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AKAITO proverb:
I was peeping Kaito's room from outside. He was sleeping so soundless like a baby. I knew it very well that Kaito's really tired today. A very damned day where I got dropped out from school and Taito was just laughing at me while Kaiko; she of course blamed me for everything—she said I am such a useless person who certainly weighted this family. I am such a disgrace… but who cares anyway? If she want to leave me, just do it because I know—though I can notice how desperate Kaito is—taking care of me—I just know that he will not leave me. Kaito is my bestest family, my brother—my parent—moreover my lover (Though he's not consider me as his lover). Kaito is actually the only I truly love with all my heart… Well, of course I did have girlfriends before, even so many of them. I was a playboy who love to play with girls. I dated them, told them "I love you" and I ever had sex before. I know…I am such an asshole… If Kaito find out about this, he will kill me I guess. No… I didn't think so on the other side. The one who will kill me is definitely Kaiko. In addition Kaito is such lovely person who will defend me from anything no matter how terrible myself, like just he did before. When Kaiko abused me, intimidated me; Kaito was the only one who backed me up at the same time, Taito only smirked and laughed hard for what I did today. He did nothing except that! Cruel Taito… Well, who cares anyway…?

Okay, back to the moment. Kaito was sleeping as I said. He covered his body with blanket and tonight really was so cold. Without an air conditioner, I already felt the cold air pierced into my boned. I felt freezing inside and I only wore T-shirt with shorts. I guessed I would like to snap into his room, it's too cold here. Finally, I really entered his room slowly without making any sound. Kaito still slept peacefully on his bed. I watched him closely; he was so exhausted—his breathe kind of unstable, but he seemed enjoy the dream. Was he really dreaming? I hope he dreamt about me. Ahaha…

"Hey, Kaito…" I was talking to him with low volume cause I didn't want to wake him. "I am so sorry for what I did to you all these time—I am such a disgrace and worthless. You always do a very good job for this family as the oldest Shion—as my brother—mother—father—okay, everything on me. And I think you make me sick, brother because I fall in love with you seriously. I love you more than just a brother or family, I love you as my precious lover like Romeo who adore his Juliette. I guess you pretty enough to be…No… you are so beautiful to be my own Juliette. Your charm has possessed me in. Will you be my lover?" I stopped talking. It was very stupid, but I just wanted to say it secretly. I touched his hand and grabbed it close. It's so warm and gentle, I love it. I moved closer to him and kissed his lips serenely for a second and Kaito felt uneasy, so I supposed to get away a bit. After that, I went outside his room and skip the corridor towards my room. It's a very messy room with so many porn magazines on the floor, my pants and so many other things that Kaito always cleaned up everyday. He never get tired to clean up my room, he's the only one who want to do that. My lovely brother…No, he's my lovely girl…

I lay down on my bed and looked up the ceiling—imagined about my own blue brother. His lips was so cute and I can feel the sweetness boiled up inside. Even just for a while, it was the most amazing kiss I ever did. You must be believe I already kiss so many women, eh? But you'll never know that none of them can satisfied me. It's just playing around. Other than, what I did with Kaito though just for a second, it's unforgettable. I have no idea why I did that. I only thought, I was driven insane by him. Kaito is my brother—I know that for the God sake! But I cannot stand this feeling, I really in love with him! I hope I can meet him in my dream tonight—meet him and having fun together on the bed—I mean having sex… I seriously wanna do that with Kaito. I wanna screw him so bad and I just want him to suspect what I perfectly feel. I want Kaito receive this irregular love.

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"Hey, where am I? What's tighten my hands, it feels so hurt…"

Whoa! What?! Where the hell am I?! I don't know this dark, strange and creepy place! And my hands have been tied up by something mystical. Oh God, are you kidding me?! What is going on here?! Why can I be here? Somebody please answer me!

I've been tied up on the dark place where I cannot see the light, I only saw a mysterious aura around me. Is this a dream or what?! I screamed out, calling for someone but there was no answer. I tried to yell out once again and the result was same. As the final point, I attempted to calm down myself and looked for something, though it's useless. The spinning magical atmosphere just won't disappear, it's making me dizzy and scare. I needed someone to let me out from this insanity! Oh God, please help me! Is this some kind of punishment from you because I always be bastard in this world? God, pelase… I think you're the only one who can help me right now cause there's no Kaito around here. He always be my savior, my guardian angel, but he's not present here…God.. Please, just give me a clue how can I get out from here!

