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I just stood there. It was unbelievable how long we've been standing in this frigid weather.
How could I forget our promise? It's been at least two years since the accident..
Two years.
Within this time, I'd managed to find someone else that loved me. However I could never love them the way they wanted me to.
I wanted to. I wanted to try to be with someone. To try to forget the pain.
It almost worked.
I was smiling again, with someone other than the one I thought I lost.
I had already created a life-- a life without Hayden. Something I never thought I would do.
I felt like my heart was breaking all over again.
I felt like I was back at the hospital, smelling the anesthetic-- hearing those wretched words over and over again.
The news they gave me wasn't what crushed me, it was their pathetic apologies they gave me to go along with it that did.
"Iris..?" I blinked, my thoughts leaving me.
I heard my name. But it wasn't Hayden's voice..
It was like he could read my mind-- like he thought I was calling him down here.
Which I wasn't.
I wish he'd turn back.
He should have never came here..
I shouldn't have encouraged him.
My entire face froze. I'm pretty sure Hayden felt the same way."Cody? What are you doing here? How did you--"
"I went to your house, and you weren't there. You weren't answering your phone either. I thought maybe you'd come to the place we first met. I'm your boyfriend, I'm supposed to know this stuff." Even though he smiled, I was sensing a bit of jealousy.
The storm had died down by now, it was still fairly cold, but everything was visible.
There was a bit of silence.
"So--", Cody was the first one to break it. "Who's this?" He pointed to Hayden.
I could feel the tension.
I couldn't speak, I had no idea what to say, but apparently he did.
Hayden spoke up. "I'm Hayden, and I'm just a friend."He faked a smile.
"Oh, okay. Nice to meet you dude. You guys wanna hang? I've got the car."
Dammit. Why can't I talk? Why is this happening?
"No, I'm good. You guys go ahead." He started walking away.
"You sure man?"
"Yeah, I'm sure." He waved his hand in the air, and his words started to grow faint.
Cody put his arm around me.
I wanted to run. I wanted to scream.
"Is he okay?"
I shook my head, and ran after Hayden.
"Where are you going?!" I could hear Cody yell to me.
I turned around, "I'll meet you back at the car okay!" I yelled back.
I saw him wave his hand in the air, approving what I had said.
After I saw this, I ran after Hayden again.
Which took about a minute.
"Hayden I--"
"No, it's fine. Go with your boyfriend."
What..? I haven't seen him for two years, and he wants me to leave?
"Hayden--"
"Go."
"Dammit! Let me talk!"
We both froze. I never yelled. At least not at him.
He sighed. "I'm sorry."
"I-I didn't mean to yell.." I shook my head.
He shrugged. "It doesn't matter. You're with him now. I can respect that.. You could have at least told me."
"Do you really think I'm that selfish? I didn't just choose not to tell you, I forgot. I didn't care."
"I saw the way you looked at him.."
I looked at the ground. "Hayden, it's been two years.. I thought you were dead. I was going to restart eventually, you know that. I don't have the same feelings for him that I have for you, but I have feelings for him. I'm sorry I ran out of the ER, but I didn't think you would show up two years later."
"So go. Go be with him. Why are you standing here?"
"You expect me to just forget that this ever happened? Do you know what I've been through?"
"Did you seriously just ask that? I tried to forget too. I found a girl, I fucking moved to San Diego. I almost had a kid with her, but you know what? I couldn't. Because no matter how damn hard I tried, everything reminded me of you. I couldn't forget. I left everything to try to find you, and I wasn't even thinking. I didn't think that you'd have somebody else if I found you. And that entire time I was gone, for those two years, don't think that I don't know what you've been through, because I went through the same thing Iris. And if you don't believe me--", he held out his arms. "You can look for yourself."
I hesitated, but grabbed one of his arms, and slowly slid his sleeve up.
What I saw only broke my heart even more.
Red lines, upon red lines, upon scars.
Thick and thin.
New and old.
Both directions.
I did the same to his other arm, it was even worse.
"Hayden..." I didn't know what to say.
"I'm sorry, but you'd find out sooner or later. You always do." I saw that he as slightly smiling.
I let his arms go, and he slid his sleeves back down.
I wanted everything to be like it was before.. I didn't want this.
