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Feeling so deep right now,
a combination of the music I'm listening to and the tea I'm drinking
invisible bells ringing from my head
floating above you all
and somehow with you.
I've become a spirit,
once thought of as a lifestyle
as a
publicity stunt,
now my own personal way
of waking up
and spinning about
draped in the kind of glitter that you can't really see
that still shows itself as something that
can bring me the peace that I need.

Feeling so changed right now
used to be Little Miss Antichrist,
wanted to be a punk-rock rebellion
wrapped in too much eyeliner and too little sense.
Your average teenage atheist with no purpose
- except to
trick the boy next door into thinking
Iwaslikehim -
somehow transformed
into the poster child
of a self-proclaimed gutterpunk wannabe hippie child
who goes to church every week
and finds herself
enjoying it.

Feeling so amazed right now
Wondering how these people
know me
and love me
when they don't even know that two years ago
I'd have laughed at myself
if I said
I would cry if I didn't get to worship,
be close with them
like the girlfriend of the boy
I used to make fun of
for being so hardcore
with such a soft shell.
Now one of him,
and loving it.
Best friends with the people
I resemble most
and couldn't admit to being
until now.

Feeling so beyond right now
Don't really understand myself
yet I've got this empty lighter
filled with cotton...
a confusing beacon of friendship
from
the one I least suspected,
who I won't get to thank
because
(unfortunately)
I can't learn this week
or the one after
and as much as I am getting this
drugged-upincenseinducedspiritedvision
of our energies being together in the history
- if history is the future -
I know it's just an unconscious attempt
to be free.

Feeling so real right now,
never really expected
to be where I am.
Can't stand who I used to listen to,
apologizing everyday for who I used to be
which was something that I never was
(but you get the idea).
Now I'm waiting for an excuse
to have an epiphany
to have a reason to be
what I am anyway, which is
A four A.M. rambling
that worms itself into
your inbox
and tells you things
you already knew
and just weren't aware of.

Description
Feeling so deep right now,
a combination of the music I'm listening to and the tea I'm drinking
invisible bells ringing from my head
floating above you all
and somehow with you.
I've become a spirit,
once thought of as a lifestyle
as a
publicity stunt,
now my own personal way
of waking up
and spinning about
draped in the kind of glitter that you can't really see
that still shows itself as something that
can bring me the peace that I need.

Feeling so changed right now
used to be Little Miss Antichrist,
wanted to be a punk-rock rebellion
wrapped in too much eyeliner and too little sense.
Your average teenage atheist with no purpose
- except to
trick the boy next door into thinking
Iwaslikehim -
somehow transformed
into the poster child
of a self-proclaimed gutterpunk wannabe hippie child
who goes to church every week
and finds herself
enjoying it.

Feeling so amazed right now
Wondering how these people
know me
and love me
when they don't even know that two years ago
I'd have laughed at myself
if I said
I would cry if I didn't get to worship,
be close with them
like the girlfriend of the boy
I used to make fun of
for being so hardcore
with such a soft shell.
Now one of him,
and loving it.
Best friends with the people
I resemble most
and couldn't admit to being
until now.

Feeling so beyond right now
Don't really understand myself
yet I've got this empty lighter
filled with cotton...
a confusing beacon of friendship
from
the one I least suspected,
who I won't get to thank
because
(unfortunately)
I can't learn this week
or the one after
and as much as I am getting this
drugged-upincenseinducedspiritedvision
of our energies being together in the history
- if history is the future -
I know it's just an unconscious attempt
to be free.

Feeling so real right now,
never really expected
to be where I am.
Can't stand who I used to listen to,
apologizing everyday for who I used to be
which was something that I never was
(but you get the idea).
Now I'm waiting for an excuse
to have an epiphany
to have a reason to be
what I am anyway, which is
A four A.M. rambling
that worms itself into
your inbox
and tells you things
you already knew
and just weren't aware of.