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Last night… Something bad happened and it was sadly my fault. I don’t want to dive deep into my mental issues but let’s just say last night I had a really big itch in my brain that had been itching for years. And last night I’d finally scratched it. And it had made me worse than before. I refuse to talk about what happened last night and the context behind it because the situation behind it is very personal.
BUT I WANT TO DISCLOSE, No I did not get physically hurt, but I did get extremely emotionally hurt which did physically hurt. When It happened my body sprained so badly and I couldn’t sleep at all last night when it happened. My heart thumped so fast I thought I was gonna die from an heart attack. It was some trauma I been dealing with for years and I tried to confront it last night. I ended up having more trauma than before. Ever since yesterday I decided to vent with Quickman again whose my genuine pig of trauma. And for anyone who already knows the reference, this will make the context behind this look very bad.
For those who don’t know the reference. This is reference off a vocaloid song called “Rotten Girl, Grotesque romance,” which is a song… about Hatsune Miku, whose extremely jealous of Luka for taking Kaito. Miku even stalked Kaito and even… killed Luka in the song. Since I said I drew this based off my trauma I want to clarify no I did not stalk anyone in real life, OR MURDERED ANYONE. But the reason why this song was chosen because it was the closest to my actual trauma without explicitly saying it. All this time I been using Quickman as a vent tool to reflect my actual situation. And yes I portrayed him as a psychopath which is hella bad. But I been using him to exaggerate my rage in my trauma.
I been using Quickman to express my grief and overprotectiveness over someone I really love in my life, yet that person I love keeps ended up with the wrong people which makes me lose touch of him. As bad this song may be, it was the closest to express my pain after witnessing someone I’ve loved for years get destroyed by other people. Then destroy who they are as a person. I still stay with them because I’m the only person they have right now who can help them, but they just… keep making the same mistake again. That’s where the details get too personal and I refuse to give further context.
But I prefer venting in a metaphorical sense using Quickman as a metaphor for my trauma… This entire time I been using Quickman as a metaphor. That means no I did not legitimately killed anyone over my crush. BUT… I AM… PISSED OFF…
Metaphorically like Quickman…. Quickman has been dealing with relationship issues with Megaman. Megaman has saved his life and wants to make him a better person… but quickman doesn’t want this because quickman “hates” megaman because he was programmed to. All Quickman cares about is “FIGHTING” megaman. But Megaman is vulnerable because he… also has relationship issues…. Quickman doesn’t want to “fight” megaman because of how vulnerable he is, and Quickman doesn’t like to fight the weak. So Quickman stayed with Megaman and actually wanted to help megaman back into his prime so he can “fight” him. But Megaman… has been “fighting” other people. And every “fight” megaman has, makes megaman worse than he is before. Quickman hates Megaman, but seeing him in this mess, Quickman feels bad. Now Quickman wants to stay with Megaman to fix him…. But megaman just keeps “fighting” and fighting… and Quickman is… jealous that other people get to “fight” megaman before him. And even worse, ruin him that way Quickman couldn’t have a proper “fight” with megaman… Now Quickman is stuck with Megaman because Megaman keeps getting worse… This lead to Quickman’s obsession with Megaman because he’s actually pretty overprotective of him. So many people ruined him and now he craves revenge. He hates how people just toss megaman like he’s nothing. He wants to “hurt” megaman, but in a more respectful manner. He genuinely cares about who Megaman is and doesn’t hate him for no reason. He respects megaman and only wants to fight him at his strongest. But poor Quickie had to witness other people do the very thing he wanted to do to Megaman. But they just do it with no consideration on who megaman is! THEY DON’T HATE MEGAMAN LIKE HE DOES!!! Now Quickman forever lives in Megaman’s house, taking care of Megaman, waiting for the day for Megaman to heal from his trauma… so he can finally “kill” him.
that’s the best explanation of my trauma without me explicitly saying it. I know it seems comedic and weird. But some trauma victims refuse to refer to their trauma as themselves and like to make up a character, or project onto a character for better explanation. If you get the metaphor, then you get the metaphor and I’m sorry if you get it. For those who don’t get it, it’s best to just believe it’s fictional.
Now that I gave you somewhat a hint to what happened. What am I gonna do about it… Well sadly… the same thing Quickman is doing… staying glued to Megaman… and… also about episode 7 of life cut short. Since Quickman is coming back and that episode is about “Love”… that episode is actually going to be… way darker than episode 6. Because Quickman is actually a metaphor for my actual trauma. Episode 6 was even hard to make because of the same trauma and I actually “itched” my trauma before… and that caused episode 6 to be delayed for a long time.
I’m sorry if this cause great worry to anyone. recovering from this situation is hard. But using Quickman as a metaphor for me has actually helped because It allows me to express what happened to me without saying so, and also help me find out… what I even traumatized about. It’s the same logic to why people use Traumacore.
And episode 7 is gonna be… way darker than episode 6. Due to being based off real trauma….