As the time moved on, I was still frozen in this unknown dimension. I heard a clap and step which they were closer and closer. It's Kaito! Oh Thank God, you've sent my guardian angel! Hell, no! He's with somebody else held him from behind, stroke his body with his hands and put it inside the white coat—means that he's touching Kaito's body! Who the hell is that guy?! He's wearing a long coat, a black evil scarf and creepy mask on his head.

"Akaito…" Kaito said miserably—sounds moan a bit at time the mysterious guy grabbed his body and hug it tight.

"Kaito?! What are you doing here?! Who's that guy?" I shouted at him quickly.

Kaito closed his eyes and bore the madness of the hands that touching him—seduced him actually. He's groaning once in a while and held the screamed out. Of course, that guy tried to rape my brother! I cannot stand it, I screamed with anger at once. "Who are you evil?! Stop touching Kaito!"

"What?! Are you jealous with what I've done to your brother? I know, Akaito you always want to rape him, right? You desire him for long to be your sex slave, right?!" He's out of dignity laugh so loud and I was shocking out with what he's said. Sex slave is too rude and harsh! I only want to make in love with Kaito, not making him as my sex slave!

"You bastard! Just leave Kaito alone! Leave us alone!" I screamed out with anger again though it's not working at all.

"Akaito…" Kaito shed a tears so sudden, but his face was very unpredictable. It's kind of having orgasm and he seems enjoy it. "Ah…Kageito-sama..not there…" So his name is Kageito?! Fuck you! Stop raping Kaito!

Kageito started freaking me out. He's holding Kaito's manhood and unzipped his coat. He stroke the blue Shion's torso with a tuneful rhythm and squeezed Kaito's pink nipples. Damn! I always want to do that. Then, he sucked it and tongued it playfully—made Kaito's moaned even harder. His body was very quivering and sweated as Kageito dance his clapper into Kaito's upper. Kaito didn't open his eyes. He's too embarrassed and too ecstatic until he found himself was being laid down by Kageito. That evil guy moved so fast to took off Kaito's pants and gripped the blue's manhood. He started to rubbed it slightly while Kaito whimpered in lowly. "Kageito-sama….Please more…!" He's begging for more?! Fuck me! I cannot believe with this scenery! It's all bullshit and Kaito will not get pleasure in pain. I know this was a dream! Somebody, wake up! Please! Somebody, I cannot endured this madness with seeing a lunatic named; Kageito screwed my beloved Kaito!

Somebody please….! Wake me up!

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That's really a dream… and what did I get? A figure of Kaito right beside my bed wore a white shirt with one button off on upper and share a very gentle smile on his face. He greeted me softly. "Good morning, Akaito." *eyes close plus a cutie smile* I was shocking out, I casted a terrifying ray in my eyes. Thank God, it's just my real beloved Kaito.

"Akaito? What happen? Did you just have bad dream?" His eyes were opened after a sweet smile. They were filled by anxiety. Kaito was lay his hands on my shoulder as my breathed still up and down. He hugged me so close and I felt his warmness touch my heart. "It's okay, I am here with you." My hands tried to reach his back, but I was too shocked out, and my body felt so heavy like a stone. I just kept quiet when Kaito cooled me down. I really conceived myself like sister, not brother. He treated me like Kaiko, but it's actually how Kaito used to treat his own siblings. Everyone in this house was treated the same for the fact, it's just I sometimes sense that I am so special cause Kaito never ever let me down from Kaiko's assault. Some minutes has passed, Kaito still drawn my head on his shoulder and he's asking me. "Do you feel better, Akaito?" I release the embrace. "I do. Thanks, Kaito. Whew, that's very horrible dream…" I exhaled so freely. "Thank God, I have you here." I smiled.

"What kind of dream anyway? Will you tell me?" His eyes turned very innocent and full of curiosity of child.

"Umm… I was being tied up and the a very terrible monster attack you so horrific. I cannot tell…" I sighed again, and of course that's lie. How can I tell that he was raped by someone's mysterious which I cannot remember his name. I really was in headache, I forgot some moments in there. It's fragmented memories.

"Sigh..Akaito…It's okay.. Maybe you too much watching horror movie." Kaito giggled softly.