Was this even an argument? We've never even had an argument.
Not like this.
"Iris..?" His voice spoke softly. "Why are you crying?"
I hadn't even realized I was crying. "I miss us.." My voice was barely audible.
He looked behind me, though I didn't know why. He then turned his gaze back to me, and wiped my tears away.
"I miss us too.. But we can't be the way we were before. Not with Cody. I see the way he looks at you.. It's the same way I look at you. And no matter how much I hate that, I can't do anything about it."
"Why?" I asked suddenly.
"Because you don't want me too, do you?"
I stayed silent.
"That's what I thought.." He sighed.
"But.. What about our promise..?"
He looked behind me again, and I realized he was watching for Cody.
Suddenly, I felt those familiar pair of lips against mine again.
I didn't want this to end. This is what made me happy.
I felt like it was just the two of us. Like we were unstoppable.
The kiss just grew deeper, and I could feel my heart beating faster.
I missed this. So did he.
Two years was too long.
I could feel him grab my arms and wrap them around his neck, and his immediately went to my waist.
I had kissed Cody many times before, but I've never felt what I feel with Hayden.
His hand came up, and he traced my bottom lip with his thumb. He always did this, it sent shivers down my spine and he knew it. He wanted dominance.
Normally I'd pull away, or just not do anything, because it was fun to tease him.
But this was different.
So I went with it. Not because I had to-- I wanted to. I wanted to remember this.
We both fought, and no matter how much I tried-- and believe me, I did-- he would always win.
After a while, he slowly pulled away, and rested his forehead against mine.
"I will always keep our promise." He whispered.
"Please don't make this the last time I see you.." I whispered back.
"I wouldn't dream of it." He smiled, and handed me a small piece of white, crumpled up paper.
When I opened it, I saw that it had a number on it.
He had started to back away, but I stopped him again.
"When do I..-" I started to speak.
"Whenever you need me, Iris. Call that number, and I'll be there, okay?"
I nodded. "Alright.."
He smiled at me again, pecked my lips, and whispered, "I love you." He turned around and walked away, before I could say anything.
I love you too...

Description
.2.
I just stood there. It was unbelievable how long we've been standing in this frigid weather.
How could I forget our promise? It's been at least two years since the accident..
Two years.
Within this time, I'd managed to find someone else that loved me. However I could never love them the way they wanted me to.
I wanted to. I wanted to try to be with someone. To try to forget the pain.
It almost worked.
I was smiling again, with someone other than the one I thought I lost.
I had already created a life-- a life without Hayden. Something I never thought I would do.
I felt like my heart was breaking all over again.
I felt like I was back at the hospital, smelling the anesthetic-- hearing those wretched words over and over again.
The news they gave me wasn't what crushed me, it was their pathetic apologies they gave me to go along with it that did.
"Iris..?" I blinked, my thoughts leaving me.
I heard my name. But it wasn't Hayden's voice..
It was like he could read my mind-- like he thought I was calling him down here.
Which I wasn't.
I wish he'd turn back.
He should have never came here..
I shouldn't have encouraged him.
My entire face froze. I'm pretty sure Hayden felt the same way."Cody? What are you doing here? How did you--"
"I went to your house, and you weren't there. You weren't answering your phone either. I thought maybe you'd come to the place we first met. I'm your boyfriend, I'm supposed to know this stuff." Even though he smiled, I was sensing a bit of jealousy.
The storm had died down by now, it was still fairly cold, but everything was visible.
There was a bit of silence.
"So--", Cody was the first one to break it. "Who's this?" He pointed to Hayden.
I could feel the tension.
I couldn't speak, I had no idea what to say, but apparently he did.
Hayden spoke up. "I'm Hayden, and I'm just a friend."He faked a smile.
"Oh, okay. Nice to meet you dude. You guys wanna hang? I've got the car."
Dammit. Why can't I talk? Why is this happening?
"No, I'm good. You guys go ahead." He started walking away.
"You sure man?"
"Yeah, I'm sure." He waved his hand in the air, and his words started to grow faint.
Cody put his arm around me.
I wanted to run. I wanted to scream.
"Is he okay?"
I shook my head, and ran after Hayden.
"Where are you going?!" I could hear Cody yell to me.
