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I never share my personal thoughts, but this time...why the hellastone not? Here we go. I get very few replies so I'm not sure how many will read this. This is for my comfort in general.

I've loved mystery/romance/action adventure my whole life. Specifically, stories where a girl unexpectedly falls in love with her arch enemy, in disguise, and or by just some impossible weird way. My heart has been yearning for this and adventure so bad lately, I feel it ache, almost lurch out of my chest into my hands only to hand it over to the mafia. The regular cliché simple life, of boy meets girl, maybe a little comedy, a little romance, marriage, then glorious dealings with childhood.... I'm not content with that. It seems.......too normal for me. Total non adventurous, no battles whatsoever, the safe route. You probably hear what most people want. So I guess I'm not out of the ordinary as much as I thought I was. Go figure.

The short, sad, sweet and sour story is my first boyfriend screwed me over. The end. And now I know partly as to why. When I had been with him, something didn't seem right. He never held me right, or kissed me right. I started to question whether or not I wanted to be with him. This is where part of my yearning comes in. All my dreams of romance shattered, never to be found again, almost as though "this was it for me!! Nice knowin ya!!". I accepted that.... I realize how stupid I am for thinking such things. To let my ever increasing dreams slip away. HELLS NO!!! I’m frightened it could happen once more. And now that I'm free again, my yearn for adventure, full of rhapsody, burns and grows terrible, grasping for breath I never knew I needed, though unable to grasp it. Unfortunate I can no longer tell if my dream will come true or not. Any time I think about a guy or just "meeting the right one" it doesn't feel right, like I’m trapped, clutched. A free spirit should never feel these things.

I sometimes stare at the setting sun as my lover because the sun and moon come together. Fire combined to water end an eternal dance saying “goodbye until the morrow”. I press my dreams between the sun and moon! Day and night, night and day, wishing I could finally have my adventure as days go by. One that will be grander than anything I could've hoped for in all my life. But alas....all gorgeous sunsets must come to an end.

This is how I see it. My legend between the most two talked about elements…..

Sun finally gets a breath of fresh air, meets the moon on the highest peak to fuel her fire and to quench his thirst, after years of wait….realization dawns on him. He cannot reach her, feel, taste, touch, in order to kill twenty-four seven agony. Sun watches Moon reflect the very emotion he feels. They engulf in sadness, desperate for one another. As they sink, bare hands are brought out desperate, finger tips skim. Their chance pass, both fades into an eternal night, blank of stars. Moon complete endearingly full, mourns as a mother would her child. She becomes a ghastly white nightmare, where water is nothing but an empty shell glistening across sand, coral and beaches. Pain swarms her, doomed to an earth real fate. Sun can bring no comfort to a desperate call, so lonesome and terrible, sound itself fall deaths quiet. In sheer heartbreak, Moon awaits for that one day, where Sun engulfs her, to bring a dwindled flame to life from decades gone by. That one instant may last seconds, but to them, will last centuries. Right here, with Sun and Moon, my dreams lie.

How can I compare to what is out there. I can't. So best I keep dreaming? Water can be lonely without sunshine to make known all its beauty. Bless those who found what they were looking for. I’m insane because God and Jesus are whom I'll ever need. And so I should feel full. Instead(probably because I haven't read the Bible or spent much time with him, which I'm ashamed to say)feel like some part of me is empty, like my journey hasn't even begun yet, that my adventure is still to come. I don't know anymore..... From what you’ve read …you tell me.

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I never share my personal thoughts, but this time...why the hellastone not? Here we go. I get very few replies so I'm not sure how many will read this. This is for my comfort in general.

I've loved mystery/romance/action adventure my whole life. Specifically, stories where a girl unexpectedly falls in love with her arch enemy, in disguise, and or by just some impossible weird way. My heart has been yearning for this and adventure so bad lately, I feel it ache, almost lurch out of my chest into my hands only to hand it over to the mafia. The regular cliché simple life, of boy meets girl, maybe a little comedy, a little romance, marriage, then glorious dealings with childhood.... I'm not content with that. It seems.......too normal for me. Total non adventurous, no battles whatsoever, the safe route. You probably hear what most people want. So I guess I'm not out of the ordinary as much as I thought I was. Go figure.

The short, sad, sweet and sour story is my first boyfriend screwed me over. The end. And now I know partly as to why. When I had been with him, something didn't seem right. He never held me right, or kissed me right. I started to question whether or not I wanted to be with him. This is where part of my yearning comes in. All my dreams of romance shattered, never to be found again, almost as though "this was it for me!! Nice knowin ya!!". I accepted that.... I realize how stupid I am for thinking such things. To let my ever increasing dreams slip away. HELLS NO!!! I’m frightened it could happen once more. And now that I'm free again, my yearn for adventure, full of rhapsody, burns and grows terrible, grasping for breath I never knew I needed, though unable to grasp it. Unfortunate I can no longer tell if my dream will come true or not. Any time I think about a guy or just "meeting the right one" it doesn't feel right, like I’m trapped, clutched. A free spirit should never feel these things.

I sometimes stare at the setting sun as my lover because the sun and moon come together. Fire combined to water end an eternal dance saying “goodbye until the morrow”. I press my dreams between the sun and moon! Day and night, night and day, wishing I could finally have my adventure as days go by. One that will be grander than anything I could've hoped for in all my life. But alas....all gorgeous sunsets must come to an end.

This is how I see it. My legend between the most two talked about elements…..

Sun finally gets a breath of fresh air, meets the moon on the highest peak to fuel her fire and to quench his thirst, after years of wait….realization dawns on him. He cannot reach her, feel, taste, touch, in order to kill twenty-four seven agony. Sun watches Moon reflect the very emotion he feels. They engulf in sadness, desperate for one another. As they sink, bare hands are brought out desperate, finger tips skim. Their chance pass, both fades into an eternal night, blank of stars. Moon complete endearingly full, mourns as a mother would her child. She becomes a ghastly white nightmare, where water is nothing but an empty shell glistening across sand, coral and beaches. Pain swarms her, doomed to an earth real fate. Sun can bring no comfort to a desperate call, so lonesome and terrible, sound itself fall deaths quiet. In sheer heartbreak, Moon awaits for that one day, where Sun engulfs her, to bring a dwindled flame to life from decades gone by. That one instant may last seconds, but to them, will last centuries. Right here, with Sun and Moon, my dreams lie.

How can I compare to what is out there. I can't. So best I keep dreaming? Water can be lonely without sunshine to make known all its beauty. Bless those who found what they were looking for. I’m insane because God and Jesus are whom I'll ever need. And so I should feel full. Instead(probably because I haven't read the Bible or spent much time with him, which I'm ashamed to say)feel like some part of me is empty, like my journey hasn't even begun yet, that my adventure is still to come. I don't know anymore..... From what you’ve read …you tell me.