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we crave, that which is unattainable.
bought with money, love has lost all meaning.
we search the stars to find our way.
getting lost in hopeless memories that we've shed.

So.
Pick up your sword. Harden your heart.
Let nothing touch you.
But we are not robots.
Human. We live, cry, breathe..
To numb all emotion away..

How else then, can we live?
Such a dreadful, miserable pain..
Constant. Reminders.
Day by day.. What happiness is to be gained from a lie?

Shall we lie then?
Put on a happy face when we're dying inside?
It's better to wear the mask, then to see the heart crumble beneath it.

Complicated.. Such is life..
I suppose.

And I know the feeling, of wanting to numb yourself.
Take away the pain.
If only it was that easy...

Some have said, we create our own misery.
I know that. Because not everyone can be happy.
Not everyone can look past the many cruelties that roam our planet.

And maybe it's me again.
Asking. Wishing. To forget.
Because there are times where I don't want to feel.
There's times where I feel too much.

My mind is always racing, so it's hard to keep track of my thoughts.
I write them out because it's too much.
I don't speak when writing.
The words come from inside me.

Don't want to feel.
Don't touch me.
Don't touch me!

Pain itself is painful. And I know this.
I know it's hard for a lot of people.
We're unaccepted, shunned and told various horrible and cruel things.
Sometimes the only way out, is to die.
And we see so and so committed suicide..

It's a heartache.
And it's fucking sad.
Yes, fucking sad.
We want out.
To live without pain.
Sadness...

And it's hard. Life is very hard. And it is painful.
I recognize this.

You are loved. Because I love you.
I care for you. Even though we haven't met.
I still love you. And I wish for your happiness.
I hope life brings you much happiness.

Take care.

~Josh~

Description
white

we crave, that which is unattainable.
bought with money, love has lost all meaning.
we search the stars to find our way.
getting lost in hopeless memories that we've shed.

So.
Pick up your sword. Harden your heart.
Let nothing touch you.
But we are not robots.
Human. We live, cry, breathe..
To numb all emotion away..

How else then, can we live?
Such a dreadful, miserable pain..
Constant. Reminders.
Day by day.. What happiness is to be gained from a lie?

Shall we lie then?
Put on a happy face when we're dying inside?
It's better to wear the mask, then to see the heart crumble beneath it.

Complicated.. Such is life..
I suppose.

And I know the feeling, of wanting to numb yourself.
Take away the pain.
If only it was that easy...

Some have said, we create our own misery.
I know that. Because not everyone can be happy.
Not everyone can look past the many cruelties that roam our planet.

And maybe it's me again.
Asking. Wishing. To forget.
Because there are times where I don't want to feel.
There's times where I feel too much.

My mind is always racing, so it's hard to keep track of my thoughts.
I write them out because it's too much.
I don't speak when writing.
The words come from inside me.

Don't want to feel.
Don't touch me.
Don't touch me!

Pain itself is painful. And I know this.
I know it's hard for a lot of people.
We're unaccepted, shunned and told various horrible and cruel things.
Sometimes the only way out, is to die.
And we see so and so committed suicide..

It's a heartache.
And it's fucking sad.
Yes, fucking sad.
We want out.
To live without pain.
Sadness...

And it's hard. Life is very hard. And it is painful.
I recognize this.

You are loved. Because I love you.
I care for you. Even though we haven't met.
I still love you. And I wish for your happiness.
I hope life brings you much happiness.

Take care.

~Josh~