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When I was younger, I saw...
My daddy cry, and curse at the wind...
He broke his own heart, and I watched...
As he tried to reassemble it...

I sat in my computer chair comfortably, awaiting a call from a close friend. I hadn’t talked to the silly man in weeks, due to him being busy, but no matter, I would see him today. A picture of my family rested beside my screen, but I had no idea why I kept it there. It was only a reminder of what once was, before my father cheated on my mother and broke our family apart. It was all his fault, and I would never forgive him... He made his own choices.

And my momma swore that she...
Would never let herself forget...
And that was the day I promised...
I’d never sing of love, if it does not exist...

Ten o’ five. He said he’d meet me at ten, but I really don’t blame him. I smiled sadly at the picture again, my mother’s happy smile greeting me. She swore she would never love any man again, and so did I. I, being a guy, can’t completely fulfill my promise since I’d already broken it. No, this isn’t a feeling of love. Love doesn’t exist, of course. I thought my parents were in love, but no. It was a lie. I promised myself I wouldn’t love anybody, a pity for a guy, but promises break sometimes. Unwillingly, of course. He was an exception...

But darling...
You, are, the only exception...
You, are, the only exception...
You, are, the only exception...
You, are, the only exception...

Finally, the Skype chime beamed into my thoughts, and I answered quickly. I was greeted by the blonde Swede, a large grin on his face. “Sup’ Cry!” he called, waving to the camera happily. I smiled in return, my signature mask covering half my face. Yes, I really wore that in real life. I always thought I was ugly, everyone seemed to point it out. I’d rather be a freak with a mask than ugly. I sound like the average teenage girl. “Hello, friend.” I greeted politely, only showing my mouth so he could see me smile. “Since we haven’t er, seen each other in awhile, you wanna do a co-op?” he asked, the smile still lingering on his face. Oh yes, Felix was an exception.

Maybe I know, somewhere deep in my soul...
That love never lasts...
And we’ve got to find other ways, to make it alone...
But keep a straight face...

I couldn’t focus on the game, my head was spinning to quickly. After all this time not seeing him, I should be able to be free to be like this. I know love never lasts, half the marriages in the country end in divorce... I think. But I don’t want a relationship. My friend in town, which is only my neighbor since I don’t like to get out and “socialize”, is my age, and constantly trying to hook me up with girls. I am glad in my house, alone, with my cat...s. Yes, I’m the man who never comes out of his house with his cats and the weird pokerface mask. I don’t even act like I need a girlfriend. All I need is my best friend...

And I’ve always lived like this...
Keeping a comfortably distance, and up until now...
I had sworn to myself that I’m content with loneliness...
Because none of it was ever worth the risk...

I seem perfectly happy, right? I am perfectly, absolutely, utterly, completely, totally okay alone...? I’ve always lived alone, inside my little house, completely ignoring the outside world. I don’t need all of that, and I personally don’t want it. This world is full of heartbreak, and hurt. I don’t need this. When I have my computer, headphones, mask, and a man on the other side of the world to keep me sane, what else do I need? Nothing else is worth the risk of loosing. I hate people, they drive me insane... Except one, who seems to understand...

But
You, are, the only exception...
You, are, the only exception...
You, are, the only exception...
You, are, the only exception...

Felix Kjellberg. This man, this idiot hilariously is the one I love. It’s crazy, yes? I told myself I hated love, told myself I didn’t need to rest of the world when in reality, he’s all I need. I should be in a crazy house by now, probably. Sure, I can be sane when I need to, but sometimes reality slips away from my grasp and leaves me to dangle here alone. He’s usually the one to bring it back with his calls that I look forward to, whether the be a month apart or a week apart. I can hate the rest of the world except my beloved, can’t I?

I’ve got a tight grip on reality...
But I can’t let go of what’s in front of me here...
I know you’re leaving in the morning, when you wake up...
Leave me with some kind of proof it’s not a dream...

Oh, oh, oh...

You, are, the only exception...
You, are, the only exception...
You, are, the only exception...
You, are, the only exception...

It can’t have been three hours already, can it? But, I don’t want him to go yet... It’s been so long, I could fall asleep to his voice. And people say mine is angelic. “H-hey, Pewds?” I begin, before he logs off for the day. “Yeah, Cry?” he says, confusion in his tone. I was about to, about to confess this all, but I just smile. “Can you smile for me, please?” I asked him sheepishly. “O-oh, sure Cry.” he agrees, and I can tell he’s skeptical. He freezes for a second, smiling sweetly and giving me enough time to screenshot it. “Thanks, friend. Good... Bye.” I murmur, and he nods, saying goodbye once more before heading off. I logged off Skype with a sigh, pulling up the picture of Felix. He was genuinely beautiful, a masterpiece. Now I had proof that he was happy when around me, even though I told him to smile, it was the same smile he always used around me. Now I could remind myself I’m not alone, and that I do have him to keep me.
Maybe love isn’t so bad...

And I’m on my way to believing...
Oh, and I’m on my way to believing...

