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So, of all the stupid idiotic crap that I could have done, this isn't the worst, but by no means is it the best. I got pissed over insanely dumb stuff that built up over time and just decided to burst over at my friends; who, by the way, were just messing with me as friends do so to get a laugh out of every day crap. However I just didn't do the right thing. Ya see, a combo of freaky dream-wake-up-every-5-minutes sleep and brain that is constantly going non stop with A.D.D. (attention-deficit-disorder) and a big helping of piddly ass problems with a slight hint of overactive imagination, not to mention having role-playing hang-over, can make a recipe for unnecessary rudeness, boorish ignorance, and unintentional hurt towards the closest people to said individual who has been suffering from the previous mentioned affliction/symptoms.
Am I making excuses? NOPE!
Did I do wrong? YEP!
Did I hurt the ones I love and who I believe love me? YEP!
Am I going to make sure they know that I am sorry? WHAT DO YOU THINK I AM WRITING THIS FOR!?
Yes, I admit it, I did wrong! I was rude, I was insensitive, I was stupid, I was uncaring, I was ridiculously out of control, I lost my cool.
I
Am
SORRY
I can't do much more than that.
I did what I did
Am I proud of it? NO
Did it happen? YES
Am I insensitive at times? YES
Am I insensitive period? I personally think so
Was I uncaring? YES
Am I uncaring period? NO
I care a lot, I really do. I try to make everyone feel better, I hate seeing sadness, pain, hate, fear. I hate it.
Now that may sound like a contradiction
BECAUSE IT IS!!!!!!!!
But I shall say instead: Hatred for hatred, while it is a conundrum in and of itself, can be summed up in a perfectly logical way, I reject hatred.
Ya know it's just hard at times
I hardly ever vent like this because I know that the last thing people need is to hear about my personal macabre memoirs. Too much of this flying around already, why should I add my own fecal matter to the ever growing pile of manure that other people suffer from day in and day out?
Personally, it makes no sense.
It's just so much
No one needs to hear about it
However I find myself at another contradiction, I am always willing to listen to someones problems.
Why? Because I care enough to do so.
Do I wish I could do more than just listen? YES
Do I try to do more than just listen? YES, unless the person in question says otherwise
Do I like hearing about it? Neither yes nor no.
Do I like listening to people? Yes, yes I do.
You see the thing is I want to listen, It's okay, I really do.
Does it build up sometimes? YES
Does it help me? Sometimes
Does it help other people? I hope so......
All I am saying is
I
AM
SORRY
I am human
Is it an excuse? NO
Does it explain a lot? YES
So now there is only one question left
Do you forgive me?

Description
So, of all the stupid idiotic crap that I could have done, this isn't the worst, but by no means is it the best. I got pissed over insanely dumb stuff that built up over time and just decided to burst over at my friends; who, by the way, were just messing with me as friends do so to get a laugh out of every day crap. However I just didn't do the right thing. Ya see, a combo of freaky dream-wake-up-every-5-minutes sleep and brain that is constantly going non stop with A.D.D. (attention-deficit-disorder) and a big helping of piddly ass problems with a slight hint of overactive imagination, not to mention having role-playing hang-over, can make a recipe for unnecessary rudeness, boorish ignorance, and unintentional hurt towards the closest people to said individual who has been suffering from the previous mentioned affliction/symptoms.
Am I making excuses? NOPE!
Did I do wrong? YEP!
Did I hurt the ones I love and who I believe love me? YEP!
Am I going to make sure they know that I am sorry? WHAT DO YOU THINK I AM WRITING THIS FOR!?
Yes, I admit it, I did wrong! I was rude, I was insensitive, I was stupid, I was uncaring, I was ridiculously out of control, I lost my cool.
I
Am
SORRY
I can't do much more than that.
I did what I did
Am I proud of it? NO
Did it happen? YES
Am I insensitive at times? YES
Am I insensitive period? I personally think so
Was I uncaring? YES
Am I uncaring period? NO
I care a lot, I really do. I try to make everyone feel better, I hate seeing sadness, pain, hate, fear. I hate it.
Now that may sound like a contradiction
BECAUSE IT IS!!!!!!!!
But I shall say instead: Hatred for hatred, while it is a conundrum in and of itself, can be summed up in a perfectly logical way, I reject hatred.
Ya know it's just hard at times
I hardly ever vent like this because I know that the last thing people need is to hear about my personal macabre memoirs. Too much of this flying around already, why should I add my own fecal matter to the ever growing pile of manure that other people suffer from day in and day out?
Personally, it makes no sense.
It's just so much
No one needs to hear about it
However I find myself at another contradiction, I am always willing to listen to someones problems.
Why? Because I care enough to do so.
Do I wish I could do more than just listen? YES
Do I try to do more than just listen? YES, unless the person in question says otherwise
Do I like hearing about it? Neither yes nor no.
Do I like listening to people? Yes, yes I do.
You see the thing is I want to listen, It's okay, I really do.
Does it build up sometimes? YES
Does it help me? Sometimes
Does it help other people? I hope so......
All I am saying is
I
AM
SORRY
I am human
Is it an excuse? NO
Does it explain a lot? YES
So now there is only one question left
Do you forgive me?