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I wish that i was okay.
The lies, torment, the blasphemy I see as my future.
Memories clouded, shattered screams,
My own existence tearing at the seams.
Why must I be so broken?
Why do I fill with fear when people ask if if alright?
Why do I smile, only to instantly be plagued with sadness?
No cause for this madness, nothing left to break.
Perfect memories becoming hard to fake.
Words tumble, body crumbles,
Stress tears my mind apart.
Yet someone else truly seeks
To give me a part of their own heart?
You are broken too, I see it in your eyes.
Can I honestly keep you happy,
When I myself can barely smile?
I don't want to hurt you,
Don't try to mend me.
You can't fix the building when it's already turned to dust.
I'm not a rusty sword,
You cannot polish me clean.
You cannot wipe my blade away.
Like an old nursery rhyme,
I'm darker underneath.
No matter how happy I seem,
I will always be broken.
Like when Humpty fell off the wall,
Not even the kings horsemen could fix him again.