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I wish drawing just came easy to me.

I have images in my head that need to come out, and yet when I draw them, they're nothing like I expected.

I read how-to books, look at tutorials online, and sketch from screencaps.

It never gets any easier.

If I see the 8-head figure drawing form one more time, I'm going to scream.
Maybe there's a different way I'm supposed to be learning it.  Maybe I'm not a visual learner.  I don't know.  I'm just so tired.

Sometimes I think to myself, "This will be easy!" and I expect it to come out perfect.  Other times I know it won't and I just give up and leave it for another day.

I wish I could sketch something so simple but so profound that people will "ooh" and "aww" over it, but I know it won't happen.

For others, they can doodle in their notebook and have it come out like a masterpiece.  I yearn for that ability.

I feel as though I was an artist in a past life.  Now in this life, I have a block against it for some reason – like if I pound hard enough against the wall, it will break down and I'll have immeasurable drawing talents.

Maybe I'm being silly.  Maybe hard work is the only way.  But I feel as though I've been doing the work for years, and not getting any results.

I thought getting a tablet would make it easier.  Draw right on Photoshop so you don't have to scan or use the pen tool!  What a laugh.  Sometimes I want to throw it out the window.  I hate it.

I like to watch people Livestream, but it only gets my hopes up.  I think, "Wow, that looks so easy!  I should try that too!"  Two hours later and I'm cursing at the screen, willing it to resemble a human being.

Shading is the worst for me. "Imagine where the light is coming from!"  Well, I know that.  To me the problem is where the light streams across the body.  How far does it go?  Not to mention clothing folds.  I'll never get the hang of that.

Maybe one day I'll be a great artist.  But today is not that day.

Description
I wish drawing just came easy to me.

I have images in my head that need to come out, and yet when I draw them, they're nothing like I expected.

I read how-to books, look at tutorials online, and sketch from screencaps.

It never gets any easier.

If I see the 8-head figure drawing form one more time, I'm going to scream.
Maybe there's a different way I'm supposed to be learning it.  Maybe I'm not a visual learner.  I don't know.  I'm just so tired.

Sometimes I think to myself, "This will be easy!" and I expect it to come out perfect.  Other times I know it won't and I just give up and leave it for another day.

I wish I could sketch something so simple but so profound that people will "ooh" and "aww" over it, but I know it won't happen.

For others, they can doodle in their notebook and have it come out like a masterpiece.  I yearn for that ability.

I feel as though I was an artist in a past life.  Now in this life, I have a block against it for some reason – like if I pound hard enough against the wall, it will break down and I'll have immeasurable drawing talents.

Maybe I'm being silly.  Maybe hard work is the only way.  But I feel as though I've been doing the work for years, and not getting any results.

I thought getting a tablet would make it easier.  Draw right on Photoshop so you don't have to scan or use the pen tool!  What a laugh.  Sometimes I want to throw it out the window.  I hate it.

I like to watch people Livestream, but it only gets my hopes up.  I think, "Wow, that looks so easy!  I should try that too!"  Two hours later and I'm cursing at the screen, willing it to resemble a human being.

Shading is the worst for me. "Imagine where the light is coming from!"  Well, I know that.  To me the problem is where the light streams across the body.  How far does it go?  Not to mention clothing folds.  I'll never get the hang of that.

Maybe one day I'll be a great artist.  But today is not that day.