I turned around, "I'll meet you back at the car okay!" I yelled back.
I saw him wave his hand in the air, approving what I had said.
After I saw this, I ran after Hayden again.
Which took about a minute.
"Hayden I--"
"No, it's fine. Go with your boyfriend."
What..? I haven't seen him for two years, and he wants me to leave?
"Hayden--"
"Go."
"Dammit! Let me talk!"
We both froze. I never yelled. At least not at him.
He sighed. "I'm sorry."
"I-I didn't mean to yell.." I shook my head.
He shrugged. "It doesn't matter. You're with him now. I can respect that.. You could have at least told me."
"Do you really think I'm that selfish? I didn't just choose not to tell you, I forgot. I didn't care."
"I saw the way you looked at him.."
I looked at the ground. "Hayden, it's been two years.. I thought you were dead. I was going to restart eventually, you know that. I don't have the same feelings for him that I have for you, but I have feelings for him. I'm sorry I ran out of the ER, but I didn't think you would show up two years later."
"So go. Go be with him. Why are you standing here?"
"You expect me to just forget that this ever happened? Do you know what I've been through?"
"Did you seriously just ask that? I tried to forget too. I found a girl, I fucking moved to San Diego. I almost had a kid with her, but you know what? I couldn't. Because no matter how damn hard I tried, everything reminded me of you. I couldn't forget. I left everything to try to find you, and I wasn't even thinking. I didn't think that you'd have somebody else if I found you. And that entire time I was gone, for those two years, don't think that I don't know what you've been through, because I went through the same thing Iris. And if you don't believe me--", he held out his arms. "You can look for yourself."
I hesitated, but grabbed one of his arms, and slowly slid his sleeve up.
What I saw only broke my heart even more.
Red lines, upon red lines, upon scars.
Thick and thin.
New and old.
Both directions.
I did the same to his other arm, it was even worse.
"Hayden..." I didn't know what to say.
"I'm sorry, but you'd find out sooner or later. You always do." I saw that he as slightly smiling.
I let his arms go, and he slid his sleeves back down.
I wanted everything to be like it was before.. I didn't want this.
Was this even an argument? We've never even had an argument.
Not like this.
"Iris..?" His voice spoke softly. "Why are you crying?"
I hadn't even realized I was crying. "I miss us.." My voice was barely audible.
He looked behind me, though I didn't know why. He then turned his gaze back to me, and wiped my tears away.
"I miss us too.. But we can't be the way we were before. Not with Cody. I see the way he looks at you.. It's the same way I look at you. And no matter how much I hate that, I can't do anything about it."
"Why?" I asked suddenly.
"Because you don't want me too, do you?"
I stayed silent.
"That's what I thought.." He sighed.
"But.. What about our promise..?"
He looked behind me again, and I realized he was watching for Cody.
Suddenly, I felt those familiar pair of lips against mine again.
I didn't want this to end. This is what made me happy.
I felt like it was just the two of us. Like we were unstoppable.
The kiss just grew deeper, and I could feel my heart beating faster.
I missed this. So did he.
Two years was too long.
I could feel him grab my arms and wrap them around his neck, and his immediately went to my waist.
I had kissed Cody many times before, but I've never felt what I feel with Hayden.
His hand came up, and he traced my bottom lip with his thumb. He always did this, it sent shivers down my spine and he knew it. He wanted dominance.
Normally I'd pull away, or just not do anything, because it was fun to tease him.
But this was different.
So I went with it. Not because I had to-- I wanted to. I wanted to remember this.
We both fought, and no matter how much I tried-- and believe me, I did-- he would always win.
After a while, he slowly pulled away, and rested his forehead against mine.
"I will always keep our promise." He whispered.
"Please don't make this the last time I see you.." I whispered back.
"I wouldn't dream of it." He smiled, and handed me a small piece of white, crumpled up paper.
When I opened it, I saw that it had a number on it.
He had started to back away, but I stopped him again.
"When do I..-" I started to speak.
"Whenever you need me, Iris. Call that number, and I'll be there, okay?"
I nodded. "Alright.."
He smiled at me again, pecked my lips, and whispered, "I love you." He turned around and walked away, before I could say anything.
I love you too...