Aa… Hey, Kaito… A monster must not be shaped as monster like a giant, Frankenstein, Yetti or many more. It could be a human form either. I also might be a monster, you know. Huh...Well, I guess Kaito simply consider it as children's nightmare and I was not much watching horror movie; a porn movie; yes! That's what I often watched.

KAITO Proverb:
I was washing the dishes on the kitchen after I woke Akaito's up. He's always late—everyday woke up so late but I already ran out of idea to persuade him to be diligent and ambitious to face the day. Maybe later for gave him more advices. I need to ignore what's previously happened to Akaito. Being dropped out by school, it's just so awful I can say. But I have to let the past flow and stand up for the future. Akaito will be a success person, I must believe it. Akaito suddenly poked me from behind and gave the dirty plate after he finished his breakfast. Whoa, that's an improvement because he usually put the dirty plate on the table and I must took it by myself, LOL.

"There you go…" He said casually like nothing wonderful happen. I was smiling at him and beaming a very bright happiness from my eyes. Maybe Akaito want to learn to be good as I always pray to God every night. It's all because of God either, he could change though slightly, but I am very happy for it. Akaito was staring at me strangely. Of course he threw that kind of sight, as my happiness was overloaded. He's asking me directly. "What's wrong? You look very happy today, I just got dropped out and nightmare…" He sounds more protested than asking.

I again smiled at him. "I am sorry, I am just happy that you brought this dirty plate to me like Kaiko did at all times." Akaito's face turned irritated. I knew it so well that he hated to be equalized with his enemy which is Kaiko. "Is that all?!" I've been awkward, but I still controlled myself with patience to reply him. "Please, don't be mad, Akaito. I thought it's an improvement to you." Akaito didn't unmoved with what I said. He's turned his face away and back to the dining room. Before that, he said something firstly. "Don't force me to get new school, I am tired of school. Perhaps, I better find a job than being at school." I showed my poker-face though Akaito didn't notice it since he immediately gone.

Oh dear, but you need to continue to school to get higher chance to find the job, but if it's his own will, possibly I should give him chance to try it. He sounds playful on his talking tone, but I sense seriousness within his heart.

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Oh a bright Sunday. I've just finished my works here—cleaning, cleaning and cleaning…Feel so exhausted and hot. I swiftly opened the refrigerator and took my favorite ice cream. Oh no, there's only one left…I must go to supermarket and buy ice cream as many I can take! I ate my last ice cream first then I'll buy it!

I saw Akaito was sleeping on the couch with a porn magazine on his face. Oh, okay, I didn't mind he's reading porn, he's normal actually, unlike me. He loves to see sexy naked girls while me…? I don't know why but I honestly love to see handsome men than hot chicks… okay, the main point is I am homosexual. I have boyfriend, he's so gorgeous, cool and a very quiet person who only talks if it's necessary, but I really love him—he also held the same feeling though it's hard to expect him. His name is Zeito and I never been boned with him even kissed by him, I was too shy to asked him and Zeito is not a romantic person. He's too cold and silent, but he always takes care of me kindly. He showed me that he eventually love me as his lover. I can figure it out how weird I am as homosexual guy, so many people laughed at me because of it. Even Kaiko sometimes protested and Taito laughed on me, I felt… Okay, I felt being abused and can you believe that the only one who understand my situation is Akaito? He never complained about my relation with Zeito or maybe he doesn't care at all. ><" Ah, just forget about it. The most important thing is he never disturbed my relation with some offense and abuse. I thought it will be polite if you're not bothering someone abnormal with such mockeries. You better keep quiet and respect them with silence.

Back to the moment. I took the porn magazine from Akaito's face and put it on his room on upper floor then brought him blanket and pillow so he felt more comfortable. In fact this moment was my favorite, because Akaito was so adorable when he slept (he always adorable though, I mean he's so baby when he slept). I kissed his forehead and rubbed his hair. He's really a baby… and he always be my baby. I don't care if he's done so much mistakes before, he just need more love and tenderness. I really love you, Akaito even since you're born, I already put my heart for you as my brother (I remember when he's a pure baby, he grabbed my forefinger so tight and won't free it for long…That's so cute…^^) and now you're much like my own child—my own son.