Description
When I was younger, I saw...
My daddy cry, and curse at the wind...
He broke his own heart, and I watched...
As he tried to reassemble it...

I sat in my computer chair comfortably, awaiting a call from a close friend. I hadn’t talked to the silly man in weeks, due to him being busy, but no matter, I would see him today. A picture of my family rested beside my screen, but I had no idea why I kept it there. It was only a reminder of what once was, before my father cheated on my mother and broke our family apart. It was all his fault, and I would never forgive him... He made his own choices.

And my momma swore that she...
Would never let herself forget...
And that was the day I promised...
I’d never sing of love, if it does not exist...

Ten o’ five. He said he’d meet me at ten, but I really don’t blame him. I smiled sadly at the picture again, my mother’s happy smile greeting me. She swore she would never love any man again, and so did I. I, being a guy, can’t completely fulfill my promise since I’d already broken it. No, this isn’t a feeling of love. Love doesn’t exist, of course. I thought my parents were in love, but no. It was a lie. I promised myself I wouldn’t love anybody, a pity for a guy, but promises break sometimes. Unwillingly, of course. He was an exception...

But darling...
You, are, the only exception...
You, are, the only exception...
You, are, the only exception...
You, are, the only exception...

Finally, the Skype chime beamed into my thoughts, and I answered quickly. I was greeted by the blonde Swede, a large grin on his face. “Sup’ Cry!” he called, waving to the camera happily. I smiled in return, my signature mask covering half my face. Yes, I really wore that in real life. I always thought I was ugly, everyone seemed to point it out. I’d rather be a freak with a mask than ugly. I sound like the average teenage girl. “Hello, friend.” I greeted politely, only showing my mouth so he could see me smile. “Since we haven’t er, seen each other in awhile, you wanna do a co-op?” he asked, the smile still lingering on his face. Oh yes, Felix was an exception.

Maybe I know, somewhere deep in my soul...
That love never lasts...
And we’ve got to find other ways, to make it alone...
But keep a straight face...

I couldn’t focus on the game, my head was spinning to quickly. After all this time not seeing him, I should be able to be free to be like this. I know love never lasts, half the marriages in the country end in divorce... I think. But I don’t want a relationship. My friend in town, which is only my neighbor since I don’t like to get out and “socialize”, is my age, and constantly trying to hook me up with girls. I am glad in my house, alone, with my cat...s. Yes, I’m the man who never comes out of his house with his cats and the weird pokerface mask. I don’t even act like I need a girlfriend. All I need is my best friend...

And I’ve always lived like this...
Keeping a comfortably distance, and up until now...
I had sworn to myself that I’m content with loneliness...
Because none of it was ever worth the risk...

I seem perfectly happy, right? I am perfectly, absolutely, utterly, completely, totally okay alone...? I’ve always lived alone, inside my little house, completely ignoring the outside world. I don’t need all of that, and I personally don’t want it. This world is full of heartbreak, and hurt. I don’t need this. When I have my computer, headphones, mask, and a man on the other side of the world to keep me sane, what else do I need? Nothing else is worth the risk of loosing. I hate people, they drive me insane... Except one, who seems to understand...

But
You, are, the only exception...
You, are, the only exception...
You, are, the only exception...
You, are, the only exception...

Felix Kjellberg. This man, this idiot hilariously is the one I love. It’s crazy, yes? I told myself I hated love, told myself I didn’t need to rest of the world when in reality, he’s all I need. I should be in a crazy house by now, probably. Sure, I can be sane when I need to, but sometimes reality slips away from my grasp and leaves me to dangle here alone. He’s usually the one to bring it back with his calls that I look forward to, whether the be a month apart or a week apart. I can hate the rest of the world except my beloved, can’t I?

I’ve got a tight grip on reality...
But I can’t let go of what’s in front of me here...
I know you’re leaving in the morning, when you wake up...
Leave me with some kind of proof it’s not a dream...

Oh, oh, oh...

You, are, the only exception...
You, are, the only exception...
You, are, the only exception...
You, are, the only exception...

It can’t have been three hours already, can it? But, I don’t want him to go yet... It’s been so long, I could fall asleep to his voice. And people say mine is angelic. “H-hey, Pewds?” I begin, before he logs off for the day. “Yeah, Cry?” he says, confusion in his tone. I was about to, about to confess this all, but I just smile. “Can you smile for me, please?” I asked him sheepishly. “O-oh, sure Cry.” he agrees, and I can tell he’s skeptical. He freezes for a second, smiling sweetly and giving me enough time to screenshot it. “Thanks, friend. Good... Bye.” I murmur, and he nods, saying goodbye once more before heading off. I logged off Skype with a sigh, pulling up the picture of Felix. He was genuinely beautiful, a masterpiece. Now I had proof that he was happy when around me, even though I told him to smile, it was the same smile he always used around me. Now I could remind myself I’m not alone, and that I do have him to keep me.
Maybe love isn’t so bad...

And I’m on my way to believing...
Oh, and I’m on my way to believing...