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Published: 2010-06-05 04:26:59 +0000 UTC; Views: 278; Favourites: 0; Downloads: 1
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These hands on my body, I know them well and have become tired of them. They're old, hateful and selfish; but I don't stop them. The body next to mine needs reassurance; I give it.My hands explore this body that I know so well. I love it and I hate it because it's yours. My mouth trails along your neck and shoulder, just how I know you like it. My fingernails circle your nipples so your back arches, urging them to slip onto your erect buds. I'm sitting on the bed, you're sitting in front of me laying back. Your six foot two frame leans back on me, feeling vulnerable in that kind of position.
I go through the motions; the fingernails, caresses, licks, kisses and nibbles. Same old stuff you've always wanted me to do. I know I shouldn't be doing this, but I feel I need to so we're able to move forward without any unnecessary tensions. I just want this to be over.
You re-position us on the bed so I'm laying under you. We're kissing now. The same old dribbly kiss that I've known for over four years now. You're lips have always been amazing, but not now. You're excited, I can feel it against my leg, but we won't be having sex. We never really did.
Your lips reach my nipple and I "ooh" and "ahh" accordingly. Before I know it you're between my legs, licking, kissing and sniffing; you tell me how you've never found another girl whose smell turns you on like mine does, as per usual.
When you're done with that, you sit between my legs with your fingers inside me. You've changed the way you finger fuck, obviously your new girlfriend has shown you a thing or two. However, it doesn't do all that much for me. You don't thrust so much as move them up and down against my front wall. I just go with it as I don't want to draw this out longer than needed. I start to work my clit, knowing that it'll make me cum sooner, and it does. You pounce on me, licking up my juices, cuddle me, and we go to sleep.
The feelings I had for you are drained. But I know in doing this we can both move on. I've always enjoyed our cuddles and I will miss them, but not you.
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Fine writing of a situation that is filled with sadness. It's feelings not limited to this person or situation. Relationships can get to a point that we go through the motions without the emotions behind them.
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I would like to say that it's good to see a story that conveys the other realities of sex. The tired burned out feeling, the lack of feeling. The overwhelming knowing that the other person is enjoying more then you. Well written good work
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Thank you very much
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It's a great bit of honest writing and one that does not flinch from the truth. Strange that he thought that him being bisexual might put you off, thats more about his own concern probably. Your writing illustrates patterns of behaviour (which you obviously recognise) that are so harsh on you, you seem to put your feelings second over this compulsion to keep having sex in what read as unrewarding situations. I hope that through the writing that you find some understanding and some resolution to these things. Also if anyone (Guys) feel like hitting up an ex-girlfriend for a booty call, read this and DON'T, you will both feel better for it!
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Thank you very much, and for the fave 
I've spoken to him about him being bisexual and he talks about it like an illness. He had a bad experience and has said that he got 'it' (bisexuality) from this bad experience, like it's something he caught. Very sad. I can understand his insecurities around it but also feel saddened by them. I sort of thought that because I'm bisexual as well that it might've been a bit easier to tell someone that understands (to an extent), but perhaps that was a bit naive of me.
I find that writing is a good way for me to monitor my behaviour. Even when writing about past experiences and the emotions and feelings involved, I can pick out triggers, etc. and work on them. It's been very therapeutic.
Thank you again for your comment and fave
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Thanks again for your fascinating reply. Your honesty is amazing and I think you have a lot of insight into the sexuality of others and your own.
I also find writing things down helps me understand my own feelings and find it excellent therapy. Your friend seems quite conflicted and the very way he suggests that he 'caught' bisexuality indicates a certain dysfunctional view of himself. Perhaps talking to another bi-sexual guy would have been helpful to him (For many men their homo-erotic tendencies are insurmountably conflicting).
Perhaps he is just bisexual and finding it hard, perhaps the experience made him obsess about the event and he has misconstrued that as bisexuality, or possibly he is actually homosexual and is in denial?
Sorry to ramble, a thought provoking piece - thanks for allowing us to share in your candour.
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Thank you again
I've had those scenarios go through my head aswell. It's hard because I mentioned to him that I was getting help and wanted/needed to change for my own benefit, and I want to be a good role model for my son. He said that he couldn't change so he just has to get on with it. I'm hoping that one day he will realise that he can change but that it's dependent on whether or not he thinks he can.
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ouch lol the last sentence was mean but however, nicely done!
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Was wasn't it? I like it
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