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A rose you gave to me
Because I was your
Crush… you, my secret admirer.
Day by sweet day, your love swelled, desperate for returned affection.
Every glance form me to you, cherished,
Freshly stored in your unforgetting memory.
Gradually, I noticed you.
How you helped me and said “Hello” each dewy morning.
I realized your kind, caring ways and too, fell in love.
Joy filled our young, innocent hearts.
Kisses shared, each remembered by my tender lips.
Love growing until that day…
Marriage changed our lives.
“Never shall we part,” you convinced me.
Only, that was a lie.
Peace became a myth in our house, not home.
Questions surfaced and remained unanswered.
Rapidly declining, fear replaced the vanished love.
Shallow cuts upon my wrists,
Taking my dreadful life to replace it with heaven, or even Hell perhaps.
Ubiquitous self-loathing brought me away from my foul deed.
Visions of life, true life, filled my eyes.
Wishing so longingly for hope, I brought our situation from the depths of the cellar.
X marked the line where your sprawled writing would complete the fracture, releasing me.
You shall never find me again, secret admirer.
Zealously, I seek redeeming grace, to love again.

Description
A rose you gave to me
Because I was your
Crush… you, my secret admirer.
Day by sweet day, your love swelled, desperate for returned affection.
Every glance form me to you, cherished,
Freshly stored in your unforgetting memory.
Gradually, I noticed you.
How you helped me and said “Hello” each dewy morning.
I realized your kind, caring ways and too, fell in love.
Joy filled our young, innocent hearts.
Kisses shared, each remembered by my tender lips.
Love growing until that day…
Marriage changed our lives.
“Never shall we part,” you convinced me.
Only, that was a lie.
Peace became a myth in our house, not home.
Questions surfaced and remained unanswered.
Rapidly declining, fear replaced the vanished love.
Shallow cuts upon my wrists,
Taking my dreadful life to replace it with heaven, or even Hell perhaps.
Ubiquitous self-loathing brought me away from my foul deed.
Visions of life, true life, filled my eyes.
Wishing so longingly for hope, I brought our situation from the depths of the cellar.
X marked the line where your sprawled writing would complete the fracture, releasing me.
You shall never find me again, secret admirer.
Zealously, I seek redeeming grace, to love again.