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“Breakdown, I’ve seen you bring in a lot of meaningless scrap before but did you have to bring back Arachnid?!”

“You know I can still hear you,” Arachnid comments.

“It wasn’t my choice (C/N),” Breakdown explains, “I have to get her detached from me thanks to that magnetic relic. Also, I thought it would soften the blow on me for losing the relic to the Autobots.”

“By bringing that back to the ship?!”

“I could squash you fleshling,” she growls.

“And I could vaporize you with Megatron’s fusion cannon. Don’t test me pest.”

“I’ll show you ‘pest’!”

Arachnid tries to swing over and reach for me but Breakdown is able to steady himself and keep her away. I pull out my fusion pistol that I invented and point it straight at her helm.

“Try that again and I’ll blow your processors out, you got that spider?”

“When I’m released from this brute I’ll—”

“Meet your end,” I cut her off. “I still remember what you tried to do to me back in the mine. No matter what form I’m in, I’ll offline you.”

“Better keep your trap shut Arachnid,” Breakdown cut in. “She is deadly even as a fleshy.”

Entering the main bridge, Breakdown reveals that he did not bring back the relic, rather he brought back someone. Gritting my teeth I watch as Megatron actually decides that it’s good for her to re-enter our ranks.

“You can’t be serious!” I shout.

“She may be of some use to me. Now do not question my command (C/N).”

“Do I detect a traitor amongst you?” Arachnid smirks at me.

“The only traitor here is you!”

“Why you!”

She uses her weight to swing towards me and I dodge two of her feelers but the third one hits me in the head sending me to the ground.

“You’re scrap!” I aim at her helm. “Breakdown hold her still!”

“Hold your fire!” Megatron commands. “Breakdown, go see Knockout about getting you and Arachnid detached.”

“Y-yes Lord Megatron,” Breakdown nods reluctantly.

He leaves with a smirking Arachnid waving at me and I turn to glare at Megatron. Standing up I stomp my foot.

“You would trust that bug when she tried to kill me?!”

“I keep Starscream around when he’s tried to kill me multiple times.”

“That’s because his failure amuses you!”

“Hey, I’m standing right here!” Starscream shrieks.

“Please reconsider Megatron, this is not going to end well.”

“What part of ‘do not question my command’ did you not understand? You’ve been quite rebellious lately ever since you returned from MECH, more than usual. Why is that?”

“Stop avoiding the subject!”

Megatron stomps his pede just inches from my own foot, here we go again with another power struggle.

“Leave my sight this instant and I won’t start thinking about keeping you grounded to the ship any longer than you already have been.”

Oh, he knew where to push my buttons. I’ve been on the warship for weeks since the incident with MECH and any longer I will kill myself. Casting my gaze down I sigh in defeat.

“Fine, but don’t be surprised when she betrays you.”

I turn on my heel and glance over at Soundwave who did not hesitate to watch my every move. Rubbing my head I close my eyes for a moment.

“I’m going to go lie down,” I mumble.

“Is it your head again?” Starscream inquires.

“Really, you have to ask in front of him?”

“What’s that? You’ve been ill again?” Megatron questions. “Soundwave take her to the human doctors.”

“No! No more doctors,” I shake my head, “I’m just going to go lie down. I’ve done enough training today before Breakdown arrived.”

Walking away from the bridge I stumble slightly until I feel a servo catch me. Soundwave scoops me up off of the ground and holds me tight enough so I won’t fall.

“T-thanks.”

Soundwave nods while leaving the main bridge and takes me to my berthroom. Once we enter my berthroom Soundwave activates his holoform and he’s holding me bridal style in his arms. I lean my head against his chest while closing my eyes.

“Megatron is right, you have been getting more headaches lately. What’s wrong?”

“I don’t know, it’s strange.”

Soundwave sets me on the bed and places his cool hand against my forehead. I moan in relief relishing in the coolness that his hand is giving me.

“Please tell me what ails you. You have not been the same since you’ve returned; you seem more questionable towards Megatron.
It worries me.”

“It’s just…something happened before I was taken by MECH.”

“Please tell me.”

“P…” I look up at him, “please say that you won’t tell Megatron.”

Soundwave leans over to place his lips against mine and I gently I kiss back. He brought his hand down to my cheek caressing it softly.

“If you tell me, I won’t tell Megatron.”

Sighing heavily I move to sit up and face Soundwave regardless of my head pounding.

“Before I was captured by MECH, I was actually shot down by them first. The Autobots took me to their base and healed me.”

“Autobots…healed you?” he raises a brow.

