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Sitting here at my desk
With my pen held in my hand
Wondering what I should write
Could I make you understand?

A million thoughts racing through my head
Yet only one single dot on the paper
Wish I could tell you all I said
Yet my pen remains at the start

I don't regret it
Not to this day
You never knew what you meant
Here are the words I want to say:

'What were the chances, that this random encounter
Would make me feel this way?
When we first talked my heart went all fuzzy
So many things I wanted to say
I wish I could have talked to you all day

The next day you were online
I was happy to talk to you again
You made me smile, you made me forget the pain
I knew you weren't like other men

I wanted to talk to you every day
So many things to say
I never thought I one person could make me feel this way
But then you came along

I knew that you loved me
I think I loved you too
But my boyfriend was getting jealous
But our feelings for each other grew

I remember our late night texts
Waking up very early just so I could talk to you online
Talking to you meant the world to me
I wish you could have been mine

I remember all the maps on Halo
All the effort and hearts
It made me smile when you made them for me
You made me so happy, but none of that anyone could see

My boyfriend and I started to fight
He never liked you, didn't want me to talk to you
But when I was with you, it felt so right
I knew that when I had to choose I would want you

I remember the day we got married on Halo
I've never smiled so much
I wanted to be with you, I wanted to feel your touch
That day was one of the best days of my life

The months we talked were like an amazing song
I knew being with you whilst having a boyfriend was wrong
But I couldn't help it, you just came along
You made me feel like I belonged

One day my boyfriend was fed up
Told me I wasn't allowed to talk to you
It broke my heart because I knew I loved you
But I guess to my boy I wanted to stay true

He sent you a text saying goodbye
As he did it something in me died
I wondered if it to made you cry
Did you ever wonder why?

I was depressed, I don't know for how long
I just wish I had you back in my life
But I knew I had to be strong
Maybe time does heal all wounds

I missed you terribly and wanted to talk to you again
Did you hurt as much as me too?
Love for my boyfriend I think I did lack
But I stayed with him because I knew you weren't coming back

Months went by and I guess I healed
But in my heart you always lived
I never forgot you, I still wanted you
Did you feel the same way too?

It felt like forever but then I found you again
I logged onto xbox and there was a message
You deleted me as a friend but said you would add me back
Then at the end you said you always loved me

I was so happy to hear your voice again
It always gave me a fuzzy feeling inside
I told you to add me back
I think that night I cried

I was happy to have you back in my life
But so much had change and we were both different
In the past year we both suffered some strife
But I was just glad to talk to you again

It wasn't the same though
I would hardly log on and we would hardly talk
It went on like that for a few months
Our true feelings we just couldn't show

I wish I could tell you what had happened
My month as a slut
I felt ashamed but could never say
I hated the fact that I was this way

So many guys, so many broken hearts
That's why I kept my distance
Inside I was tearing apart
And I never wanted you the see the real me

I logged on one day and you said to send you a message
You told me it was your birthday
I was happy for you and I would say
"Happy Birthday"

You told me you wanted a strip tease
And I kind of giggled
But you asked and said please
So I couldn't have said no

We did voice chat and I never felt happier
I remembered just how sexy your voice was
Then you asked me out again
Nothing has ever made my heart skip a beat

To this day I never regret
All the hell, all the good and the bad
I know I'll never forget
You mean more then the world to me
I hope that you can see.'

Here I am still at my desk
My pen still hovering over that one dot
This is something I'll forget not
A drop would fall onto the paper

I would smile as the tears would start to fall
All these memories I recall
You tore down all my walls
No one has ever meant this much to me

I remember when I used to dream of you dying
Then I would wake up crying
Nothing ever hurt me so bad
Nothing ever made me so sad

But here we are, time has passed
Flying by so fast
I know this time we will last
Nothings going to stop us this time

Even though we are distance apart
We're always going to be close at heart
These are the only words I can say…
"I love you forever
I'll leave you never
Being apart from you makes me cry
And whenever we fight something in me dies
But you are my world
You are everything to me
I wish you see
Just how much you mean."

The words you say are 'I love you.'
Never forget I love you too.

