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**TW: Depression

Sometimes Everett couldn't handle being around anyone. It was hard having such a drive to talk to others yet feel so tired just smiling at someone. It was a low day for him and he had done his best to stay bubbly and social as he normally was, but this wore too heavily on him today. This pressure in his chest...it was hard to pull a smile with it ripping him down. Everett had even gone so far as to leave his Pokemon back at the lab. They would be fine, of course, but even they must get sick of seeing their trainer seem so weak all the time.

This is something Everett just started struggling with as well. There was no trigger...no root cause that could of started these feelings. It just grew with every year until it got to the point where nothing could be wrong but he would feel sickly horrible. Like he was in physical pain from some kind of emotion. But not knowing the reason? It drove him crazy. Friends said something about depression...but how would he possibly have that? His life was good! Loving parents...a good career path! Pokemon that he was closer to then even his closest friends...what was there to feel like this about?

Everett tightened his arms around himself, leaning back against the tree he found himself resting underneath as tired eyes watched the leaves move in the breeze. It wasn't even relaxing like it used to be. Everett only found himself zoning out...his mind fixating on the thoughts swirling in his head. Was this...going to be with him forever? How cruel it would be...
He can still remember just a few years ago when he felt normal. Like he was always ready to take on the world. Always positive about himself! But now every positive thing was met with internal criticism. The things he used to love now caused him to feel overwhelmed or cause anxiety. Everett's hands slid over his face, pressing into them with a shaky breath. He wasn't crying...no, that wasn't what this was. This feeling didn't want to bring tears. It brought....emptiness. Like there was nothing in this world that could help him up from this low. It's how he always felt now. Even when smiling...when with friends...when doing his work or doing things he enjoyed. There was that damned empty feeling in his chest he couldn't get rid of.

A soft rumble had Everett flinch, slowly lifting his head from his hands to see a Luxray staring at him. "Shiro..." He must of been worried. His Luxray was always so good at finding him when he was down....no mater where he chose to hide. Where Saiph would respect his request for space, Shiro would force his way to Everett until he would cave and allow the attention. "I told you all I was going out...why did you follow me?"
Shiro only made another soft rumble as he took a few steps to press his head against Everett's side, gently nuzzling the professor to try and comfort him. Of course...Everett was defiant, trying to push the Luxray away. "I don't want attention right now...I'm dealing with something I'll be fine." He didn't sound fine, though, the male's voice cracking a bit as he quickly looked away from his Pokemon.

Now, that wasn't keeping Shiro at bay, instead going ahead and laying down next to Everett to force his head into the professor's lap. "Shiro! Come on this...you don't want to be around me like this....I'm such a horrible trainer like this...." He felt tears start to bubble up in his eyes, that hollow feeling growing and spreading to his more sensitive emotions. His guilt...his frustration...it only took a moment for Everett to press his face into Shiro's mane to hide his tears. "I don't want to be like this anymore...."

Description
**TW: Depression

Sometimes Everett couldn't handle being around anyone. It was hard having such a drive to talk to others yet feel so tired just smiling at someone. It was a low day for him and he had done his best to stay bubbly and social as he normally was, but this wore too heavily on him today. This pressure in his chest...it was hard to pull a smile with it ripping him down. Everett had even gone so far as to leave his Pokemon back at the lab. They would be fine, of course, but even they must get sick of seeing their trainer seem so weak all the time.

This is something Everett just started struggling with as well. There was no trigger...no root cause that could of started these feelings. It just grew with every year until it got to the point where nothing could be wrong but he would feel sickly horrible. Like he was in physical pain from some kind of emotion. But not knowing the reason? It drove him crazy. Friends said something about depression...but how would he possibly have that? His life was good! Loving parents...a good career path! Pokemon that he was closer to then even his closest friends...what was there to feel like this about?

Everett tightened his arms around himself, leaning back against the tree he found himself resting underneath as tired eyes watched the leaves move in the breeze. It wasn't even relaxing like it used to be. Everett only found himself zoning out...his mind fixating on the thoughts swirling in his head. Was this...going to be with him forever? How cruel it would be...
He can still remember just a few years ago when he felt normal. Like he was always ready to take on the world. Always positive about himself! But now every positive thing was met with internal criticism. The things he used to love now caused him to feel overwhelmed or cause anxiety. Everett's hands slid over his face, pressing into them with a shaky breath. He wasn't crying...no, that wasn't what this was. This feeling didn't want to bring tears. It brought....emptiness. Like there was nothing in this world that could help him up from this low. It's how he always felt now. Even when smiling...when with friends...when doing his work or doing things he enjoyed. There was that damned empty feeling in his chest he couldn't get rid of.

A soft rumble had Everett flinch, slowly lifting his head from his hands to see a Luxray staring at him. "Shiro..." He must of been worried. His Luxray was always so good at finding him when he was down....no mater where he chose to hide. Where Saiph would respect his request for space, Shiro would force his way to Everett until he would cave and allow the attention. "I told you all I was going out...why did you follow me?"
Shiro only made another soft rumble as he took a few steps to press his head against Everett's side, gently nuzzling the professor to try and comfort him. Of course...Everett was defiant, trying to push the Luxray away. "I don't want attention right now...I'm dealing with something I'll be fine." He didn't sound fine, though, the male's voice cracking a bit as he quickly looked away from his Pokemon.

Now, that wasn't keeping Shiro at bay, instead going ahead and laying down next to Everett to force his head into the professor's lap. "Shiro! Come on this...you don't want to be around me like this....I'm such a horrible trainer like this...." He felt tears start to bubble up in his eyes, that hollow feeling growing and spreading to his more sensitive emotions. His guilt...his frustration...it only took a moment for Everett to press his face into Shiro's mane to hide his tears. "I don't want to be like this anymore...."