“Yeah, and they knew who I was but I escaped only to be caught by Optimus Prime. He was going to let me go because he said that I was the future and maybe I would end this war between the Autobots and Decepticons.”

“Is that what you’re going to do? Overrun Megatron and make a truce.”

“No…I don’t know Soundwave, that wasn’t really the part that bothered me the most.”

I hang my head and start fiddling with my fingers. I was nervous, I didn’t know that this was going to be hard for me. I’ve never let something like this cloud me, but somehow this bothers me. Soundwave’s hand covers mine noticing my growing anxiety.

“I apologize, I did not mean to come off strongly.”

“No,” I shake my head. “You’re loyal to Megatron and I understand why you would question me especially since I didn’t even tell you about the first incident.”

“Go on.”

Sighing I continue, “Optimus agreed to take me back to the wreck hoping that maybe Starscream would find me, but on the way there he said…”

My head began pounding harder as if there was something trying to stir in my memory, but it would not come through; something is blocking it.

“He said ‘I’m sure your creators will be happy to have you back.’ I told him that my carrier was lost on Cybertron as Megatron told me. Optimus questioned that as if he was under the impression that he knew my carrier was alive. It’s been bothering me because…because I don’t remember my carrier. I never realized until then that I have no memory of my carrier, or my childhood.”

“Is that something important to you?”

“I don’t know. Don’t you remember your creators, how you grew up, where you lived?”

“Unfortunately, I remember everything about my early beginning.”

“I just think it’s strange that Prime would mention that and I can’t even recall who it was and who it could possibly be. I know it has to be somebot that’s a seeker because I have, or had, wings. If they are still online maybe they can shed light on what happened to my memory or why I’m constantly getting migraines. Do you know who was my carrier?”

“Megatron was not forthcoming with his personal endeavors. When you were born, it was more of a shock to all Decepticons.”

“Why am I not surprised?” I groan. “But you’ve known him the longest, don’t you know of any possible bot he might have had affections for?”

“Affections?” he ponders.

“Yeah that was a long shot,” I chuckle, “Megatron and affection don’t go together.”

“I wouldn’t be so sure, there was a time when you were quite young and Megatron doted on you.”

“No way, I don’t believe that.”

“How do you know, you said you don’t remember.”

“Touché. I’m sorry, I don’t know why this is bothering me. Me not turning back to my original form should be what’s bothering me right now.”

“Healing should be your main priority, you still have lingering injuries that need to heal and you are not helping by training
vigorously with Starscream.”

“I’m not going to be blindsided again, I want to train hard and be strong enough to fight off any person from MECH or any Autobot.”

“Leave them to me, I don’t want you getting hurt again. It…it was quite difficult to see you in such a state.”

Soundwave increases his grip on my hand slightly, not enough to hurt only enough to let me know of his displeasure. Leaning closer to him I rest my head against his shoulder waiting for him to accept an embrace; he is slowly getting used to being more affectionate to the point now that he does sleep next to me on occasion.

“You haven’t told me about how you’ve been feeling since you found me.”

“Soundwave is superior, I do not see need of expressing my concerns. Only knowing that you are safe and well is all that matters.”

“I’m fine for the moment, but I won’t be as long as that piece of scrap Arachnid is on this vessel. I can’t believe that Megatron is trusting her.”

“He does not trust her, rather he wants to use her abilities for a brief time.”

“In which time she’ll find a way to either kill a few of us or try to pull a Starscream.”

Soundwave pauses for a moment before he reaches down to caress my cheek then tilt my face up and kisses me with vigor. Responding to him I wrap my arms around his neck and kiss him back as he pushes me down towards the bed. Soundwave towers over me while his hands run down my sides exciting me to where I began tugging at his jacket to take it off. As I nearly had it off, Soundwave pulls away.

“I-I’m sorry,” I breathe. “I shouldn’t have—”

“No,” he shook his head. “There is something I must do. Don’t worry, I would be more than happy to do this with you but you are not well.”

“No you’re right, I wanted to distract myself from the pain and everything going on. I shouldn’t have tried to do something; but I can’t help it, you’re kisses make me feel better.”

“Please rest, I will return soon.”

“You going to take care of me? When did you become a medic?”

Soundwave leans over me and gives my head a light kiss where my migraine is.

“Since Knockout lacks in not letting things happen to you, I have to make sure there’s someone who can take care of you.”

“My hero,” I smile softly while burying my face in the pillow.

