greatest of evil doers
with just a few well placed POWS, BANGS, and THUDS.
I could be anything. A cowboy (an indian), a fire fighter,
an astronaut, a stunt man. Anything...
Your worst fear was being alone in the dark with the boogey man.
And I was 5.

Learning Was...

Learning was terrifying and fascinating,
Discovering new things about that world of possiblities
only dreamed of as a child (if you can even remember that far back).
It's still safe to play outside, but come in before it gets dark,
Just don't leave the front yard. . . and don't talk to strangers.
In school they teach us about all the things we could grow up to be someday.
The cowboys, the astronauts. The fire fighters and stunt men
We can't be indians anymore though. We took all the land away from them.
Being grounded is your worst fear now. You're much too old for the boogey man.
And I turned 10.

Wishing was...

Wishing was pleading till you were blue in the face with dad,
pleading with him not to take the job in Denver and make us move.
There is no backyard to play in here. Not in an apartment complex.
Batman (remember him)dies in last months issue,
No more POWS, BANGS, or THUDS.
So many choices you have to make. A fire fighter? An astronaut? A stunt man?
Who knows what they want to be?
But I don't like cowboys anymore, so I won't be that.
Your biggest fear is whether Shaine in Math class likes you or not.
I'm 15 now.

Reality was...

Reality was bootcamp and learning how to kill your fellow man,
or how not to be killed by that same "not so fellow" man.
We're almost always out after dark now, but there's no time for playing.
Batman is alive again, but we vanquish the evil doers ourselves now.
The POWS, BANGS, and THUDS are not sounds effects anymore.
I remember dreaming of growing up to be an astronuat, or a stunt man.
We make the fires now. So much for being a fire fighter.
The boogey man is real after all, but he carries an AK-47(sometimes).
He's your biggest fear now, so we train to defend ourselves (and you) from him.
I think I'm 20 now, and God help me I'm scared.

Disillusionment was...

Disillusionment was watching Shaine (my wife now)walk out the door,
and the papers her attorney sent me a week before Thanksgiving.
I can't afford a place with a back yard.
I'm working doubles now anyway, so play time is
whatever amuses you on a 30 minute lunch break.
Batman stays wrapped in cellophane on a closet shelf.
I don't have any more heroes, but he's still worth $200 so what the hell.
I still love the idea of being a stunt man. That would be fun.
A 3.8 GPA and a rejection from MIT means I'll never be an astronaut though.
My biggest fears these day are that H&R Block will fuck up my taxes.
I'm all grown up now, Yay fucking me...

Dispair is...

Dispair is being invited to dinner with the former love of your life and the all new love of her life.
Having to make small talk about childhood stories.
Stories about Batman and astronauts. Cowboys, indians and fire fighters.
I am a stunt man just surviving rush hour traffic every day.
It's not as much fun as I thought it would be.
There are children playing in the backyard during dinner.
I can't have children, so they're not mine.
That's okay, neither is the back yard.
The thing I fear most now is being alone in the dark (bogey many or no).
I'm feeling old now, and I don't remember what hope was...

Description
Faith Was...

Faith was a child growing up in the country
It was safe to play outside after dark,
just as long as you don't go too deep in the woods.
Batman was a valid hero then, vanquishing the greatest of evil doers
with just a few well placed POWS, BANGS, and THUDS.
I could be anything. A cowboy (an indian), a fire fighter,
an astronaut, a stunt man. Anything...
Your worst fear was being alone in the dark with the boogey man.
And I was 5.

Learning Was...

Learning was terrifying and fascinating,
Discovering new things about that world of possiblities
only dreamed of as a child (if you can even remember that far back).
It's still safe to play outside, but come in before it gets dark,
Just don't leave the front yard. . . and don't talk to strangers.
In school they teach us about all the things we could grow up to be someday.
The cowboys, the astronauts. The fire fighters and stunt men
We can't be indians anymore though. We took all the land away from them.
Being grounded is your worst fear now. You're much too old for the boogey man.
And I turned 10.

Wishing was...

Wishing was pleading till you were blue in the face with dad,
pleading with him not to take the job in Denver and make us move.
There is no backyard to play in here. Not in an apartment complex.
Batman (remember him)dies in last months issue,
No more POWS, BANGS, or THUDS.
So many choices you have to make. A fire fighter? An astronaut? A stunt man?
Who knows what they want to be?
But I don't like cowboys anymore, so I won't be that.
Your biggest fear is whether Shaine in Math class likes you or not.
I'm 15 now.

Reality was...

Reality was bootcamp and learning how to kill your fellow man,
or how not to be killed by that same "not so fellow" man.
We're almost always out after dark now, but there's no time for playing.
Batman is alive again, but we vanquish the evil doers ourselves now.
The POWS, BANGS, and THUDS are not sounds effects anymore.
I remember dreaming of growing up to be an astronuat, or a stunt man.
We make the fires now. So much for being a fire fighter.
The boogey man is real after all, but he carries an AK-47(sometimes).
He's your biggest fear now, so we train to defend ourselves (and you) from him.
I think I'm 20 now, and God help me I'm scared.

Disillusionment was...

Disillusionment was watching Shaine (my wife now)walk out the door,
and the papers her attorney sent me a week before Thanksgiving.
I can't afford a place with a back yard.
I'm working doubles now anyway, so play time is
whatever amuses you on a 30 minute lunch break.
Batman stays wrapped in cellophane on a closet shelf.
I don't have any more heroes, but he's still worth $200 so what the hell.
I still love the idea of being a stunt man. That would be fun.
A 3.8 GPA and a rejection from MIT means I'll never be an astronaut though.
My biggest fears these day are that H&R Block will fuck up my taxes.
I'm all grown up now, Yay fucking me...

Dispair is...

Dispair is being invited to dinner with the former love of your life and the all new love of her life.
Having to make small talk about childhood stories.
Stories about Batman and astronauts. Cowboys, indians and fire fighters.
I am a stunt man just surviving rush hour traffic every day.
It's not as much fun as I thought it would be.
There are children playing in the backyard during dinner.
I can't have children, so they're not mine.
That's okay, neither is the back yard.
The thing I fear most now is being alone in the dark (bogey many or no).
I'm feeling old now, and I don't remember what hope was...