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It's already late evening, Akaito just woke up and got surprised with the blanket and pillow. I was on the kitchen, preparing dinner—I heard him asking Taito about the blanket and pillow, but Taito said he knew nothing. I was giggled tunefully and enjoy the cook. Akaito was so funny when he's puzzled, it made him looks so innocent. After the dinner ready, we were on the dining room together about enjoy the dinner. Akaito still questioned me about the blanket and pillow.

"It must be you who put the blanket and pillow while I was sleeping, right Kaito?" He kind of ascertained than questioned. I nodded my head and smile. "Yes. Is there anything wrong with that?" I tried to make sure that everything were fine with that. Akaito smiled and took a spoon of spicy curry. It was his favorite. "Nope! Just wanna thank you, cause I know these two will not do it." Oh, okay… Please do not start an argument with such provoke, Akaito… You know that Kaiko is so sensitive with your words.

"You know what, Akaito…You are very lucky cause Kaito here… or you'll just perfectly death!" Kaiko said that rude thing. I complained at her right away. "Kaiko…It's…" "You always put guard on him, Kaito! I understand you're being kind, but if you keeping like that, Akaito won't be grown up!" Kaiko promptly cut my defense. She might be right, I was spoiling Akaito too much, I always protected him, I always gave what he wanted all these time. I cannot take it, I merely want to make Akaito happy. I always felt so sad with what afflicted him. Maybe I am the reason that makes Akaito being undisciplined.

"Kaiko please… Give him a chance…Please…Akaito has tried his best effort. It's just he's not been lucky yet." I defended him once again and Kaiko finally took breath out.

"Whatever Kaito… You'll never changed…"

"I guess I better eat in my room…" Taito pick his meal up and straightly to the stairs. I simply took a breath for his respond. Always like that… While Akaito, I catched his glimpse and he seems fine. Oh Thank God… He appeared adapted with that.

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A very cold night… I cannot sleep. I was thinking about Akaito. Why do I really heart him? It's unusual feeling cause I just cannot keep him away from my mind. He's extremely troubled, but I was not able to put a real emotion to him. Sigh…

I found someone peeked in my room, who was that? I wondered. I automatically off from bed and checked who's actually out there. I opened the door and Akaito was fell down to the floor, being hit by my door. Oh I am so sorry, Akaito! I went very panic and helped his out—asked him if he okay. "I am so sorry, Akaito!" It's sounded very awkward and silly. Akaito hurriedly got up from the floor and responded me.

"Nah, it's okay. Just hurt a bit." He's giggled, tried to hide his pain from me.

"I am sorry…" I said miserably.

"Why, it's no problem." He still kidding me with his laugh. I bowed down, looked so worry on him. Akaito noticed my anxiety, he then continued with explanation. "Sorry, I was peeping you. I just can't sleep alone tonight. I need accompany." I headed my face on him and widened my eyes then smiled with eyes close. "You want to sleep together with me?"

"Well, of course! If it's not bothering you." He chuckled.

"Of course it's not! Let's come in!" I held his hand just like I always did when he's 5. I was so happy that Akaito needed friend tonight, because I felt lonely honestly.

So here we are! Sharing bed together though it's a small bed. I just had no idea, why I felt so happy he was right on beside me. He already closed his eyes and I just cannot stand to watched him sleeping. He's very cute and looks so childish. I love him—a lot remind me when he was kid. He always cried if I didn't hug him when sleeping, he always asked to be sing lullaby. He's so spoiled but I love it. I love when he's begging me to read him fairy tales. Can you imagine how sweet it is? I wanted to rewind those days. But I did happy tonight! Suddenly, Akaito embrace me so tight when I was watching him. I kind of startled and awkward. What is this feeling?! It's so much different than I feel for my Zeito. It's just, I cannot took it, I feel so insane and I want my own brother.

No, Kaito…! You already abnormal, don't make yourself even crazier with fall in love with your own sibling!

It's much different than I usually felt seriously… I wanted Akaito not as my brother, but as my lover. I seriously don't know what to do. His arms just so warm and I can feel the heat on my body as the sign of passion to him. I feel so strange. It's my desire… A lustful desire cause I did want to make love with him… Oh no, Kaito… Don't betray your feelings to Zeito. Moreover, Akaito is your brother! How can you…Ah.. I cannot take it, I am too much loving Akaito and now I must take this consequence that I seriously fall in love with him.

