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Sometimes I think back a year or two
thinking of the people and places
and a few fond memories too.

I think back and I think
"look what you missed out on fool,
trying to act like everyone's shrink"

It was only a few years ago
when my friends were scarce
and I wandered all alone

I slowly became numb
and soon people thought
"he's not worth the effort, just a computer bumb"

For it was true
that out of all the interests to have
I had few.

While I must admit
this story seems pretty sad
I must also admit, it has much sadder to get.

I missed many chances
passed up many possible friends
and ended up with little to nothing to change my ways.

It was all my own fault I have to say
I was so ignorent
too worried about what others had to say

I lost one of my best friends,
in just a day,
because I actually listened to what they had to say.

When I did realize my mistake,
which was one night very late,
it was far to late for us to return.

And so it was that nothing could be done
under this horrible event
I lost a true friend, where I may have only had one.

What is worse yet is that's not the only mistake I made
there is one much more terrible, and in self-reflection
someone actually offered to be my friend, but I let the offer fade.

I ignored the request
one which I did not even acknowledge
and today, I regret, I am one good friend less

Before you begin to say
"whoa this dudes life sucks"
I'm glad to say, there is more to this story, a new day

After the blindness and confusion
soon came self-reflection
and this is when I realized my misperception.

In my life back then
It is very sad to say
I never knew out from in

Which is why it makes me very sad
on nights in which I stay awake
to know what I could have had, but I made a mistake.

When all of this was put into perspective
I was quite shocked at what I'd let happen
what I had let pass me by, and making myself rejected.

There was one point when I was about the simply break down a cry
but then I had jut one thought
"why?"

It was then I saw what I didn't before
it was all so clear
I saw the door

The door to better
the only right way out
I took it, and know it was for the best.

Those who I once called friends
the reasons for my trouble
are now my enimies, they too often show double

I freed myself from that prison
busted out and made my escape
It was only then that I could fully appreceate the magnitude of my state

Free from the chains that held me down
I took the chance to grow
what was once lost was now found

The independance from what they think
I know hold in my hand
and it is a stronger feeling then you would think

I do hold a healthy respect
alongside my independance
for the general public opinion

It is very different now than it was before
it's quite simple really
their thoughts can't knock me down on the floor

While it's all nice and clean
as many people do believe
to think that I'm healed... fixed and alright.

The truth, I regret to say,
isn't quite so sunny
because it is to this day I sit and think

I think and I think
and more importantly I see
I know what I missed, the chance to really form strong links

I look in the yearbooks
and I regret to see
people with tons of friends from then, none of them are me.

To them it is as if I'm a stranger
someone to be carful of
after all I could be a danger.

So it is with great effort I fight
to recover from this mess
and I must admit I'm begining to see light

I cannot undo what I did
but sometimes I do wish
I had a chance to try again, redo what I once did.

But it's for the best
that the past is where it is
because it's where it belongs, where it fits because of what it is

I cannot deny
I've made my fair share of mistakes
I think we all have and I cannot lie, I did survive without much trouble.

That is more than I can say
for those who were like me
they found their own solutions, their way to a new day.

Although, there is sometimes an occasion
when I look back and just wonder
what if I had more relations

I also wonder
on nights very late
where those I lost now wander, what place?

One day I'll find them again
and try to re-establish
the old and forgotten connection, hopefully that'll happen.

So it is on a cold day like today
that I look out at the trees
bare and defenseless against the powers that be

I think of how I used to be
and slowly realize
that was a lot like me.

So it is as we come to an end
and the time I must leave,
but there is just one more thought to lend

I think of how I am now
constantly growing
and realize that I'm not far from knowing.

Knowing how to make friends
without having to worry
about my messing it up, not noticing, and causing fury

So now I must bid you adue,
good day or good night,
which ever is appropriate.

For it is that we end on a light note
one which isn't so bad
I'm doing much better, I'm very rarely so sad.

