HOME | DD

Description
How do you feel my dear?
Do you feel as you are casting me away, gutting me with your blindness?
Ripping my heart out as I try desperately to be there for you when I can't, I have no choice
pulled in so many places at once, my heart bleeds ready to burst.
I can't abandon the blood of my blood relying on me to get them through.
Yet I can't abandon the whole of my heart so many miles away.
countless hours working, while you lie awake, finished when you must sleep.
I am tired I need rest, you want to stay up.
You tear out my heart, lash at me with the whip of your tongue,not the caress of a lover anymore, but the barb of the punisher.
What have I done? Were my care and kindness not enough? Being strong for you when you could not, supporting you and holding you as you cried.
Have you forgotten that day when we were kissing in the rain?
You think I don't think about you, for what second of what day have I not?
I haven't called, I have no way. when I did you were angry and away.
My heart can take only so much my love, the holes will soon bleed it dry.
When I get hurt I become cold, I do not want to be cold to you.

Ah and to you mother, life-bringer, prison-keeper.
to what bounds do I owe you bringing me into this life of pain?
You were gone, never raised me, and still I did not blame you.
You carried my scourge from whom I had escaped here to me upon roaring wings.
I pleaded with you no. yet why have you done this?
So now, I stay giving much receiving little.
No respect, no heed. that is what you pay to me
You threw me out, now you need me, you turned your back
Why shouldn't I? Because I know who I am. I won't let you be out on the streets, because of your marital quarrels
As you had me out on the street for my honesty.
All I ask is for respect and freedom, for the work I do, the money I bring, and the support I give, you still lie incapable of this.

And to my brother the scourge. the tide of karma is rushing through the lips of your fortress of tricks, lies, and deception
One too many girls you have hurt. and you know I have stopped cleaning up your messes for you.
so now you are in too deep, no way out. where's the bad ass now? fleeing away, hiding
there is nowhere to run, I will not stop them.
You have run so deep that a few just wish you harm, but I know many of which crave for your death and they shall bring it. It was by respect for me alone that they did not do so when our dearest mother was home.
Why? because you see no one as equal, you must be better, you have to claim all.
nothing can quench your thirst.
You can cheat on the girls but they cannot even look at another guy.
scared they might see something better? that what you have done to others will happen to you?

It will

You hide behind your strong image, inside a scared little boy and every time you look in the mirror, You have no clue who you see.
Alcohol doesn't begin to answer, it's starting to not work so well too. To where will you turn to drown out your guilt? Where will you hide?
The only things that saddens me is that you haven't yet realized, that I have not forgotten what you have done to me, and I will be the icy shoulder that makes you fall.
and still you have no clue what you have done.

Description
How do you feel my dear?
Do you feel as you are casting me away, gutting me with your blindness?
Ripping my heart out as I try desperately to be there for you when I can't, I have no choice
pulled in so many places at once, my heart bleeds ready to burst.
I can't abandon the blood of my blood relying on me to get them through.
Yet I can't abandon the whole of my heart so many miles away.
countless hours working, while you lie awake, finished when you must sleep.
I am tired I need rest, you want to stay up.
You tear out my heart, lash at me with the whip of your tongue,not the caress of a lover anymore, but the barb of the punisher.
What have I done? Were my care and kindness not enough? Being strong for you when you could not, supporting you and holding you as you cried.
Have you forgotten that day when we were kissing in the rain?
You think I don't think about you, for what second of what day have I not?
I haven't called, I have no way. when I did you were angry and away.
My heart can take only so much my love, the holes will soon bleed it dry.
When I get hurt I become cold, I do not want to be cold to you.

Ah and to you mother, life-bringer, prison-keeper.
to what bounds do I owe you bringing me into this life of pain?
You were gone, never raised me, and still I did not blame you.
You carried my scourge from whom I had escaped here to me upon roaring wings.
I pleaded with you no. yet why have you done this?
So now, I stay giving much receiving little.
No respect, no heed. that is what you pay to me
You threw me out, now you need me, you turned your back
Why shouldn't I? Because I know who I am. I won't let you be out on the streets, because of your marital quarrels
As you had me out on the street for my honesty.
All I ask is for respect and freedom, for the work I do, the money I bring, and the support I give, you still lie incapable of this.

And to my brother the scourge. the tide of karma is rushing through the lips of your fortress of tricks, lies, and deception
One too many girls you have hurt. and you know I have stopped cleaning up your messes for you.
so now you are in too deep, no way out. where's the bad ass now? fleeing away, hiding
there is nowhere to run, I will not stop them.
You have run so deep that a few just wish you harm, but I know many of which crave for your death and they shall bring it. It was by respect for me alone that they did not do so when our dearest mother was home.
Why? because you see no one as equal, you must be better, you have to claim all.
nothing can quench your thirst.
You can cheat on the girls but they cannot even look at another guy.
scared they might see something better? that what you have done to others will happen to you?

It will

You hide behind your strong image, inside a scared little boy and every time you look in the mirror, You have no clue who you see.
Alcohol doesn't begin to answer, it's starting to not work so well too. To where will you turn to drown out your guilt? Where will you hide?
The only things that saddens me is that you haven't yet realized, that I have not forgotten what you have done to me, and I will be the icy shoulder that makes you fall.
and still you have no clue what you have done.