HOME | DD

Description
body div#devskin0 hr { }

Doubts and Thoughts

You enjoy their work don't you? You know I love that style and those colors... I feel like I can relate... Looky there! *points to something in the description* Yes? Did you read that? Your not the only one they know... Obviously. What are you getting at? What you get from them is much different than what others get... Did you ever get to thinking- That they don't like me as much?... Of course I do... But what they write doesn't seem as thought out... It seems held back and ready to be steered... But you don't steer do you? No... and that is true... Do you think they do that because you are awkward and different? No... Maybe... But I doubt- Everyone loves you though~ No... not true... I'm nobody... and when I am told or realize I have become someone's favorite- You're no good for favorites... That is what I am saying... You won't confront them? No. You know I am not that head-on... I'd much rather talk to you... thinking of others makes me sick... You'll never get anyone to beg or ask you. I know... You're not that good with others. Your way with words is loose and disgusting... there is no format in these lines of scribbles you birth. Don't start that... Start what? Start to relay the truth to you one again? It's the truth. I thought you wanted that/... Yes but the whispers in my left ear make me shake... I doubt even half of thee people understand us. I know... I know....... I know They won't quite grasp this... They won't know. I'm aware of that... You know they'd get your point if you jumped in the stream at this time of year? Get pneumonia and go to the hospital? Yes... I'd feel sick for a reason as well. You're pathetic! Stop! I'm already aware of that! It makes me sick! Others would want to tell you different~ No! They are wrong! They don't know you! You? Us! They don't understand me! My thoughts! they hurt they hurt they hurt me so! Just stop it! I don't want to talk anymore! I must focus on numbly breathing NOT harsh comments you whisper to me! You have homework to do- I know Start your homework- I know! I will! You're upset now? Yes! Stop telling me things I already know!!! You want a hug? Of course I would... What if you got a nice hug from- FUCK OFF!!! I cannot! I would cry on them! That's pathetic! I cannot go near them! I must separate us from them! Besides what the reward for that kind of friendship... for any relationship! I've only ever been told things I am already aware of... or lies! I hear someone eating... Look! They chew with their mouth open~~~ No! No no no no no no NO!!! Stop! stop it stop it stop it! gauche! Are you using that word right? Go away! Never! Go away away away away AWAY!!! I don't need this! Why?! Why do I have emotion?! Why do I need this?! It only makes me want to destroy myself!! I don't want to need... i don't want to feel such... YOU FUCKING WORDS!!! Get out of me and get out right I want to fucking communicate and talk assholes! I don't want anger anymore than sadness! It'll end sometime I know~ It'll be peaceful....... AND OVER Will I think? Will I feel or will it just be nothing? *mocking* Will it just be darkness? Will nothing be here... I just die and it's all over? Why was I fucking born then! Kill me! Kill me now! Destroy the monstrous thoughts m mind emits! I cannot survive this way! I get evil thoughts and urges! Dig you hands into your chest and pull out those suffocating lungs~~~ No! What about that craving to strangle~ Or the one to sink your teeth into someone's delicate soft flesh... how about there neck? Don't you want your lovely teeth to peirce through their skin and open a faucet of warm red fluids? Stop it... that's evil! I'll take it from here~ don't worry~ No! Stop it! I want to be happy- And I'll go over to them and confess your feelings~ I''ll stab into their weak flesh with a knife and kiss their bloody grin... I'll get them to- I'll fuck with his head... that comely gentleman~~~ Flesh? "Flesh" That is cruel... They'll love you though~ They'll want your hug and comfort~~~ I know... And they won't get it~!!! I'll wrap your hands around their neck! And sink your teeth into their warm neck~!!! No~ Yes~~~!!! What if they fight back? If they stab me? You ARE me! What if they call you names and slap you?! What if they play with me back? Then it's only more fun~!!! Die on them! Fuck with their head and make your death seem like their fault! Make them suffer~ Make them mourn you for eternity even if you aren't there with them... make it awkward to re-meet them in any possible afterlife... make them guilty to see your face and love you... make them guilty for feelings and especially lust!!!~ No... No emotion... I don't want that... But that torture is fun~ And you get to hear true feelings and hear their emotions loud and clear... don't you want to hear them scream???~ Stop~ Rest and calm down for me~ Yes. I can do all this for you if you stay quiet~~~ They will get there torture for there teasing... Wait for it~ We are ignored though- That is true- What shall you do?- Lets wait like you do~ Hopefully they will answer~ They have yet to answer- We are being ignored... They have others to talk to... we must be annoying to them... I know... I always known that... But you never know for anything else?

Correct... Help me~ I cannot. I do not know how when my frail calls are ignored...

