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I always have a spiritual/emotional battle going on. I'm a deep thinker naturally. Over the past few months(almost year), I have been just drained from thinking, or from feeling *too* much. Yet my issues weren't resolved, and i had to continue to think in order to solve the puzzle. I took this time to just enjoy my own solitude. I pushed away my guy friends and all guys for that matter, because I needed to listen to my own thoughts without interference. Eventually my own solitude made my best friend think about his own future as well. We agreed to part ways for the better. After that month of not conversing with him, I began to feel afraid, fearful (and I still do feel this way). I realized all of what we shared is over, yet the memories still remain for the both of us. We can never be how we once were. I was just beginning to fully heal my heart from my first love(September 2012) during that month(January 2013) and my heart felt like it was torn out once again. I honestly didn't know if i could handle another heartbreak. It wasn't as intense as my first love because it was never the same level of love, but i did have a deep bond with him and cried for a few days in pure agony.

I'm doing better now, but I still miss him.

Description
I always have a spiritual/emotional battle going on. I'm a deep thinker naturally. Over the past few months(almost year), I have been just drained from thinking, or from feeling *too* much. Yet my issues weren't resolved, and i had to continue to think in order to solve the puzzle. I took this time to just enjoy my own solitude. I pushed away my guy friends and all guys for that matter, because I needed to listen to my own thoughts without interference. Eventually my own solitude made my best friend think about his own future as well. We agreed to part ways for the better. After that month of not conversing with him, I began to feel afraid, fearful (and I still do feel this way). I realized all of what we shared is over, yet the memories still remain for the both of us. We can never be how we once were. I was just beginning to fully heal my heart from my first love(September 2012) during that month(January 2013) and my heart felt like it was torn out once again. I honestly didn't know if i could handle another heartbreak. It wasn't as intense as my first love because it was never the same level of love, but i did have a deep bond with him and cried for a few days in pure agony.

I'm doing better now, but I still miss him.