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Why do i do this
Tell myself itll get better
itll change, be like before again
false hope has lead me into an unescapeable tunnel of grief
i do this to myself
i dont mean to but i do
i feel the pain like never before
i feel it eat away my heart
with it darkening my soul
why wont it go away
why cant i stop loving him
why cant i make this torturing love go away
just go away and leave me in my disturbed mind
everything reminds me of him
all the good for i have forgotten the bad
i cant recall why i got my hopes up
thought it might last
maybe my fantasies would be real
but so for reality is anything that i hoped for
happiness is all but a glorified lie and nothing more
will i ever completely e happy
will he ever love me like he used to
hold me like he used to
i doubt it
but why cant i fantisize, why?

Description
Why do i do this
Tell myself itll get better
itll change, be like before again
false hope has lead me into an unescapeable tunnel of grief
i do this to myself
i dont mean to but i do
i feel the pain like never before
i feel it eat away my heart
with it darkening my soul
why wont it go away
why cant i stop loving him
why cant i make this torturing love go away
just go away and leave me in my disturbed mind
everything reminds me of him
all the good for i have forgotten the bad
i cant recall why i got my hopes up
thought it might last
maybe my fantasies would be real
but so for reality is anything that i hoped for
happiness is all but a glorified lie and nothing more
will i ever completely e happy
will he ever love me like he used to
hold me like he used to
i doubt it
but why cant i fantisize, why?