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Published: 2015-06-09 23:52:28 +0000 UTC; Views: 1885; Favourites: 45; Downloads: 0
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I know you've always loved meYou're proud of me
But that's not enough
And you should know it
Back when I was a little kid
New to the world
You were always so busy
Always so stressed
And I was just there
Trying my best to help
And to not get in the way
Used to deal with my own problems
Since I had no right to burden others
At elementary school
I always had the best grades
With minimal effort
So everything was fine to you
I was a perfect child
But I had no friends
I was always alone
I never shared my thoughts
I just wanted to go unnoticed
To be a ghost
I got to middle school
And my life went to Hell
Still no friends
Bullied all the time
By everyone around me
My grades went down
And so did my spirit
I just wanted everything to end
But I kept it all to myself
Not to worry you
High school came
And with it
I got my heart broken
The girl I was so passionate about
Was a bitch after all
And being rejected
Made me the laughing stalk once more
The pain was unbearable
I had to let it out
Suicidal became appealing
Next it was college
Still all alone
Always at my dark corner
Without a single friend
I resorted to self harm
so I could feel something
But my good grades returned
So there were no worries
Everything was fine
Or so it seemed
Eventually, I had to remove the mask
You know all of it now
The bullying, the suicidal thoughts, the cuts
And all the rest
And guess what?
I'm not even mad at you
Your mistakes turned into my skills
My pain became my catalist
And I know myself better than most people
So thank you for breaking me
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You have the right to do that, I guess.
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Only in that, they didn't break you.Β
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So many people go through stuff like this and don't say anything because they are afraid of getting in trouble or not getting the help they need. Β People need to stand up for each other not against each other. Β If they see bullying they should speak out and up about it because they don't know who else they may be helping.
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But sometimes we're just too scared to make a move.
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Β that's sad but they say what doesn't kill you make you stronger in your heart and soul
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Yeah, that's true
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Aww. That's sad. But you've gotten a lot stronger from your experiences.
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That's true. And I'm glad.
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You should be.
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I agree. Thanks
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I had an ok childhood until middle school...Β Β Then it was pretty
much the same for me there....Β Β
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Sorry for that bro...
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It's all in the past. π
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Yeah...
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I can relate, but in my case I became the opposite of what every1 thought I was to be. The rest of her (my mom) children that she took time w/turned out to be nothing 2 be proud of. As 4 me I finish high school went on 2 college & became a nurse. And now when she introduces me to people she knows they see how different I'm to her other children, and she wants 2 take credit 4 how well mannered & well educated I'm & I have 2 remind her that I am who I am because of me & the people who were there to help me when I needed it. Not because of her. I'm a mom & a grand-mom now &I'm proud that I'm nothing like her. So keep ur head up & remember that ur somebody because God don't make junk. God bless & stay bless! From BLESSEDBYMYGOD..Β Β
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I'm glad that you became such a good person. I think your mom did something most parents only dream about: she raised you to be a better person than she is. Keep that up, OK?
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Wow I'm sorry to hear you had it so bad, life sucks sometimes. And parents don't always know how to help and like yours are often too busy in there own lives to notice things. I hope you find good friends and live a full life
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You're right. I guess my parents are simple country folks and I came out complex...
But I have my online friends and my poetry. So I'll manage
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You mustn't blame yourself for how you are, none of us should be ashamed of who we are.
Just because we aren't the "norm" doesn't mean there is anything wrong with us.
But I am glad you feel dA helps so much.
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My thoughts exactly
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Good
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Sweetheart, you may not realise this, but this is my story too - almost exactly, rather uncannily. In my case I became physically ill, but I still think a lot of the roots of my problems lie in my childhood ... Recognising it all is half the battle and, I'd say in your case, you're already a winner, especially as you are still so young; so hold your head up high.
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I see how many people can relate to this. And it's plesant to hear these words from someone with more life experience than me. Thanks, my friend
Keep it up as well.
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You never get over your past, you just learn to live withΒ & accept it.Β Despite illness, I think (hope!) I ensured that my two sons had a lovely childhood, with no 'issues'. I may not have been an 'active' mother but I did lots of other things with them (reading, craft stuff etc. etc.) & they never went without. Now I'm older & look at life from a slightly different perspective, I wonder if that's what it's all about ... learning from your own experiences & trying to make it better for your own kids so that they become the person you should have been (they live on, remember.) I'm sure you'll get the chance to discover that for yourself one day (you'll meet someone & things will work out) ...
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If that's true, then I think you did a good job. Maybe not perfect but perfection is nothing but a dream.
And thanks. I hope someday I have the parenting experience
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That was just the best letter I've read so far keep alive man
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Thanks, man
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It's OK...
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Relatable in ways... The desire not to burden others, that's a killer.
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It is. And it ends up doing more harm than good, I'm afraid...
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Aww you poor guy
It hurts when you have only yourself to talk to
I did like the ending
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No need to feel sorry. Life kinda sucks sometimes but there are things worth living for
And thanks.
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Welcome
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I'd say the same. Going through this made us better people in the end.
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Indeed, that's my point here
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Holy shit, that's a good one! And you played with my emotions, too. The ending seemed optimistic and shit, but the last line kinda calmed me down. "Yeah, thanks, now go fuck yourself with a cactus til' it feels good", that's how it sounded to me
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Thanks a lot. But if I ever end up telling them to "go fuck yourself with a cactus til' it feels good", I'd say it in a more polite and dangerous way
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