What should I do?! I just cannot take it… I fall in love with my youngest brother…><"

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AKAITO proverb:
I was peeping Kaito's room from outside. He was sleeping so soundless like a baby. I knew it very well that Kaito's really tired today. A very damned day where I got dropped out from school and Taito was just laughing at me while Kaiko; she of course blamed me for everything—she said I am such a useless person who certainly weighted this family. I am such a disgrace… but who cares anyway? If she want to leave me, just do it because I know—though I can notice how desperate Kaito is—taking care of me—I just know that he will not leave me. Kaito is my bestest family, my brother—my parent—moreover my lover (Though he's not consider me as his lover). Kaito is actually the only I truly love with all my heart… Well, of course I did have girlfriends before, even so many of them. I was a playboy who love to play with girls. I dated them, told them "I love you" and I ever had sex before. I know…I am such an asshole… If Kaito find out about this, he will kill me I guess. No… I didn't think so on the other side. The one who will kill me is definitely Kaiko. In addition Kaito is such lovely person who will defend me from anything no matter how terrible myself, like just he did before. When Kaiko abused me, intimidated me; Kaito was the only one who backed me up at the same time, Taito only smirked and laughed hard for what I did today. He did nothing except that! Cruel Taito… Well, who cares anyway…?

Okay, back to the moment. Kaito was sleeping as I said. He covered his body with blanket and tonight really was so cold. Without an air conditioner, I already felt the cold air pierced into my boned. I felt freezing inside and I only wore T-shirt with shorts. I guessed I would like to snap into his room, it's too cold here. Finally, I really entered his room slowly without making any sound. Kaito still slept peacefully on his bed. I watched him closely; he was so exhausted—his breathe kind of unstable, but he seemed enjoy the dream. Was he really dreaming? I hope he dreamt about me. Ahaha…

"Hey, Kaito…" I was talking to him with low volume cause I didn't want to wake him. "I am so sorry for what I did to you all these time—I am such a disgrace and worthless. You always do a very good job for this family as the oldest Shion—as my brother—mother—father—okay, everything on me. And I think you make me sick, brother because I fall in love with you seriously. I love you more than just a brother or family, I love you as my precious lover like Romeo who adore his Juliette. I guess you pretty enough to be…No… you are so beautiful to be my own Juliette. Your charm has possessed me in. Will you be my lover?" I stopped talking. It was very stupid, but I just wanted to say it secretly. I touched his hand and grabbed it close. It's so warm and gentle, I love it. I moved closer to him and kissed his lips serenely for a second and Kaito felt uneasy, so I supposed to get away a bit. After that, I went outside his room and skip the corridor towards my room. It's a very messy room with so many porn magazines on the floor, my pants and so many other things that Kaito always cleaned up everyday. He never get tired to clean up my room, he's the only one who want to do that. My lovely brother…No, he's my lovely girl…

I lay down on my bed and looked up the ceiling—imagined about my own blue brother. His lips was so cute and I can feel the sweetness boiled up inside. Even just for a while, it was the most amazing kiss I ever did. You must be believe I already kiss so many women, eh? But you'll never know that none of them can satisfied me. It's just playing around. Other than, what I did with Kaito though just for a second, it's unforgettable. I have no idea why I did that. I only thought, I was driven insane by him. Kaito is my brother—I know that for the God sake! But I cannot stand this feeling, I really in love with him! I hope I can meet him in my dream tonight—meet him and having fun together on the bed—I mean having sex… I seriously wanna do that with Kaito. I wanna screw him so bad and I just want him to suspect what I perfectly feel. I want Kaito receive this irregular love.

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"Hey, where am I? What's tighten my hands, it feels so hurt…"

Whoa! What?! Where the hell am I?! I don't know this dark, strange and creepy place! And my hands have been tied up by something mystical. Oh God, are you kidding me?! What is going on here?! Why can I be here? Somebody please answer me!

I've been tied up on the dark place where I cannot see the light, I only saw a mysterious aura around me. Is this a dream or what?! I screamed out, calling for someone but there was no answer. I tried to yell out once again and the result was same. As the final point, I attempted to calm down myself and looked for something, though it's useless. The spinning magical atmosphere just won't disappear, it's making me dizzy and scare. I needed someone to let me out from this insanity! Oh God, please help me! Is this some kind of punishment from you because I always be bastard in this world? God, pelase… I think you're the only one who can help me right now cause there's no Kaito around here. He always be my savior, my guardian angel, but he's not present here…God.. Please, just give me a clue how can I get out from here!