Description
Sitting here at my desk
With my pen held in my hand
Wondering what I should write
Could I make you understand?

A million thoughts racing through my head
Yet only one single dot on the paper
Wish I could tell you all I said
Yet my pen remains at the start

I don't regret it
Not to this day
You never knew what you meant
Here are the words I want to say:

'What were the chances, that this random encounter
Would make me feel this way?
When we first talked my heart went all fuzzy
So many things I wanted to say
I wish I could have talked to you all day

The next day you were online
I was happy to talk to you again
You made me smile, you made me forget the pain
I knew you weren't like other men

I wanted to talk to you every day
So many things to say
I never thought I one person could make me feel this way
But then you came along

I knew that you loved me
I think I loved you too
But my boyfriend was getting jealous
But our feelings for each other grew

I remember our late night texts
Waking up very early just so I could talk to you online
Talking to you meant the world to me
I wish you could have been mine

I remember all the maps on Halo
All the effort and hearts
It made me smile when you made them for me
You made me so happy, but none of that anyone could see

My boyfriend and I started to fight
He never liked you, didn't want me to talk to you
But when I was with you, it felt so right
I knew that when I had to choose I would want you

I remember the day we got married on Halo
I've never smiled so much
I wanted to be with you, I wanted to feel your touch
That day was one of the best days of my life

The months we talked were like an amazing song
I knew being with you whilst having a boyfriend was wrong
But I couldn't help it, you just came along
You made me feel like I belonged

One day my boyfriend was fed up
Told me I wasn't allowed to talk to you
It broke my heart because I knew I loved you
But I guess to my boy I wanted to stay true

He sent you a text saying goodbye
As he did it something in me died
I wondered if it to made you cry
Did you ever wonder why?

I was depressed, I don't know for how long
I just wish I had you back in my life
But I knew I had to be strong
Maybe time does heal all wounds

I missed you terribly and wanted to talk to you again
Did you hurt as much as me too?
Love for my boyfriend I think I did lack
But I stayed with him because I knew you weren't coming back

Months went by and I guess I healed
But in my heart you always lived
I never forgot you, I still wanted you
Did you feel the same way too?

It felt like forever but then I found you again
I logged onto xbox and there was a message
You deleted me as a friend but said you would add me back
Then at the end you said you always loved me

I was so happy to hear your voice again
It always gave me a fuzzy feeling inside
I told you to add me back
I think that night I cried

I was happy to have you back in my life
But so much had change and we were both different
In the past year we both suffered some strife
But I was just glad to talk to you again

It wasn't the same though
I would hardly log on and we would hardly talk
It went on like that for a few months
Our true feelings we just couldn't show

I wish I could tell you what had happened
My month as a slut
I felt ashamed but could never say
I hated the fact that I was this way

So many guys, so many broken hearts
That's why I kept my distance
Inside I was tearing apart
And I never wanted you the see the real me

I logged on one day and you said to send you a message
You told me it was your birthday
I was happy for you and I would say
"Happy Birthday"

You told me you wanted a strip tease
And I kind of giggled
But you asked and said please
So I couldn't have said no

We did voice chat and I never felt happier
I remembered just how sexy your voice was
Then you asked me out again
Nothing has ever made my heart skip a beat

To this day I never regret
All the hell, all the good and the bad
I know I'll never forget
You mean more then the world to me
I hope that you can see.'

Here I am still at my desk
My pen still hovering over that one dot
This is something I'll forget not
A drop would fall onto the paper

I would smile as the tears would start to fall
All these memories I recall
You tore down all my walls
No one has ever meant this much to me

I remember when I used to dream of you dying
Then I would wake up crying
Nothing ever hurt me so bad
Nothing ever made me so sad

But here we are, time has passed
Flying by so fast
I know this time we will last
Nothings going to stop us this time

Even though we are distance apart
We're always going to be close at heart
These are the only words I can say…
"I love you forever
I'll leave you never
Being apart from you makes me cry
And whenever we fight something in me dies
But you are my world
You are everything to me
I wish you see
Just how much you mean."

The words you say are 'I love you.'
Never forget I love you too.