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Sometimes things aren’t always what they seem. You think it’s the greatest thing ever. That you have never had better but deep down you know you’re lying to yourself. You ignore what everyone says and you stay blinded by that wall of lies that you think is the truth. Still deep down you know the truth as well as you know how to breathe. So what do you do? You box it up in that dark lost corner of your mind. Yet it doesn’t stay lost. Months go by and you start to see it crash and burn. And still you choose not to see it but to hide it away. Your wall is falling slowly allowing you to see the bullshit that is the truth. “No, it’s not!” you yell to yourself. Every night seems so cold curled up under the covers alone. The phone rings and you pray it’s him…the one you know. The one you know inside and out, the one that everyone is lying about because you are right and they are wrong. “Hello?” you say in a sleepy, cute voice…he calls just to argue…”he’s just having a bad day.” You say “I know he cares.” …or so you thought. The wall is falling you saw the truth. You saw the lying you say the low level of care, but do you leave…no…”it’ll get better.” You say with a smile. Is that a true smile? When you smiled with him, did he ever smile back? Were you truly happy? No, he never smiled back, and if he did it was the T. V. or a different thought that wasn’t you. It’s over. It’s finally crashed, burned, and died. Are you happy now? Of course not, the wall is back and the truth you saw is gone and it’s back to lying to yourself. Everyone gives up on you and looses faith in you except one. The one who was there the second it happened, the one that was on the phone with you every night hearing your tears cause static on the phone. The one who came for you. One is a powerful number, and one is all you need. One can make you happy. One can make you feel great. But one can be scary. You’re use to more than one. More than one lie, more than on excuse to not say “I care about you” or “you mean so much to me” more than one Saturday night alone. Though you are with something great and better. Yet your mind thinks like it’s the one before. You think it’s all lies, all fake, that is how your mind is set. But one helps you fix the damage, inch by inch you feel yourself getting better. But your fear is still large. You have nothing to worry about but you still get scared of the empty left feeling. “you don’t have to worry. I promise.” The line makes you happy and helps you over come your fear but a small amount of fear boils in the back of your mind in that dark corner. Sometimes things aren’t what they seem so you are always testing the waters with talks, questions and action. This time…I think I have finally found calm waters.

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Sometimes things aren’t always what they seem. You think it’s the greatest thing ever. That you have never had better but deep down you know you’re lying to yourself. You ignore what everyone says and you stay blinded by that wall of lies that you think is the truth. Still deep down you know the truth as well as you know how to breathe. So what do you do? You box it up in that dark lost corner of your mind. Yet it doesn’t stay lost. Months go by and you start to see it crash and burn. And still you choose not to see it but to hide it away. Your wall is falling slowly allowing you to see the bullshit that is the truth. “No, it’s not!” you yell to yourself. Every night seems so cold curled up under the covers alone. The phone rings and you pray it’s him…the one you know. The one you know inside and out, the one that everyone is lying about because you are right and they are wrong. “Hello?” you say in a sleepy, cute voice…he calls just to argue…”he’s just having a bad day.” You say “I know he cares.” …or so you thought. The wall is falling you saw the truth. You saw the lying you say the low level of care, but do you leave…no…”it’ll get better.” You say with a smile. Is that a true smile? When you smiled with him, did he ever smile back? Were you truly happy? No, he never smiled back, and if he did it was the T. V. or a different thought that wasn’t you. It’s over. It’s finally crashed, burned, and died. Are you happy now? Of course not, the wall is back and the truth you saw is gone and it’s back to lying to yourself. Everyone gives up on you and looses faith in you except one. The one who was there the second it happened, the one that was on the phone with you every night hearing your tears cause static on the phone. The one who came for you. One is a powerful number, and one is all you need. One can make you happy. One can make you feel great. But one can be scary. You’re use to more than one. More than one lie, more than on excuse to not say “I care about you” or “you mean so much to me” more than one Saturday night alone. Though you are with something great and better. Yet your mind thinks like it’s the one before. You think it’s all lies, all fake, that is how your mind is set. But one helps you fix the damage, inch by inch you feel yourself getting better. But your fear is still large. You have nothing to worry about but you still get scared of the empty left feeling. “you don’t have to worry. I promise.” The line makes you happy and helps you over come your fear but a small amount of fear boils in the back of your mind in that dark corner. Sometimes things aren’t what they seem so you are always testing the waters with talks, questions and action. This time…I think I have finally found calm waters.