As the time moved on, I was still frozen in this unknown dimension. I heard a clap and step which they were closer and closer. It's Kaito! Oh Thank God, you've sent my guardian angel! Hell, no! He's with somebody else held him from behind, stroke his body with his hands and put it inside the white coat—means that he's touching Kaito's body! Who the hell is that guy?! He's wearing a long coat, a black evil scarf and creepy mask on his head.

"Akaito…" Kaito said miserably—sounds moan a bit at time the mysterious guy grabbed his body and hug it tight.

"Kaito?! What are you doing here?! Who's that guy?" I shouted at him quickly.

Kaito closed his eyes and bore the madness of the hands that touching him—seduced him actually. He's groaning once in a while and held the screamed out. Of course, that guy tried to rape my brother! I cannot stand it, I screamed with anger at once. "Who are you evil?! Stop touching Kaito!"

"What?! Are you jealous with what I've done to your brother? I know, Akaito you always want to rape him, right? You desire him for long to be your sex slave, right?!" He's out of dignity laugh so loud and I was shocking out with what he's said. Sex slave is too rude and harsh! I only want to make in love with Kaito, not making him as my sex slave!

"You bastard! Just leave Kaito alone! Leave us alone!" I screamed out with anger again though it's not working at all.

"Akaito…" Kaito shed a tears so sudden, but his face was very unpredictable. It's kind of having orgasm and he seems enjoy it. "Ah…Kageito-sama..not there…" So his name is Kageito?! Fuck you! Stop raping Kaito!

Kageito started freaking me out. He's holding Kaito's manhood and unzipped his coat. He stroke the blue Shion's torso with a tuneful rhythm and squeezed Kaito's pink nipples. Damn! I always want to do that. Then, he sucked it and tongued it playfully—made Kaito's moaned even harder. His body was very quivering and sweated as Kageito dance his clapper into Kaito's upper. Kaito didn't open his eyes. He's too embarrassed and too ecstatic until he found himself was being laid down by Kageito. That evil guy moved so fast to took off Kaito's pants and gripped the blue's manhood. He started to rubbed it slightly while Kaito whimpered in lowly. "Kageito-sama….Please more…!" He's begging for more?! Fuck me! I cannot believe with this scenery! It's all bullshit and Kaito will not get pleasure in pain. I know this was a dream! Somebody, wake up! Please! Somebody, I cannot endured this madness with seeing a lunatic named; Kageito screwed my beloved Kaito!

Somebody please….! Wake me up!

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That's really a dream… and what did I get? A figure of Kaito right beside my bed wore a white shirt with one button off on upper and share a very gentle smile on his face. He greeted me softly. "Good morning, Akaito." *eyes close plus a cutie smile* I was shocking out, I casted a terrifying ray in my eyes. Thank God, it's just my real beloved Kaito.

"Akaito? What happen? Did you just have bad dream?" His eyes were opened after a sweet smile. They were filled by anxiety. Kaito was lay his hands on my shoulder as my breathed still up and down. He hugged me so close and I felt his warmness touch my heart. "It's okay, I am here with you." My hands tried to reach his back, but I was too shocked out, and my body felt so heavy like a stone. I just kept quiet when Kaito cooled me down. I really conceived myself like sister, not brother. He treated me like Kaiko, but it's actually how Kaito used to treat his own siblings. Everyone in this house was treated the same for the fact, it's just I sometimes sense that I am so special cause Kaito never ever let me down from Kaiko's assault. Some minutes has passed, Kaito still drawn my head on his shoulder and he's asking me. "Do you feel better, Akaito?" I release the embrace. "I do. Thanks, Kaito. Whew, that's very horrible dream…" I exhaled so freely. "Thank God, I have you here." I smiled.

"What kind of dream anyway? Will you tell me?" His eyes turned very innocent and full of curiosity of child.

"Umm… I was being tied up and the a very terrible monster attack you so horrific. I cannot tell…" I sighed again, and of course that's lie. How can I tell that he was raped by someone's mysterious which I cannot remember his name. I really was in headache, I forgot some moments in there. It's fragmented memories.

"Sigh..Akaito…It's okay.. Maybe you too much watching horror movie." Kaito giggled softly.

