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AltaredFox — My Life
Published: 2012-05-13 05:54:18 +0000 UTC; Views: 115; Favourites: 3; Downloads: 1
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Description No one gets it
They think they do
But they don't
And never will

Everyone thinks I'm a bitch
Everyone thinks I can't do anything
Everyone thinks I'm always happy or always sad
Everyone thinks I'm crazy

I have no friends
Unless out of state
I have no love intersts
Not even out of state

I'm depressed
But I don't show it
I act like everything is okay
Until I get home

Then everything comes out
To my family
Or online
Maybe I should just shutup

If I never talk again
Maybe I'll have no problems
If I never do anything
Maybe I'll actually be happy

But wait
I already don't do anything
And I'm not happy
And I only talk for an allusion

So why am I not happy?
Because I'm missing something
I'm missing a best friend
I'm missing a boyfriend

I'm missing love
I have it from my family, yes
But I have none
From anywhere else

My love is in my obsessions
And in my books
And in the computer
And in my sadness

Nothing seems to go right anymore
Not my school work
Not my relationships
Not my even my obsessions

Why does everything hurt?
Why am I crying?
I don't understand
Nothing is right

None of you get it
Do you?
I'd rather be dead
Than be here with you

But I would never do that
I'm not that stupid
To take my own life
But you don't know how much I want to

I'm in so much pain
And I want it to all go away
I have too big of a heart
I care too much

I have no friends
I have no life
I never did
And I never will
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Comments: 17

AppliedPhilosopher [2012-05-15 18:34:30 +0000 UTC]

I've felt like this sometimes.

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AltaredFox In reply to AppliedPhilosopher [2012-05-15 21:21:35 +0000 UTC]

well I'm not alone~

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WhammyxKidz [2012-05-13 22:30:20 +0000 UTC]

Was this what you were talking about ?

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AltaredFox In reply to WhammyxKidz [2012-05-13 23:43:25 +0000 UTC]

yep...

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WhammyxKidz In reply to AltaredFox [2012-05-14 03:03:04 +0000 UTC]

and you said I shouldn't be worried?!

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AltaredFox In reply to WhammyxKidz [2012-05-14 03:27:42 +0000 UTC]

*shrinks down* I told you not to worry...

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WhammyxKidz In reply to AltaredFox [2012-05-14 11:35:34 +0000 UTC]

How can I NOT?

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AltaredFox In reply to WhammyxKidz [2012-05-14 22:11:33 +0000 UTC]

*shrinks down more* I'm sorry....

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WhammyxKidz In reply to AltaredFox [2012-05-15 00:49:55 +0000 UTC]

I don't even know what to say! *covers head* You better be OK! Well, you know, stable and all. *peeks over* Or Imma kidnap you.

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AltaredFox In reply to WhammyxKidz [2012-05-15 02:25:03 +0000 UTC]

Yes, I'm fine, but go right ahead and kidnap me :3

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WhammyxKidz In reply to AltaredFox [2012-05-15 11:26:13 +0000 UTC]

I will, as soon as I find some way to xD
Oh, and don't you lie to me! If you are, I'll be upset!

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AltaredFox In reply to WhammyxKidz [2012-05-15 21:22:23 +0000 UTC]

I'm not lying! I promise!

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WhammyxKidz In reply to AltaredFox [2012-05-15 22:31:32 +0000 UTC]

Hmm. I'm keepin' an eye on you, Missy.

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AltaredFox In reply to WhammyxKidz [2012-05-15 22:36:41 +0000 UTC]

>.> Okaaaaay

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KarenElricKagamine [2012-05-13 21:42:16 +0000 UTC]

I understand how you feel... D':

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AltaredFox In reply to KarenElricKagamine [2012-05-13 21:47:11 +0000 UTC]

well at least I'm not alone

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KarenElricKagamine In reply to AltaredFox [2012-05-13 22:17:56 +0000 UTC]

Yeah...

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