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It's silent, and I'm waiting. I can hear my pulse.
The anticipation is always the worst part, not knowing, but needing to so badly it's worth the soul crushing weight.

Cover up, and hide, just like those freckles on your face you so desperately hate.
They're right in front of you, glaringly obvious and yet so ridiculously insignificant. Take your time, we all know what you're going to do now.

Frothy mistakes and watered down promises are all that's left in my cup. I drink the poorly made lies and pretend that it's all the same.

Someday I'll need to destroy myself. My entire image of myself that hinders me down so badly, cripples my progress and stunts inspiration. It'll be such a relief to stop pretending and be as I am. And yet it'll be such a catastrophe I'm not sure I'll be able to handle it. Oh ambivalence how we love and hate you.

Description
It's silent, and I'm waiting. I can hear my pulse.
The anticipation is always the worst part, not knowing, but needing to so badly it's worth the soul crushing weight.

Cover up, and hide, just like those freckles on your face you so desperately hate.
They're right in front of you, glaringly obvious and yet so ridiculously insignificant. Take your time, we all know what you're going to do now.

Frothy mistakes and watered down promises are all that's left in my cup. I drink the poorly made lies and pretend that it's all the same.

Someday I'll need to destroy myself. My entire image of myself that hinders me down so badly, cripples my progress and stunts inspiration. It'll be such a relief to stop pretending and be as I am. And yet it'll be such a catastrophe I'm not sure I'll be able to handle it. Oh ambivalence how we love and hate you.