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gone before my time
i'm dead on the inside
the flowers that grow
are nourished by my rot
the deteriorating leftovers
of the life i couldn't live

choked out by the hands
of those tasked with shelter
i was a goner from the start
because you expected me to be
a perfect ghost of my flawed self

you don't like my symptoms
the signs of imperfect synapses
an attitude grown from apathy
and the very same well-being
that brought me here to begin with

i am just a pill-stained shadow
closing in on repeating my mistakes
i thought things would be different
but it almost feels the same as it was
history is repeating itself this year

the same threats and the same outcome
i bounce between houses that don't want me
and people who would rather try to trim hedges
than actually realize the root of the problem
my illness doesn't care about your criticism

again and again i crave an overdose
but i can't bring myself to tip the bottle
because first i feel like i want to end it all
and then two voices remind me why i'm still here
my guardian angels won't let me leave just yet

Description
gone before my time
i'm dead on the inside
the flowers that grow
are nourished by my rot
the deteriorating leftovers
of the life i couldn't live

choked out by the hands
of those tasked with shelter
i was a goner from the start
because you expected me to be
a perfect ghost of my flawed self

you don't like my symptoms
the signs of imperfect synapses
an attitude grown from apathy
and the very same well-being
that brought me here to begin with

i am just a pill-stained shadow
closing in on repeating my mistakes
i thought things would be different
but it almost feels the same as it was
history is repeating itself this year

the same threats and the same outcome
i bounce between houses that don't want me
and people who would rather try to trim hedges
than actually realize the root of the problem
my illness doesn't care about your criticism

again and again i crave an overdose
but i can't bring myself to tip the bottle
because first i feel like i want to end it all
and then two voices remind me why i'm still here
my guardian angels won't let me leave just yet