Aa… Hey, Kaito… A monster must not be shaped as monster like a giant, Frankenstein, Yetti or many more. It could be a human form either. I also might be a monster, you know. Huh...Well, I guess Kaito simply consider it as children's nightmare and I was not much watching horror movie; a porn movie; yes! That's what I often watched.

KAITO Proverb:
I was washing the dishes on the kitchen after I woke Akaito's up. He's always late—everyday woke up so late but I already ran out of idea to persuade him to be diligent and ambitious to face the day. Maybe later for gave him more advices. I need to ignore what's previously happened to Akaito. Being dropped out by school, it's just so awful I can say. But I have to let the past flow and stand up for the future. Akaito will be a success person, I must believe it. Akaito suddenly poked me from behind and gave the dirty plate after he finished his breakfast. Whoa, that's an improvement because he usually put the dirty plate on the table and I must took it by myself, LOL.

"There you go…" He said casually like nothing wonderful happen. I was smiling at him and beaming a very bright happiness from my eyes. Maybe Akaito want to learn to be good as I always pray to God every night. It's all because of God either, he could change though slightly, but I am very happy for it. Akaito was staring at me strangely. Of course he threw that kind of sight, as my happiness was overloaded. He's asking me directly. "What's wrong? You look very happy today, I just got dropped out and nightmare…" He sounds more protested than asking.

I again smiled at him. "I am sorry, I am just happy that you brought this dirty plate to me like Kaiko did at all times." Akaito's face turned irritated. I knew it so well that he hated to be equalized with his enemy which is Kaiko. "Is that all?!" I've been awkward, but I still controlled myself with patience to reply him. "Please, don't be mad, Akaito. I thought it's an improvement to you." Akaito didn't unmoved with what I said. He's turned his face away and back to the dining room. Before that, he said something firstly. "Don't force me to get new school, I am tired of school. Perhaps, I better find a job than being at school." I showed my poker-face though Akaito didn't notice it since he immediately gone.

Oh dear, but you need to continue to school to get higher chance to find the job, but if it's his own will, possibly I should give him chance to try it. He sounds playful on his talking tone, but I sense seriousness within his heart.

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Oh a bright Sunday. I've just finished my works here—cleaning, cleaning and cleaning…Feel so exhausted and hot. I swiftly opened the refrigerator and took my favorite ice cream. Oh no, there's only one left…I must go to supermarket and buy ice cream as many I can take! I ate my last ice cream first then I'll buy it!

I saw Akaito was sleeping on the couch with a porn magazine on his face. Oh, okay, I didn't mind he's reading porn, he's normal actually, unlike me. He loves to see sexy naked girls while me…? I don't know why but I honestly love to see handsome men than hot chicks… okay, the main point is I am homosexual. I have boyfriend, he's so gorgeous, cool and a very quiet person who only talks if it's necessary, but I really love him—he also held the same feeling though it's hard to expect him. His name is Zeito and I never been boned with him even kissed by him, I was too shy to asked him and Zeito is not a romantic person. He's too cold and silent, but he always takes care of me kindly. He showed me that he eventually love me as his lover. I can figure it out how weird I am as homosexual guy, so many people laughed at me because of it. Even Kaiko sometimes protested and Taito laughed on me, I felt… Okay, I felt being abused and can you believe that the only one who understand my situation is Akaito? He never complained about my relation with Zeito or maybe he doesn't care at all. ><" Ah, just forget about it. The most important thing is he never disturbed my relation with some offense and abuse. I thought it will be polite if you're not bothering someone abnormal with such mockeries. You better keep quiet and respect them with silence.

Back to the moment. I took the porn magazine from Akaito's face and put it on his room on upper floor then brought him blanket and pillow so he felt more comfortable. In fact this moment was my favorite, because Akaito was so adorable when he slept (he always adorable though, I mean he's so baby when he slept). I kissed his forehead and rubbed his hair. He's really a baby… and he always be my baby. I don't care if he's done so much mistakes before, he just need more love and tenderness. I really love you, Akaito even since you're born, I already put my heart for you as my brother (I remember when he's a pure baby, he grabbed my forefinger so tight and won't free it for long…That's so cute…^^) and now you're much like my own child—my own son.

