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Why am I always the best friend?

Whenever I am with any of my guy mates I always notice people glancing over, clearly thinking we're sleeping together. This annoys me in two ways. One, a girl can be good friends with a guy and nothing more yet people still seem to make judgements even if they have friends of the opposite sex. And two, while I may not want to sleep with my friends I would like a stronger relationship with someone instead of just a friendship. Unfortunately all the guys I meet only become friends, nothing more ever happens between us. I love my friends and I really wouldn't want anything to happen between us but at some point I have imagined what it would be like to be in a relationship with them. But they seem to never have that feeling. Why am I the one attracted to them but they are never attracted to me? I feel like one of those 'nice people'. You know, the ones who are good friends but not good enough for anything else. That hurts.

This non-mutual wondering of what me and my male friends would be like as a couple is nothing compared to actual unrequited love, however. With unrequited love you are trapped in a circle, spinning round and round. Actually two circles.
The first is the circle where you rejoice in being in love because it is a wonderful feeling yet this happiness is destroyed by the word 'unrequited'. Everytime you see that one person you are uplifted, you have a confidence boost, you feel like anything could happen. But then when you part you become the pessimist. That person doesn't love you! They hate you! Or they pity you! Pity is the worst because it gives you a false hope and then you start mistrusting their every action - do they actually mean this or are they just feeling sorry for me?
The second circle is purely negative. The sorrow from not receiving the love you desire tears your heart. You get a literal feeling inside your chest that your heart has fallen apart and your only wish is for the person who caused this to reach in and gently hold it together again. But the knowledge that they would never want to do this rips your heart even more.

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Why am I always the best friend?

Whenever I am with any of my guy mates I always notice people glancing over, clearly thinking we're sleeping together. This annoys me in two ways. One, a girl can be good friends with a guy and nothing more yet people still seem to make judgements even if they have friends of the opposite sex. And two, while I may not want to sleep with my friends I would like a stronger relationship with someone instead of just a friendship. Unfortunately all the guys I meet only become friends, nothing more ever happens between us. I love my friends and I really wouldn't want anything to happen between us but at some point I have imagined what it would be like to be in a relationship with them. But they seem to never have that feeling. Why am I the one attracted to them but they are never attracted to me? I feel like one of those 'nice people'. You know, the ones who are good friends but not good enough for anything else. That hurts.

This non-mutual wondering of what me and my male friends would be like as a couple is nothing compared to actual unrequited love, however. With unrequited love you are trapped in a circle, spinning round and round. Actually two circles.
The first is the circle where you rejoice in being in love because it is a wonderful feeling yet this happiness is destroyed by the word 'unrequited'. Everytime you see that one person you are uplifted, you have a confidence boost, you feel like anything could happen. But then when you part you become the pessimist. That person doesn't love you! They hate you! Or they pity you! Pity is the worst because it gives you a false hope and then you start mistrusting their every action - do they actually mean this or are they just feeling sorry for me?
The second circle is purely negative. The sorrow from not receiving the love you desire tears your heart. You get a literal feeling inside your chest that your heart has fallen apart and your only wish is for the person who caused this to reach in and gently hold it together again. But the knowledge that they would never want to do this rips your heart even more.