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Published: 2005-10-13 00:17:27 +0000 UTC; Views: 159; Favourites: 0; Downloads: 3
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It's time to pray. it's what I need to say that has kept me crying all day. " Dear Lord, As she lays her head and sleeps, I pray you'll watch over her. When her times comes, take me instaed just leave her alone, let her lay in bed. Keep her safe, and let her rest, for she was my very best. She kept me happy, kept me saine, and now she's gone, and it's me I blame. Can you watch her heart, soul, and mind, and please don't let her make the mistake I did, don't let her go blind. I sacrifice my mind, heart, and soul, for when it comes to her, it's what I owe. She did everything for me, she did it to her best, and I treated her like " no big deal ", I treated her like the rest. I used to not be a believer in you as you know, but people says it will help, so does my love show? You took her away from me, I guess it was your plan, but why did you make me a jeirk, why couldn't I just be a man? I lost her now, it's the end, but I hope you will make it to where we are atleast friends. It will hurt like a knife, but I honestly don't want her out of my life. Take anything you need from me, just please keep her safe. and let her know I'm here waiting. Make her life great, because it is what she deserves, help her fly away, fly away like the birds, since I cound't. And will you please let her know I love her? Amen" I lift my head " Now I wish I could be dead,"
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Hmm. Perhaps God is not your answer. Perhaps its a few days out of the keg and couple from the joint. Common sense should have said that *she was feeling restless, at a dead end and slightly stand-offish. I'm not saying you're stupid, nor am I saying you're blind. It's the depressants that do it to ya'. Trust me, I know.
If I had been sober when Joshboy told me he loved me and never wanted to see the light of day if I wasn't standing in the sun, then I probably wouldn't have been so possesive and then over-obsessed to the point where he finally just said 'fuck it' and left me cold. So yeah. Then again, if it wasn't for the drugs, I'd never be able to cope with the outcome of the situation and the other shit that makes me unhappy. Shit-I'm drinking right now, and it's my fucking birthday. (Well, it's a happy drinking time, so it doesn't count-lol)
But on a more serious note, I'm sorry that you and *her aren't together anymore, but it was *her choice to make, and I respect what a person does if they have a valid reason. She gave me one, in my opinion, and that ends the issue on my behalf.
Life is a bitch, and then you really DO kick the bucket-but life's little pleasures can't last forever....
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You probably wont tell me, but what was her reason? All she told me was she needed space and time? Amber please help, this hurts so much. I miss her, and will do anything to get her back. Anything that will not harm, or upset her. Please Amber, I'm begging, help me...
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It's not that I will not tell you, its that I don't have her exact reasons. Vaque answers are sufficient to me, and her reasoning behind it was that she needed time to find someone she considered 'worth her time and effort.' These are NOT her exact words, only my interpretation of them.
From the rumours and gossip I pick up from eavesdropping, you aren't an innocent victim, though. I hear you hacked into several accounts/sites of hers and wreaked some havoc upon them. I also hear that you found a few ways to fuck up her already brother-damaged reputation. This is what I hear-truth be told, I've heard nothing from the horse's mouth.
I know you miss her. I miss Joshboy, and it STILL feels like I'm missing a limb because he left me. I KNOW what it feels like, and all I can say is DO NOT think about it. Do ANYTHING but dwell on the matter-it only makes it that much worse for you later.
Other than these words, I have no other ways to ease your troubled mind. As I always say, I just work here.
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Amber, I have never lied to you before, and I wont start now. I have never really messed up any of her accounts. And can you please tell me if she is goin out with anyone? just wantting to know
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Rumour is rumour. I don't say I listen, I just remember for future reference.
As far as I know, she has her eyes set on Robbie, though whether they are dating is a mystery on me.
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Yeah I know. She told me today she asked him out weds....
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Oh my goosh, what happened? Is she dying or something, thats so sad. But God is the person to be talking to.
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no she's not. All I'm saying is I want someone to look after her, and make sure she is taken care of and is safe. We broke up, and I miss her so much. She means the world to me, and I lost her....
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Well, thats cool, that you want to protect her and don't hate her.
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yeah, this girl is my life, and I love her so much. But because of a mistake that I did, I lost her. I am looking out for her, and trying to keep her safe.. I wish the best for her, but I miss her so much... SHE MEANS MORE THEN THE WORLD TO ME, AND I REALLY MISS HER.....
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fuckers! you r so good at writing i can't write shit!
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I'm really not trying to write, but speak from the heart. If you have notice all of my poems are somewhat different, its because my emotions change as things happen and I just start writting my feelings down. All my poems have come from deep within my heart. And I feel like I have to put them on paper, so I can remember what I went through....
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oh, wow, you ARE REALLY talented
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well I guess not, hell if I was, I would of been able to keep my babygirl. No that didn't happen. I'm not good enough for her I guess...
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No your not. No one can do anything, not even me. This is all up to her...
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I dont think so. I've lost her, and I know it....
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