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It's already late evening, Akaito just woke up and got surprised with the blanket and pillow. I was on the kitchen, preparing dinner—I heard him asking Taito about the blanket and pillow, but Taito said he knew nothing. I was giggled tunefully and enjoy the cook. Akaito was so funny when he's puzzled, it made him looks so innocent. After the dinner ready, we were on the dining room together about enjoy the dinner. Akaito still questioned me about the blanket and pillow.

"It must be you who put the blanket and pillow while I was sleeping, right Kaito?" He kind of ascertained than questioned. I nodded my head and smile. "Yes. Is there anything wrong with that?" I tried to make sure that everything were fine with that. Akaito smiled and took a spoon of spicy curry. It was his favorite. "Nope! Just wanna thank you, cause I know these two will not do it." Oh, okay… Please do not start an argument with such provoke, Akaito… You know that Kaiko is so sensitive with your words.

"You know what, Akaito…You are very lucky cause Kaito here… or you'll just perfectly death!" Kaiko said that rude thing. I complained at her right away. "Kaiko…It's…" "You always put guard on him, Kaito! I understand you're being kind, but if you keeping like that, Akaito won't be grown up!" Kaiko promptly cut my defense. She might be right, I was spoiling Akaito too much, I always protected him, I always gave what he wanted all these time. I cannot take it, I merely want to make Akaito happy. I always felt so sad with what afflicted him. Maybe I am the reason that makes Akaito being undisciplined.

"Kaiko please… Give him a chance…Please…Akaito has tried his best effort. It's just he's not been lucky yet." I defended him once again and Kaiko finally took breath out.

"Whatever Kaito… You'll never changed…"

"I guess I better eat in my room…" Taito pick his meal up and straightly to the stairs. I simply took a breath for his respond. Always like that… While Akaito, I catched his glimpse and he seems fine. Oh Thank God… He appeared adapted with that.

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A very cold night… I cannot sleep. I was thinking about Akaito. Why do I really heart him? It's unusual feeling cause I just cannot keep him away from my mind. He's extremely troubled, but I was not able to put a real emotion to him. Sigh…

I found someone peeked in my room, who was that? I wondered. I automatically off from bed and checked who's actually out there. I opened the door and Akaito was fell down to the floor, being hit by my door. Oh I am so sorry, Akaito! I went very panic and helped his out—asked him if he okay. "I am so sorry, Akaito!" It's sounded very awkward and silly. Akaito hurriedly got up from the floor and responded me.

"Nah, it's okay. Just hurt a bit." He's giggled, tried to hide his pain from me.

"I am sorry…" I said miserably.

"Why, it's no problem." He still kidding me with his laugh. I bowed down, looked so worry on him. Akaito noticed my anxiety, he then continued with explanation. "Sorry, I was peeping you. I just can't sleep alone tonight. I need accompany." I headed my face on him and widened my eyes then smiled with eyes close. "You want to sleep together with me?"

"Well, of course! If it's not bothering you." He chuckled.

"Of course it's not! Let's come in!" I held his hand just like I always did when he's 5. I was so happy that Akaito needed friend tonight, because I felt lonely honestly.

So here we are! Sharing bed together though it's a small bed. I just had no idea, why I felt so happy he was right on beside me. He already closed his eyes and I just cannot stand to watched him sleeping. He's very cute and looks so childish. I love him—a lot remind me when he was kid. He always cried if I didn't hug him when sleeping, he always asked to be sing lullaby. He's so spoiled but I love it. I love when he's begging me to read him fairy tales. Can you imagine how sweet it is? I wanted to rewind those days. But I did happy tonight! Suddenly, Akaito embrace me so tight when I was watching him. I kind of startled and awkward. What is this feeling?! It's so much different than I feel for my Zeito. It's just, I cannot took it, I feel so insane and I want my own brother.

No, Kaito…! You already abnormal, don't make yourself even crazier with fall in love with your own sibling!

It's much different than I usually felt seriously… I wanted Akaito not as my brother, but as my lover. I seriously don't know what to do. His arms just so warm and I can feel the heat on my body as the sign of passion to him. I feel so strange. It's my desire… A lustful desire cause I did want to make love with him… Oh no, Kaito… Don't betray your feelings to Zeito. Moreover, Akaito is your brother! How can you…Ah.. I cannot take it, I am too much loving Akaito and now I must take this consequence that I seriously fall in love with him.

What should I do?! I just cannot take it… I fall in love with my youngest brother…><"