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Happy pride month everyone

I wanted to draw something simple for the occasion since I don’t usually draw seasonal stuff.

I am somebody that grew up thinking that I was a cis straight person. I always thought that I would always be a girl who liked boys and I was peaceful with that fact. It wasn’t until 2019 when Katzune talked about how they became bisexual that it made me question everything about myself.

Before I was bigoted. I didn’t like gay people. I went along with what people were saying in the early 2010’s. I was naive about the world and what I was consuming. When I saw that video from Katzune, it changed me completely and everything I knew about myself. I believed that I was bisexual for a long time until I realized that I like more than just men and women. I learned about pansexuality and how open it was. At the time I knew I was open to dating anyone that’s not related to sexuality or gender. It’s something I didn’t care about and something I still don’t care about to this day.

Along with the discovery of my sexuality I was figuring out my gender as well. I believed to be non-binary for a long time until recently last year when I dated my first girlfriend. She’s trans (MTF) and she was the first person that I didn’t have to feel like I had to hide myself. She respected me and my pronouns. I never had anybody willing to fight to keep my pronouns in mind like that. I preferred male pronouns over anything and we decided to talk about if I ever had the thought of wanting top surgery. I told her yes I did and how having these breasts effected my everyday life. I was struggling to even feel comfortable with my chest. Having to be reminded of what I’m not hurt me to my core. She was the person who made me question if I even am non-binary. I still thank her for making me think about who I am even though her and I are no longer together. I believe that not only I’m non-binary and queer, but I’m also trans masculine. I don’t see the need to look more masculine but I like being called manly terms. Handsome, manly, boy… I feel joy every time I get called something like that. To this day I’m still questioning what I am. I’m sorry if it doesn’t make sense because it doesn’t for me right now.

I’ve changed a lot since I was a kid. Mentally and physically. I’ve learned that discovery is the greatest teacher. I need to learn more about the world around me. I need to be smarter not only for others but also for myself. This growth lead me to be here. So here we are. I’m non-binary, I’m pansexual, I’m trans masculine, I’m queer. I understand if people got thrown off especially that my persona basically is a cis straight female. Please understand that she is her own character. She may be me but she is her own separate thing. She is who she is because of the story. She doesn’t represent me as who I am irl. I’m very different compared to her.

If any of you have a problem with me coming out or me being gay in any way, feel free to unfollow. I’m not here to please everyone. If me being anything other than “biological” makes you not like me then you don’t need to be around. I won’t let people who hurt my identity be excused with them hiding it under a religion. Please understand that I don’t hate religion. I don’t agree with going around telling people how to live they’re lives especially that I’m not religious myself. I won’t excuse bigotry being hidden behind religion. I know the Christian religion. I grew up in that culture. However, it doesn’t not give you the excuse to tell me how to live my life because of of what you believe in. Respect my wishes and there won’t be any hardships.

Description
Happy pride month everyone

I wanted to draw something simple for the occasion since I don’t usually draw seasonal stuff.

I am somebody that grew up thinking that I was a cis straight person. I always thought that I would always be a girl who liked boys and I was peaceful with that fact. It wasn’t until 2019 when Katzune talked about how they became bisexual that it made me question everything about myself.

Before I was bigoted. I didn’t like gay people. I went along with what people were saying in the early 2010’s. I was naive about the world and what I was consuming. When I saw that video from Katzune, it changed me completely and everything I knew about myself. I believed that I was bisexual for a long time until I realized that I like more than just men and women. I learned about pansexuality and how open it was. At the time I knew I was open to dating anyone that’s not related to sexuality or gender. It’s something I didn’t care about and something I still don’t care about to this day.

Along with the discovery of my sexuality I was figuring out my gender as well. I believed to be non-binary for a long time until recently last year when I dated my first girlfriend. She’s trans (MTF) and she was the first person that I didn’t have to feel like I had to hide myself. She respected me and my pronouns. I never had anybody willing to fight to keep my pronouns in mind like that. I preferred male pronouns over anything and we decided to talk about if I ever had the thought of wanting top surgery. I told her yes I did and how having these breasts effected my everyday life. I was struggling to even feel comfortable with my chest. Having to be reminded of what I’m not hurt me to my core. She was the person who made me question if I even am non-binary. I still thank her for making me think about who I am even though her and I are no longer together. I believe that not only I’m non-binary and queer, but I’m also trans masculine. I don’t see the need to look more masculine but I like being called manly terms. Handsome, manly, boy… I feel joy every time I get called something like that. To this day I’m still questioning what I am. I’m sorry if it doesn’t make sense because it doesn’t for me right now.

I’ve changed a lot since I was a kid. Mentally and physically. I’ve learned that discovery is the greatest teacher. I need to learn more about the world around me. I need to be smarter not only for others but also for myself. This growth lead me to be here. So here we are. I’m non-binary, I’m pansexual, I’m trans masculine, I’m queer. I understand if people got thrown off especially that my persona basically is a cis straight female. Please understand that she is her own character. She may be me but she is her own separate thing. She is who she is because of the story. She doesn’t represent me as who I am irl. I’m very different compared to her.

If any of you have a problem with me coming out or me being gay in any way, feel free to unfollow. I’m not here to please everyone. If me being anything other than “biological” makes you not like me then you don’t need to be around. I won’t let people who hurt my identity be excused with them hiding it under a religion. Please understand that I don’t hate religion. I don’t agree with going around telling people how to live they’re lives especially that I’m not religious myself. I won’t excuse bigotry being hidden behind religion. I know the Christian religion. I grew up in that culture. However, it doesn’t not give you the excuse to tell me how to live my life because of of what you believe in. Respect my wishes and there won’t be any hardships.