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Last night… Something bad happened and it was sadly my fault. I don’t want to dive deep into my mental issues but let’s just say last night I had a really big itch in my brain that had been itching for years. And last night I’d finally scratched it. And it had made me worse than before. I refuse to talk about what happened last night and the context behind it because the situation behind it is very personal.
BUT I WANT TO DISCLOSE, No I did not get physically hurt, but I did get extremely emotionally hurt which did physically hurt. When It happened my body sprained so badly and I couldn’t sleep at all last night when it happened. My heart thumped so fast I thought I was gonna die from an heart attack. It was some trauma I been dealing with for years and I tried to confront it last night. I ended up having more trauma than before. Ever since yesterday I decided to vent with Quickman again whose my genuine pig of trauma. And for anyone who already knows the reference, this will make the context behind this look very bad.
For those who don’t know the reference. This is reference off a vocaloid song called “Rotten Girl, Grotesque romance,” which is a song… about Hatsune Miku, whose extremely jealous of Luka for taking Kaito. Miku even stalked Kaito and even… killed Luka in the song. Since I said I drew this based off my trauma I want to clarify no I did not stalk anyone in real life, OR MURDERED ANYONE. But the reason why this song was chosen because it was the closest to my actual trauma without explicitly saying it. All this time I been using Quickman as a vent tool to reflect my actual situation. And yes I portrayed him as a psychopath which is hella bad. But I been using him to exaggerate my rage in my trauma.
I been using Quickman to express my grief and overprotectiveness over someone I really love in my life, yet that person I love keeps ended up with the wrong people which makes me lose touch of him. As bad this song may be, it was the closest to express my pain after witnessing someone I’ve loved for years get destroyed by other people. Then destroy who they are as a person. I still stay with them because I’m the only person they have right now who can help them, but they just… keep making the same mistake again. That’s where the details get too personal and I refuse to give further context.
But I prefer venting in a metaphorical sense using Quickman as a metaphor for my trauma… This entire time I been using Quickman as a metaphor. That means no I did not legitimately killed anyone over my crush. BUT… I AM… PISSED OFF…
Metaphorically like Quickman…. Quickman has been dealing with relationship issues with Megaman. Megaman has saved his life and wants to make him a better person… but quickman doesn’t want this because quickman “hates” megaman because he was programmed to. All Quickman cares about is “FIGHTING” megaman. But Megaman is vulnerable because he… also has relationship issues…. Quickman doesn’t want to “fight” megaman because of how vulnerable he is, and Quickman doesn’t like to fight the weak. So Quickman stayed with Megaman and actually wanted to help megaman back into his prime so he can “fight” him. But Megaman… has been “fighting” other people. And every “fight” megaman has, makes megaman worse than he is before. Quickman hates Megaman, but seeing him in this mess, Quickman feels bad. Now Quickman wants to stay with Megaman to fix him…. But megaman just keeps “fighting” and fighting… and Quickman is… jealous that other people get to “fight” megaman before him. And even worse, ruin him that way Quickman couldn’t have a proper “fight” with megaman… Now Quickman is stuck with Megaman because Megaman keeps getting worse… This lead to Quickman’s obsession with Megaman because he’s actually pretty overprotective of him. So many people ruined him and now he craves revenge. He hates how people just toss megaman like he’s nothing. He wants to “hurt” megaman, but in a more respectful manner. He genuinely cares about who Megaman is and doesn’t hate him for no reason. He respects megaman and only wants to fight him at his strongest. But poor Quickie had to witness other people do the very thing he wanted to do to Megaman. But they just do it with no consideration on who megaman is! THEY DON’T HATE MEGAMAN LIKE HE DOES!!! Now Quickman forever lives in Megaman’s house, taking care of Megaman, waiting for the day for Megaman to heal from his trauma… so he can finally “kill” him.
that’s the best explanation of my trauma without me explicitly saying it. I know it seems comedic and weird. But some trauma victims refuse to refer to their trauma as themselves and like to make up a character, or project onto a character for better explanation. If you get the metaphor, then you get the metaphor and I’m sorry if you get it. For those who don’t get it, it’s best to just believe it’s fictional.
Now that I gave you somewhat a hint to what happened. What am I gonna do about it… Well sadly… the same thing Quickman is doing… staying glued to Megaman… and… also about episode 7 of life cut short. Since Quickman is coming back and that episode is about “Love”… that episode is actually going to be… way darker than episode 6. Because Quickman is actually a metaphor for my actual trauma. Episode 6 was even hard to make because of the same trauma and I actually “itched” my trauma before… and that caused episode 6 to be delayed for a long time.
I’m sorry if this cause great worry to anyone. recovering from this situation is hard. But using Quickman as a metaphor for me has actually helped because It allows me to express what happened to me without saying so, and also help me find out… what I even traumatized about. It’s the same logic to why people use Traumacore.
And episode 7 is gonna be… way darker than episode 6. Due to being based off real trauma….