Soundwave’s POV

That was close, not that I don’t want to interface with (C/N), but it’s not the right moment. I can’t even properly interface with her in her pede form, making me question whether I should turn myself into a human along with her. As much as I could not stand the inferior species, (C/N) is more important to me at this time. Strange how I’ve never felt cared about another spark until I became aware of (C/N) more as a femme and a warrior.

“Soundwave!”

Turning around I face Starscream who wears a scowl on his face.

“Again you are in (C/N)’s berthroom? What are your intentions? Truly, I’ve seen the way you look at her, but I want to know what you are planning on doing?”

“Inquiry: Why is Second in Command concerned?” I use my algorithms to communicate.

“I’m concerned because there is a communications officer not being at his post and sneaking into our Master’s daughter’s room!”

“Repeat: Explain concerns?”

“The only concern is that there is a mech trying to spark our future leader!”

Why is Starscream always so protective of (C/N)? It’s strange because he shows no signs of mating interest as Knockout had. I believe I recall that Starscream had a role in guiding (C/N) as she grew up as a seeker amongst his trine. He was quite close to her while Megatron showed no parental interest.

“Starscream’s concern: irrelevant. Soundwave: returning to duties.”

I turn away from Starscream and make my way back to the main bridge while he continues to spout of nonsense that I tune out.

(C/N)’s POV

“What is the deal with that mech? Constantly in (C/N)’s presence, it makes me sick!”

Grinding his dentas Starscream glances over to (C/N)’s door to her berthroom feeling the need to address this situation now. Walking over he knocks on the door.

“(C/N), I wish to speak with you.”

A faint okay is his response then he enters the room to spot me lying on my side on the bed. Approaching closely his optics scan over my exhausted form while I look at him through half lidded eyes as he kneels to be at eye level with me.

“You look like you need to see a wretched human doctor.”

“And you look like you’re ready to blow a gasket.”

“I want the truth (C/N).”

“Yeah, join the club Screamer,” I groan while rubbing my head.

Starscream reaches out with his talon and lightly rubs my temple. I lean into the coolness of his digit relishing in the small relief from this migraine.

“Why does being a human have to hurt so much?”

“Your migraines are getting worse, is there any other side effects from this?”

“Not really, I wish I could just sleep it off. I mean,” I run a hand over the right side of my head. “I noticed that I have scarring here and I don’t know what it’s from. Did…did I ever have a helm-injury? I don’t remember ever being hurt.”

Starscream’s expression turns from angry to worrisome. He moves his talon slightly to get a closer look at the scar on my head and there was something in his gaze that made me curious.

“Starscream?”

He shakes his helm, “Apologies, I seem to have gotten lost in thought. You have no recollection of any kind of injury you might have sustained?”

“No,” I shake my head.

“Do you…do you remember Cybertron?”

Taking his words into consideration I try to recall anything from the time I was a sparkling. The strange thing is I don’t remember anything from before I was an adolescent and I never realized it until now. I don’t even remember Cybertron, only being on the Nemesis.

“You don’t remember do you?”

Again I shake my head then feel myself pout, “What happened to me?”

“I’m not sure I’m the one who should tell you. Even you have said before that you can’t trust me.”

“Starscream please,” I latch onto his digit. “Tell me what happened, tell me why I can’t remember anything. You were always there for me, even when I’m being difficult, it was always you who knew how to take care of me. Especially being the only other seeker around.”

Starscream gives me a comforting stare before he nods his head.

“(C/N), many years ago back on Cybertron we were fighting the last battle for power. The battle was long, and grueling. Both sides lost countless sparks but as Megatron pushed forward he fell into an Autobot ambush and was about to be dealt the final blow but you had seen the oncoming attack. Instead of obeying orders, which come as no surprise, you refused to stay onboard the Nemesis and jumped in front of Megatron. Unfortunately, the right side of your helm was caved in damaging your processor severely.”

I pause for a moment trying to recall the battle he speaks of. No matter what I get nothing! I hadn’t realized how much it hurt to not know what happened to me, no know anything about my past. Involuntarily I scratch into the scarring on my head as if stimulation would make me remember.

“(C/N) stop that! You might hurt yourself more!”

He tries to move my hand away from my head but I shake away from his grasp.

“Is that why I can’t remember my carrier?”

“Y-you’re carrier?” Starscream gasps. “(C/N) look at me, and stop scratching your head! Honestly, you’re as stubborn as your sire!”

“Who…who was my carrier Starscream?”

“(C/N) don’t ask me that—”

“Who was it?! Are they even still alive? I deserve to know!”

“Why is this so important now? You’ve never asked about your carrier before, what good would it do for you with this knowledge?”

