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DarthSammo — Confused Humility
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Published: 2008-07-28 22:00:10 +0000 UTC; Views: 82; Favourites: 0; Downloads: 0
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While she sleeps,I wonder of the life I could have had
If I had not married her and stayed these 10 years
While she dreams,
I wonder at the pain and suffering I have endured
The burns, surgeries, and life threatening illnesses
When she talks in her sleep
She is always angry, cross and hateful
I wonder is that because of me
When she has nightmares
She lashes out and strikes and beats on me in my sleep, waking me
Often leaving bruises and me wondering what I did wrong this time
Who is this woman
She cannot be the person I married, she looks nothing like her anymore
She is not longer caring loving and sweat, but bitter, hateful and angry.
Who can say
Where the fault lies and who is to blame
But happiness is no longer a part of our relationship
But everyone not and then
She will smile and laugh and touch me without hurting
She will speak kind words and help when I am down
But once in a great while
She will even kiss me the way she did when we first met
She will look at me with those blue eyes and I melt.
I am confused
I do not know what I am supposed to feel anymore
I do know I want nothing bad to happen to her
I am concerned
That I have lost the ability to love not only myself but others
That I have become as cold and distant as she claims me to be
Yet I still have hope
Yet I still have a dream
Yet I still have my family
Yet I still have my friends
And for now… that will have to do.
