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Description
Wake up.
Open your eyes.
A new day.
Sit in your room. Alone.
Twilight will begin anew.

Go to school.
Bags packed. Lunch made.
Another new day.

School bus.
Waiting.
People talking.
But I don't fit in.
Easy target.
Words of profanity.
Words to describe me.
The way I look.
What's in my backpack.
Loser.
Lame.
Faggot.
But you don't know me.

On bus.
Find a spot.
Sit down.
Take backpack off.
Strain on my shoulder.
More words.
From the back of the bus.
Try to not hear it.
Block it out.
CD Player.
Random songs.
Mind clear. Headache.
Music louder. Drown out the noise.
They're calling me names.
Even so, I don't hear them.

School day.
Arrive.
Find locker.
Avoid students in the hall.
Find locker. Input locker code.
Safe. Finally.
Grab books.
Go to class.

Try your best.
New test.
Surprise. Unannounced.
Anxious. Nervous. Overwhelmed.
Hide it with eye shadow.
More names.
Make up conceals the pain.
More words from everyone.
I ignore. Painful.
Knife, stuck in my heart.
Can't breathe.
Hyperventilate.
Grabs pencil. It snaps.
Can't focus.
Must escape.

Runs out of classroom.
Goes to locker.
Skips next two periods.
Leaves school.
Cries.
Desperate.
Yell and scream.
Let the tension out.
I'm gay.
Why is it so hard?
Want to sleep.
Takes a breath.
Stares at razor.
Was in pocket..
Stares blankly.
Want to cut.
Want to hurt.
Am I not allowed?
This is so hard.
Sweating.
Hands start to shake.
Breathing difficult.
It will be over in a moment.
Release. Dance.

Red blood.
Slowly comes.
I can breathe.
Stress relief.
Pain is my center.
Relief. Comfort.
A dark angel.
Fall to the ground.
Close your eyes.
Enjoy the moment.

Puts dagger away.
Hides the scar.
Walks away.
Into a new dream..

~End~

Description
Wake up.
Open your eyes.
A new day.
Sit in your room. Alone.
Twilight will begin anew.

Go to school.
Bags packed. Lunch made.
Another new day.

School bus.
Waiting.
People talking.
But I don't fit in.
Easy target.
Words of profanity.
Words to describe me.
The way I look.
What's in my backpack.
Loser.
Lame.
Faggot.
But you don't know me.

On bus.
Find a spot.
Sit down.
Take backpack off.
Strain on my shoulder.
More words.
From the back of the bus.
Try to not hear it.
Block it out.
CD Player.
Random songs.
Mind clear. Headache.
Music louder. Drown out the noise.
They're calling me names.
Even so, I don't hear them.

School day.
Arrive.
Find locker.
Avoid students in the hall.
Find locker. Input locker code.
Safe. Finally.
Grab books.
Go to class.

Try your best.
New test.
Surprise. Unannounced.
Anxious. Nervous. Overwhelmed.
Hide it with eye shadow.
More names.
Make up conceals the pain.
More words from everyone.
I ignore. Painful.
Knife, stuck in my heart.
Can't breathe.
Hyperventilate.
Grabs pencil. It snaps.
Can't focus.
Must escape.

Runs out of classroom.
Goes to locker.
Skips next two periods.
Leaves school.
Cries.
Desperate.
Yell and scream.
Let the tension out.
I'm gay.
Why is it so hard?
Want to sleep.
Takes a breath.
Stares at razor.
Was in pocket..
Stares blankly.
Want to cut.
Want to hurt.
Am I not allowed?
This is so hard.
Sweating.
Hands start to shake.
Breathing difficult.
It will be over in a moment.
Release. Dance.

Red blood.
Slowly comes.
I can breathe.
Stress relief.
Pain is my center.
Relief. Comfort.
A dark angel.
Fall to the ground.
Close your eyes.
Enjoy the moment.

Puts dagger away.
Hides the scar.
Walks away.
Into a new dream..

~End~