“Maybe my carrier knows what’s wrong with me! Maybe it’s not just the injury there could be something else wrong with me blocking me from recalling any memory. I know Megatron won’t tell me the truth, but you will. If it’s important you won’t lie to me, I know you.”

“Listen to me,” his helm comes closer so we are at eye level. “You’re carrier was lost on Cybertron and from your memory, but know this; your carrier loved you very much and did everything in their power to protect you. Even entrusting you to me knowing Megatron would not know how to act as a sire.”

I scoff slightly while wiping away the tears that refused to stop falling.

“I know I’ve not had the best track record with the Decepticons, but I will always look out for you. Even when you drive me crazy.”

“Yeah you know what, I’m sorry. I’m being a basket case.”

“Primus knows I’m a constant basket case.”

“Haha, that is true. There’s just so much going on, and I want to be myself again, especially since Arachnid is on this vessel.”

“Ugh don’t mention that wretched insect,” Starscream rubs his helm. “Makes me want to purge. There can’t be another traitor on this vessel, it’s not safe.”

A flash of black dots goes across my vision and I see Starscream speaking with someone that looks like him but with blue accents. In Starscream’s servos he’s holding something small.

“There can’t be another traitor on this vessel, it’s not safe.”

“(C/N)!”

“Huh?”

I place a hand on the side of my head and shake it side to side to clear my mind.

“You…before…”

“What was that?”

“You—you said that before. Something about a traitor before.”

“Did you—remember something?”

“I saw you speaking with some mech, the mech looked like you.”

I look up at Starscream’s shocking gaze. His optics were wide with almost relief.

“What else did you see?” he ponders.

“The mech had blue markings where yours are red, and you were holding something small in your servo. But I couldn’t see anymore than that.”

Starscream blinks rapidly as if he’s trying to regain his composure.

“Starscream? What did I see?”

“Y-you saw a possible memory (C/N). I don’t know how a human’s memory works, but maybe in this organic form, you’re migraines are actually signs that your processor is healing.”

“You mean brain?”

“Whatever! Just get some rest.”

“I’m tired of resting!”

“Don’t back talk me, do as I say and rest yourself! We still have much work to do researching that relic to turn you back before Arachnid squashes you.”

I lie back against my pillow, “I’d like to see her try.”

Starscream gives me a ghost of a smile before he turns to leave my berthroom. Sinking into the pillow I close my eyes and try to focus on the distant memory I somehow remembered.

Soundwave’s POV

“She remembers!” Starscream exclaims while entering the bridge.

“What are you going on about now Starscream?” Megatron drawls.

“(C/N)’s remembering my Lord! I-I don’t know how but she just recalled a memory from before the accident.”

“How did you find this out?” Megatron faces him.

“She told me. She saw a memory of me speaking with Thundercracker! Maybe this sickness is restoring her memory, we must double our efforts to restore her then repair her processors!”

“Enough Starscream!”

“No! You said that you would—”

Megatron hoists Starscream up by his neck and squeezes.

“This was not to be discussed. Now go and work on your research, but never mention this again. Do you understand me?”

“M-Megatron…you slag—”

Megatron slams Starscream to the ground and retracts his servo.

“Don’t speak out of term with me Starscream! Now get out of my sight.”

A bit of energon leaks from Starscream’s lip and he wipes it away while growling. He pulls himself up then backs out of the main bridge.

“This isn’t over Megatron.”

There was a moment of silence as he left.

“Soundwave, how long is this mission you are going on?”

I hold up three digits in his direction.

“Fine, no more than that. I hope your lead will help end this predicament. Let (C/N) rest today and go tomorrow.”

Nodding my helm I download the information on a data pad then leave the main bridge as Arachnid enters.

(C/N)’s POV

I feel something warm against my back causing me to wake from my brief nap. I turn slightly to see Soundwave’s holoform embracing me from behind.

“Remember when you asked me to arrange for a vacation?”

“Mm-hm,” I nod tiredly.

He places a datapad on the other side of me to show me a weekend vacation package at some kind of beach.

“Are you serious?”

“Three days is not much, but it’s the best I can do. And there’s another reason we are going but—”

I turn over quickly and hug him tightly while placing a hasty kiss on his lips.

“I don’t care what’s the reason I’m just glad to get away from this ship! I’ve been cooped up in here for too long!”

“So, I’m assuming you’re impressed,” he smirks.

“More than impressed! You’re the best!”

He chuckles, “As I’ve said before—”

“Soundwave is superior, yes I know.” I cuddle into his chest. “Now let me sleep, I want to be ready for tomorrow.”

“As you wish,” he holds me tighter to him.