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I've never known someone,
With contempt so clear and sharp,
It's such a surprising hatred,
Like a gunshot in the dark.
Every day you tell me,
How little I am worth,
And how every day you curse,
My conception and my birth.

Every day I've stood still,
While you violently rip pieces of me away,
I can stem the blood flow,
But never put an end to the pain.
People don't understand,
Just tell me it will be okay.
All my closest friends
Are a thousand miles away.

Sometime I look at ropes and rivers
In the exact same ways.
As permanent solutions to neverending pains,
But around me those I cared about succumbed,
To death's evocative call
leaving me with nothing and no one,
No one to love me at all.

I grip tightly onto people,
Who give me the slightest warm smile.
Knowing I won't see another
For a very long while.
My friends are little lifelines,
The safety net I fall upon
Because when I fall I plummet
and can no longer see the sun.

I sit here breaking apart
over these 101 keys,
watching in the stillness
As my heart endlessly bleeds.
Most times I try not to think
About this dire situation.
Try not to feel the hunger
From my love deprivation.

I've spent so long crying,
This exhaustion is how I sleep.
The pitter patter of tears falling
Is the lullaby for this black sheep.
But the greatest pain of all,
Is the hatred in your eyes.
If my mother cannot love me
Why in the morning should I rise?

Description
I've never known someone,
With contempt so clear and sharp,
It's such a surprising hatred,
Like a gunshot in the dark.
Every day you tell me,
How little I am worth,
And how every day you curse,
My conception and my birth.

Every day I've stood still,
While you violently rip pieces of me away,
I can stem the blood flow,
But never put an end to the pain.
People don't understand,
Just tell me it will be okay.
All my closest friends
Are a thousand miles away.

Sometime I look at ropes and rivers
In the exact same ways.
As permanent solutions to neverending pains,
But around me those I cared about succumbed,
To death's evocative call
leaving me with nothing and no one,
No one to love me at all.

I grip tightly onto people,
Who give me the slightest warm smile.
Knowing I won't see another
For a very long while.
My friends are little lifelines,
The safety net I fall upon
Because when I fall I plummet
and can no longer see the sun.

I sit here breaking apart
over these 101 keys,
watching in the stillness
As my heart endlessly bleeds.
Most times I try not to think
About this dire situation.
Try not to feel the hunger
From my love deprivation.

I've spent so long crying,
This exhaustion is how I sleep.
The pitter patter of tears falling
Is the lullaby for this black sheep.
But the greatest pain of all,
Is the hatred in your eyes.
If my mother cannot love me
Why in the morning should I rise?