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I sat there in the dark looking for some sad Fan Fiction of My OPT's. Depression sucks. I always have the feeling I need to cry. This is an issue because at the same time I feel nothing. I need something to help me with it. Weather it is a sad song or writing I had no preference. I just needed a little push/excuse for it to happen. I finally settle on Alone on the Water. It is my third time reading it. It speaks to me because I feel alone like John in the story.
I start reading it. John becomes broken just like me. Not in the same way. Never in the same way. This is because I feel broken over nothing. I have no reason. He does. He is allowed to feel empty and sad; I however should not. My door creaks open from when it was shut earlier.
"You're crying! Why are you crying?" She asks.
"No I'm not." I am a good actor/liar. My voice doesn't even crack. I would have convinced myself. She knows better. We have been down this road before ending in ways that almost ended me up in the E.R. The key word here is almost. Since then I have been better. Life in general is once in a while I have these depression spells, but its nothing compared to what is use to be. I just have to wait it out.
"Yes, you are. Now tell me whats wrong?"
"Nothing."
"I'm serious."
"I read a sad fan fiction, okay?"
"Ow honey don't do that. We're going out. You wanna come?"
"No"
"Need any thing?"
"no"
"Okay, I love you." She turns on her heel and they are gone. It's just me now. I wallow in my useless self pity. I just keep thinking that I will be fine. My tomorrow is bright. It's hopeful and I will take a step in that direction. the one towards happiness. The path that I will set myself and no one will stop me. I will over come.

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I sat there in the dark looking for some sad Fan Fiction of My OPT's. Depression sucks. I always have the feeling I need to cry. This is an issue because at the same time I feel nothing. I need something to help me with it. Weather it is a sad song or writing I had no preference. I just needed a little push/excuse for it to happen. I finally settle on Alone on the Water. It is my third time reading it. It speaks to me because I feel alone like John in the story.
I start reading it. John becomes broken just like me. Not in the same way. Never in the same way. This is because I feel broken over nothing. I have no reason. He does. He is allowed to feel empty and sad; I however should not. My door creaks open from when it was shut earlier.
"You're crying! Why are you crying?" She asks.
"No I'm not." I am a good actor/liar. My voice doesn't even crack. I would have convinced myself. She knows better. We have been down this road before ending in ways that almost ended me up in the E.R. The key word here is almost. Since then I have been better. Life in general is once in a while I have these depression spells, but its nothing compared to what is use to be. I just have to wait it out.
"Yes, you are. Now tell me whats wrong?"
"Nothing."
"I'm serious."
"I read a sad fan fiction, okay?"
"Ow honey don't do that. We're going out. You wanna come?"
"No"
"Need any thing?"
"no"
"Okay, I love you." She turns on her heel and they are gone. It's just me now. I wallow in my useless self pity. I just keep thinking that I will be fine. My tomorrow is bright. It's hopeful and I will take a step in that direction. the one towards happiness. The path that I will set myself and no one will stop me. I will over come.