Description
Sometimes I think back a year or two
thinking of the people and places
and a few fond memories too.

I think back and I think
"look what you missed out on fool,
trying to act like everyone's shrink"

It was only a few years ago
when my friends were scarce
and I wandered all alone

I slowly became numb
and soon people thought
"he's not worth the effort, just a computer bumb"

For it was true
that out of all the interests to have
I had few.

While I must admit
this story seems pretty sad
I must also admit, it has much sadder to get.

I missed many chances
passed up many possible friends
and ended up with little to nothing to change my ways.

It was all my own fault I have to say
I was so ignorent
too worried about what others had to say

I lost one of my best friends,
in just a day,
because I actually listened to what they had to say.

When I did realize my mistake,
which was one night very late,
it was far to late for us to return.

And so it was that nothing could be done
under this horrible event
I lost a true friend, where I may have only had one.

What is worse yet is that's not the only mistake I made
there is one much more terrible, and in self-reflection
someone actually offered to be my friend, but I let the offer fade.

I ignored the request
one which I did not even acknowledge
and today, I regret, I am one good friend less

Before you begin to say
"whoa this dudes life sucks"
I'm glad to say, there is more to this story, a new day

After the blindness and confusion
soon came self-reflection
and this is when I realized my misperception.

In my life back then
It is very sad to say
I never knew out from in

Which is why it makes me very sad
on nights in which I stay awake
to know what I could have had, but I made a mistake.

When all of this was put into perspective
I was quite shocked at what I'd let happen
what I had let pass me by, and making myself rejected.

There was one point when I was about the simply break down a cry
but then I had jut one thought
"why?"

It was then I saw what I didn't before
it was all so clear
I saw the door

The door to better
the only right way out
I took it, and know it was for the best.

Those who I once called friends
the reasons for my trouble
are now my enimies, they too often show double

I freed myself from that prison
busted out and made my escape
It was only then that I could fully appreceate the magnitude of my state

Free from the chains that held me down
I took the chance to grow
what was once lost was now found

The independance from what they think
I know hold in my hand
and it is a stronger feeling then you would think

I do hold a healthy respect
alongside my independance
for the general public opinion

It is very different now than it was before
it's quite simple really
their thoughts can't knock me down on the floor

While it's all nice and clean
as many people do believe
to think that I'm healed... fixed and alright.

The truth, I regret to say,
isn't quite so sunny
because it is to this day I sit and think

I think and I think
and more importantly I see
I know what I missed, the chance to really form strong links

I look in the yearbooks
and I regret to see
people with tons of friends from then, none of them are me.

To them it is as if I'm a stranger
someone to be carful of
after all I could be a danger.

So it is with great effort I fight
to recover from this mess
and I must admit I'm begining to see light

I cannot undo what I did
but sometimes I do wish
I had a chance to try again, redo what I once did.

But it's for the best
that the past is where it is
because it's where it belongs, where it fits because of what it is

I cannot deny
I've made my fair share of mistakes
I think we all have and I cannot lie, I did survive without much trouble.

That is more than I can say
for those who were like me
they found their own solutions, their way to a new day.

Although, there is sometimes an occasion
when I look back and just wonder
what if I had more relations

I also wonder
on nights very late
where those I lost now wander, what place?

One day I'll find them again
and try to re-establish
the old and forgotten connection, hopefully that'll happen.

So it is on a cold day like today
that I look out at the trees
bare and defenseless against the powers that be

I think of how I used to be
and slowly realize
that was a lot like me.

So it is as we come to an end
and the time I must leave,
but there is just one more thought to lend

I think of how I am now
constantly growing
and realize that I'm not far from knowing.

Knowing how to make friends
without having to worry
about my messing it up, not noticing, and causing fury

So now I must bid you adue,
good day or good night,
which ever is appropriate.

For it is that we end on a light note
one which isn't so bad
I'm doing much better, I'm very rarely so sad.