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I'm just gonna get to the point here... Why am I making this vent? Because I've been undergoing quite a lot of stress and anxiety right now, and I wanted to tell you guys about it.

So lately a lot of my friends have just suddenly left DA and it's made me super worried like they're not coming back... Lots of people remind me that they're coming back eventually but, I'm not so sure...

Then there's my social anxiety that's been such a butt lately and I'm just so much more shy these days that I barely want to talk to people anymore other than my close friends. Just last month I had to record a speech and then messed up and accidentally posted it in a chat that we opened every day and I had a mental breakdown about it...

And not many of you know this, but I have a constant urge to please people. I really, really want people to think well of me. A little too well. Sometimes I do really well, and then sometimes I mess up like the speech thing. There's also these two parts of my brain that's like, "Hey you need to stop caring about what people think of you because you're gonna be you and not let people shape you." Then there's the other 95% of my brain that's like, "Hey don't listen to the 5% of your brain and stay up until 1:00 in the morning making art that you mostly throw away because you think people won't like it and then play pokemon platinum because the people need content. Also sleep is underrated." And that's the part of my brain I mostly listen to. I can't even remember the last time I slept for more than 7 hours or so...
And I also brought up the fact that people shape me a lot... And yeah. I really want to fit in because I think people would hate me for the opinions that I have, so I just go with other people. And that's the end of my first, and hopefully last vent.

Description
I'm just gonna get to the point here... Why am I making this vent? Because I've been undergoing quite a lot of stress and anxiety right now, and I wanted to tell you guys about it.

So lately a lot of my friends have just suddenly left DA and it's made me super worried like they're not coming back... Lots of people remind me that they're coming back eventually but, I'm not so sure...

Then there's my social anxiety that's been such a butt lately and I'm just so much more shy these days that I barely want to talk to people anymore other than my close friends. Just last month I had to record a speech and then messed up and accidentally posted it in a chat that we opened every day and I had a mental breakdown about it...

And not many of you know this, but I have a constant urge to please people. I really, really want people to think well of me. A little too well. Sometimes I do really well, and then sometimes I mess up like the speech thing. There's also these two parts of my brain that's like, "Hey you need to stop caring about what people think of you because you're gonna be you and not let people shape you." Then there's the other 95% of my brain that's like, "Hey don't listen to the 5% of your brain and stay up until 1:00 in the morning making art that you mostly throw away because you think people won't like it and then play pokemon platinum because the people need content. Also sleep is underrated." And that's the part of my brain I mostly listen to. I can't even remember the last time I slept for more than 7 hours or so...
And I also brought up the fact that people shape me a lot... And yeah. I really want to fit in because I think people would hate me for the opinions that I have, so I just go with other people. And that's the end of my first, and hopefully last vent.