Description
body div#devskin0 hr { }

Doubts and Thoughts

You enjoy their work don't you? You know I love that style and those colors... I feel like I can relate... Looky there! *points to something in the description* Yes? Did you read that? Your not the only one they know... Obviously. What are you getting at? What you get from them is much different than what others get... Did you ever get to thinking- That they don't like me as much?... Of course I do... But what they write doesn't seem as thought out... It seems held back and ready to be steered... But you don't steer do you? No... and that is true... Do you think they do that because you are awkward and different? No... Maybe... But I doubt- Everyone loves you though~ No... not true... I'm nobody... and when I am told or realize I have become someone's favorite- You're no good for favorites... That is what I am saying... You won't confront them? No. You know I am not that head-on... I'd much rather talk to you... thinking of others makes me sick... You'll never get anyone to beg or ask you. I know... You're not that good with others. Your way with words is loose and disgusting... there is no format in these lines of scribbles you birth. Don't start that... Start what? Start to relay the truth to you one again? It's the truth. I thought you wanted that/... Yes but the whispers in my left ear make me shake... I doubt even half of thee people understand us. I know... I know....... I know They won't quite grasp this... They won't know. I'm aware of that... You know they'd get your point if you jumped in the stream at this time of year? Get pneumonia and go to the hospital? Yes... I'd feel sick for a reason as well. You're pathetic! Stop! I'm already aware of that! It makes me sick! Others would want to tell you different~ No! They are wrong! They don't know you! You? Us! They don't understand me! My thoughts! they hurt they hurt they hurt me so! Just stop it! I don't want to talk anymore! I must focus on numbly breathing NOT harsh comments you whisper to me! You have homework to do- I know Start your homework- I know! I will! You're upset now? Yes! Stop telling me things I already know!!! You want a hug? Of course I would... What if you got a nice hug from- FUCK OFF!!! I cannot! I would cry on them! That's pathetic! I cannot go near them! I must separate us from them! Besides what the reward for that kind of friendship... for any relationship! I've only ever been told things I am already aware of... or lies! I hear someone eating... Look! They chew with their mouth open~~~ No! No no no no no no NO!!! Stop! stop it stop it stop it! gauche! Are you using that word right? Go away! Never! Go away away away away AWAY!!! I don't need this! Why?! Why do I have emotion?! Why do I need this?! It only makes me want to destroy myself!! I don't want to need... i don't want to feel such... YOU FUCKING WORDS!!! Get out of me and get out right I want to fucking communicate and talk assholes! I don't want anger anymore than sadness! It'll end sometime I know~ It'll be peaceful....... AND OVER Will I think? Will I feel or will it just be nothing? *mocking* Will it just be darkness? Will nothing be here... I just die and it's all over? Why was I fucking born then! Kill me! Kill me now! Destroy the monstrous thoughts m mind emits! I cannot survive this way! I get evil thoughts and urges! Dig you hands into your chest and pull out those suffocating lungs~~~ No! What about that craving to strangle~ Or the one to sink your teeth into someone's delicate soft flesh... how about there neck? Don't you want your lovely teeth to peirce through their skin and open a faucet of warm red fluids? Stop it... that's evil! I'll take it from here~ don't worry~ No! Stop it! I want to be happy- And I'll go over to them and confess your feelings~ I''ll stab into their weak flesh with a knife and kiss their bloody grin... I'll get them to- I'll fuck with his head... that comely gentleman~~~ Flesh? "Flesh" That is cruel... They'll love you though~ They'll want your hug and comfort~~~ I know... And they won't get it~!!! I'll wrap your hands around their neck! And sink your teeth into their warm neck~!!! No~ Yes~~~!!! What if they fight back? If they stab me? You ARE me! What if they call you names and slap you?! What if they play with me back? Then it's only more fun~!!! Die on them! Fuck with their head and make your death seem like their fault! Make them suffer~ Make them mourn you for eternity even if you aren't there with them... make it awkward to re-meet them in any possible afterlife... make them guilty to see your face and love you... make them guilty for feelings and especially lust!!!~ No... No emotion... I don't want that... But that torture is fun~ And you get to hear true feelings and hear their emotions loud and clear... don't you want to hear them scream???~ Stop~ Rest and calm down for me~ Yes. I can do all this for you if you stay quiet~~~ They will get there torture for there teasing... Wait for it~ We are ignored though- That is true- What shall you do?- Lets wait like you do~ Hopefully they will answer~ They have yet to answer- We are being ignored... They have others to talk to... we must be annoying to them... I know... I always known that... But you never know for anything else?

Correct... Help me~ I cannot. I do not know how when my frail calls are ignored...