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really sad...

~~~~~

no.
No.
NO!

~~~

No smoke.
No lights.
No bed.
Just.. No.

~~~~~

I see you.
For some unexplainable reason, you're looking at me.
I'm focussed on work.
School. Work.
Get to college. Make something of little old, me.
And I hate it...
Heh...

~~~~~

Dad's a smoker.
Mom drinks. Very, very hard!
I hide this. With work.
Not some pathetic smile so I can sleep with you.
Not some flirtatious gimmick so I can get into your pants, or you into mine.
You'll never see me.
Ever.

And your staring at me is interfering with my work.
So back off. Back off.
I only say it once. Then repeat. So you'll know I'm serious.

Fuck this life.
All this dating. Drugs. Sex...
It's not worth it.
Any of it.
And there's a chance I might get pregnant, if I ever did.. Which I won't.
I'm not the average girl across the street who's begging you to sleep with me.

Men are disrespectful idiots.
Boys are assholes. They'll flirt with anything that has a face.
That's not how I roll.
I'm more-- a lesbian then anything..
So I like chicks.
Girls. Whatever..

Though let's be clear. I won't have sex.
Like, ever.
Don't kiss me. Don't say pretty things that will make me fall for you.
Because I just might.
And I hate that too.

Dad? His life is three packs a day.
Twice a day. -insertOHMYFUCKINGGAWDhere-
Mom drinks. Heavily.
To the point that I don't recognize her anymore.

And I know, okay.
I know.
I was never meant to be brought into this world.
In fact, it was just after I came out of her womb that mom started drinking.
Guess she wanted to forget she ever had me..

She calls me whore.
A lot.
I'm daddy's little faggySLUT!
Imagine! Me! A slut!
noonecares.
infact, noonewillevercare.

Because you're not worth it..
No no. DEFNITELY not.
It's not worth it.
Falling in love.
Actually, being in love.
Having someone tell you their lie.
Such is life.
Such is FUCKING life...

They say I had attitude problems.
... Yeah. And?!
So what.
Doesn't matter.

I don't matter.
And I'm standing here, in the bathroom.
Staring at the mirror screaming IDON'TGIVEAFUCK!

Because, let's face it..
It's not worth it...
Fuck this..

I started cutting.
OHMYGODREALLY? Yes...

See the scars, on my arms.
If I ever let you get close enough to show you that is...
Fucking assholes, the lot of you..
DAMMIT!

...

Oh, and the name..
Jane.

Just, Jane.

Description
really sad...

~~~~~

no.
No.
NO!

~~~

No smoke.
No lights.
No bed.
Just.. No.

~~~~~

I see you.
For some unexplainable reason, you're looking at me.
I'm focussed on work.
School. Work.
Get to college. Make something of little old, me.
And I hate it...
Heh...

~~~~~

Dad's a smoker.
Mom drinks. Very, very hard!
I hide this. With work.
Not some pathetic smile so I can sleep with you.
Not some flirtatious gimmick so I can get into your pants, or you into mine.
You'll never see me.
Ever.

And your staring at me is interfering with my work.
So back off. Back off.
I only say it once. Then repeat. So you'll know I'm serious.

Fuck this life.
All this dating. Drugs. Sex...
It's not worth it.
Any of it.
And there's a chance I might get pregnant, if I ever did.. Which I won't.
I'm not the average girl across the street who's begging you to sleep with me.

Men are disrespectful idiots.
Boys are assholes. They'll flirt with anything that has a face.
That's not how I roll.
I'm more-- a lesbian then anything..
So I like chicks.
Girls. Whatever..

Though let's be clear. I won't have sex.
Like, ever.
Don't kiss me. Don't say pretty things that will make me fall for you.
Because I just might.
And I hate that too.

Dad? His life is three packs a day.
Twice a day. -insertOHMYFUCKINGGAWDhere-
Mom drinks. Heavily.
To the point that I don't recognize her anymore.

And I know, okay.
I know.
I was never meant to be brought into this world.
In fact, it was just after I came out of her womb that mom started drinking.
Guess she wanted to forget she ever had me..

She calls me whore.
A lot.
I'm daddy's little faggySLUT!
Imagine! Me! A slut!
noonecares.
infact, noonewillevercare.

Because you're not worth it..
No no. DEFNITELY not.
It's not worth it.
Falling in love.
Actually, being in love.
Having someone tell you their lie.
Such is life.
Such is FUCKING life...

They say I had attitude problems.
... Yeah. And?!
So what.
Doesn't matter.

I don't matter.
And I'm standing here, in the bathroom.
Staring at the mirror screaming IDON'TGIVEAFUCK!

Because, let's face it..
It's not worth it...
Fuck this..

I started cutting.
OHMYGODREALLY? Yes...

See the scars, on my arms.
If I ever let you get close enough to show you that is...
Fucking assholes, the lot of you..
DAMMIT!

...

Oh, and the name..
Jane.

Just, Jane.