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12.

Lift me back up to the sun; I choose to live.

Are your arms strong enough to hold me up? Do you even want to bother? I'll understand completely if you don't; no one's wanted to even attempt at it in a long while – not my family, not my friends, not anyone. Hell, I think you may be the first person to try. Do you think you can do it? I hope you can. It's because of you I choose to live.

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10.

I won't let the boogeyman come.

This is my promise to you. You're going to make it through this. You're lost in your own world of nightmares and terrors, and here I am on the outside watching you fight your own battles. You know what, sweetheart? I hope you're dreaming about me sometimes. I hope you're willing to let me help you fight alongside you, but I hope you're willing to fight for yourself.

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07.

If you choose to pull the trigger, do it somewhere far away from here.

You bitch to me about how you're so perfect and can't possibly make any mistakes, and yet here you are curled up with a damn needle in your arm and saying you wanna end it. Well, guess what. Here's the gun, here's the bullet. Put it in your mouth and aim up; put it to your temple and pray. Just don't do it in here, 'cause I don't wanna get your blood on my hands.

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06.

What am I to do with all this silence?

No one's telling me anything. Everyone says that they don't want to alarm me, but their silence scares me far more than their news could. I wait in the sterile white room and pick at my nail beds until they bleed and stain the space underneath my fingernails. I kind of want to cry, but I know it won't do anything to help it. I have to be strong – for him, for others, for me and my appearance.

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05.

Disappear, disappear. Vanish, vanish into the air.

That's all I want to do for now. I am not worth all the attention they lavish on me; it is unwanted. I do not want their eyes on me. I know it's because they're all concerned and it's very nice of them to be, but… I don't need this attention. I do not languish in it. I do not believe I am worth all the fuss, and I'm hindering them in so many ways. I deserve to just disappear. Permanently.

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04.

Call an optimist; he's turning blue.

Damn it, if I stayed with you, I would've been able to prevent this. My fault. This is my fault. It's all my fault because I left you – both back then and just today. I should've stayed, should've listened to you. If you wake up, I'll never leave your side and I'll always keep you safe. If you don't? Well… if you don't wake up, I can be easily convinced to curl up next to you, fall asleep and never leave you.

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03.

So glad to see you well.

Yeah, I miss you. So does everyone else. I know you don't want me to mention it, but I noticed – the halo around your neck is still there, from the time it slipped down and tried to choke you. Sorry. It'll go away soon, though, I'm sure. Everyone misses you. Everyone loves you still. They wanna see you come back home.

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02.

So weak and powerless.

Not anymore. I'm so damn proud of you, I can't even think of what to say. You had a rough run and there were some parts where we didn't think you'd pull through, but… nope. You managed to get through it all and now you're better. Everyone's proud of you, especially those closest to you. We love you, and it's time to come back home.