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i m so scared of fucking up
i isolate myself from all my friends just so they wont get angry at me if i say anything wrong and im pretty sure they hate me everyone hates me stay away form me i fuck up everything im so sorry
she was fucking right about me
everything she said
she told me to kill myself oh my god why not, what do i have to lose at this point i fuck up everythign nobody would care that much
everyoen will leave one day and i'll be back at the start like usual
as a lonely pathetic bitch who doesn't do anythign
cause that's what i am that's what everyone believes
i could've been good i couldve been good but god knows that i've already fucked up on that one too
HECK
im disgusting worthless pathetic and i dont deserve all the wonderful people in my life
they're all too good for me
all i feel like is the stupid cunt who hangs around people who will all do better things than me
and i hate it
because i fit myself to others so they wont leave me but i will say one thing wrong and they'll leave and its my fault for being so difficult
i deserve any shit im given
my mum always questions why im like this, why am i not being normal oh my god im sorry please dont leave im scared im scared

why do i try
why do i bother

and i hate it because i know
all of these are just first world problems
the classic "teenage girl is sed unooo : (((((((" scenario

but you know
i think i've gotten better at acting happier than i actually am
even though i sit in the corner of my room at night and cry thinking about all the terrible things ive done and all the people in my past who are long gone
and will never come back
because of me

im going to bed.

sorry for the vent

Description
i m so scared of fucking up
i isolate myself from all my friends just so they wont get angry at me if i say anything wrong and im pretty sure they hate me everyone hates me stay away form me i fuck up everything im so sorry
she was fucking right about me
everything she said
she told me to kill myself oh my god why not, what do i have to lose at this point i fuck up everythign nobody would care that much
everyoen will leave one day and i'll be back at the start like usual
as a lonely pathetic bitch who doesn't do anythign
cause that's what i am that's what everyone believes
i could've been good i couldve been good but god knows that i've already fucked up on that one too
HECK
im disgusting worthless pathetic and i dont deserve all the wonderful people in my life
they're all too good for me
all i feel like is the stupid cunt who hangs around people who will all do better things than me
and i hate it
because i fit myself to others so they wont leave me but i will say one thing wrong and they'll leave and its my fault for being so difficult
i deserve any shit im given
my mum always questions why im like this, why am i not being normal oh my god im sorry please dont leave im scared im scared

why do i try
why do i bother

and i hate it because i know
all of these are just first world problems
the classic "teenage girl is sed unooo : (((((((" scenario

but you know
i think i've gotten better at acting happier than i actually am
even though i sit in the corner of my room at night and cry thinking about all the terrible things ive done and all the people in my past who are long gone
and will never come back
because of me

im going to bed.

sorry for the vent