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My days have become just that-days
Trying to recall when it began is a daunting task
From the time I was left alone in my room
To the time I first had ran the makeshift razor across my wrist
It has always been like this
In mirrors it’s become unrecognizable
It won’t wash away
Day after day after day after day
It won’t go away
This melancholy
It keeps my smiles down which leaves a constant frown
It turns those blue skies into how’s and whys
I’ve become so used to being alone that I’m uncomfortable when I’m not
My face has become so painted with sadness that you can’t tell if I’m not
For the life of me it will be the death of me
This melancholy
I take happy pills just for the thrill because they don’t work
I go to work with suit and tie and swallow pride
I became everything I said I wasn’t
Look what it has made me
This melancholy
The pressure of living has filled my heart and made it so heavy
Will my memories forever last or are they finite
It seems every day they slip further away
One day I will completely forget who I am
I will forget that boy who would flash a smile just to receive one in return
The boy whose eyes shined but so dark they have turned
This melancholy
It will consume me
I will become nothing but it
A habit of sadness that I can’t resist
Ashamed by tears I couldn’t help but shed
Left me cold
I told myself to hold them in instead
That made it worst
Unexpected cries would confirm that I wasn’t okay
No matter how many times I said I was
Left me lost and confused just wondering what I was
This road has been long and narrow so I can’t turn back now
I’ll go forward and one day I’ll reach the end

Description
My days have become just that-days
Trying to recall when it began is a daunting task
From the time I was left alone in my room
To the time I first had ran the makeshift razor across my wrist
It has always been like this
In mirrors it’s become unrecognizable
It won’t wash away
Day after day after day after day
It won’t go away
This melancholy
It keeps my smiles down which leaves a constant frown
It turns those blue skies into how’s and whys
I’ve become so used to being alone that I’m uncomfortable when I’m not
My face has become so painted with sadness that you can’t tell if I’m not
For the life of me it will be the death of me
This melancholy
I take happy pills just for the thrill because they don’t work
I go to work with suit and tie and swallow pride
I became everything I said I wasn’t
Look what it has made me
This melancholy
The pressure of living has filled my heart and made it so heavy
Will my memories forever last or are they finite
It seems every day they slip further away
One day I will completely forget who I am
I will forget that boy who would flash a smile just to receive one in return
The boy whose eyes shined but so dark they have turned
This melancholy
It will consume me
I will become nothing but it
A habit of sadness that I can’t resist
Ashamed by tears I couldn’t help but shed
Left me cold
I told myself to hold them in instead
That made it worst
Unexpected cries would confirm that I wasn’t okay
No matter how many times I said I was
Left me lost and confused just wondering what I was
This road has been long and narrow so I can’t turn back now
I’ll go forward and one day I’ll reach the end